Alright this is chapter one. It starts off right when she is going to the meadow without Jacob because he was ignoring her. When the Cullens killed James they also had killed Victoria and Laurent shortly after. So yeah….read and review plz!! 3

** I think I'm going to do the whole story in Bella's POV. I don't know yet though..

Chapter 1- Surprises

So here I was walking in the middle of a forest barely knowing whether I was even going straight. I wouldn't even have to be out here alone if only I had Jacob here. Sigh. I missed my own personal sun. He had really helped me to rid myself of the aching hole in my chest. Unfortunately he had been ignoring me for well over a month now. I had no clue why. All I know is that Billy is hiding something from me. So that is why I'm out here. I have to get to the meadow. I have to see him again.

I don't know what to think of my hallucinations. I know that if I were to tell anyone about them that I would probably be sent out to some kind of mental hospital. That's why I kept them to myself though. And why I was here. I should probably stay home keep away from anything that would remind of them, but I can't. I have to keep them my memories. Even if it hurts. I don't want to forget them.

As I had been mind babbling , a lot of time had past and I could see a ray of light up ahead. I sped up. Anxious to get to the one place that proved that he was ever real.

As I quickened my pace I started to trip more. I fell a few times scraping my knees and hands. I knew that that should hurt, but it didn't. I couldn't feel anything. I was completely numb. I have been ever since he left me. It was better with Jake, but now that he was gone too, I was numb again.

Finally after what seemed like forever, I burst through the tree barrier of the meadow. As fast as my spirit had lifted, it plummeted down again. The meadow was nothing more then a circle of lost hopes. Everything that was once green had turned brown and lifeless.

I fell to me knees clutching my chest trying to hold myself together. I had felt this pain so many times before that I knew what to expect. I also knew that there was no way to dull the pain. I could keep quiet now at least. The only problem with that is because of my soundless suffering, I heard the voice so clearly it could have been right beside me.

"Hello. What have we here? A young girl, defenseless, in the middle of the forest. Not really the smartest thing to now, is it?" The voice that said those words was inhuman. Really it was. As soon as I heard them I knew that I was in the company of a vampire.

I looked up to an inhumanly beautiful boy. He was even more beautiful then any of the Cull-…them. He had eyes that were almost pitch black. Uh oh. He had blonde hair that wasn't short but it wasn't emo long either. It flowed toward his face. He had sort of a round face. It was perfect really. He was around my age and by the looks of it, he was just a little taller. While giving him a full look over I couldn't help but be drawn to his eyes over and over again. They were almost completely black with red along the outside. He looked.. well he looked really, really thirsty. He had probably been out hunting with my luck.

"I was actually heading to the small town of Forks to hunt. But since you're here, away from witnesses, I wont have any problems." Yep I was right. Just my luck.

Even though I knew there was no way of getting away from a vampire, I still calculated escape plans on how to get away. I knew that I couldn't out run, fight, or trick a vampire. But maybe I could at least make sure that he killed me quickly and as painless as possible.

"Please, kill me fast. I don't want to much pain." My voice was only a whisper. If it had not been a vampire I was talking to he would not have heard me.

"Do you know what I am? A normal person would not have asked me to kill them. To normal people, I am just inhumanly beautiful." The vampire seemed kind of surprised by my answer.

"Yes I know what you are. You are a vampire, and a thirsty one to. I can tell because your eyes are black. I can also tell that you drink human blood because of the red around them." My voice was sounded a lot stronger and a lot more brave than what I felt. I think the vampire saw through it though. He might even know my reasons for saying what I did. His next words confirmed my suspicions.

"I can see that you are well informed about vampires. I can also tell that you are telling me this in hopes of me killing you quickly because of your knowledge." He paused, tilting his head to the side. "What would you say if I were to change you? Its either that or death. Your choice." He looked like he was telling the truth. I opened my mouth but no words came out. So I just nodded my head in fear that my voice would betray me.

"It that a yes to be like me? Or yes to death?" He said this a the same time taking a small step towards me. I swallowed twice , trying to get the courage to say something. I wanted more than anything to become a vampire, but not from this vampire. He was thirsty. I wonder if he would even have enough control not to kill me. Then again, if I chose to become a vampire at least I would have a chance. Whereas if I chose death…well anyone can figure that one out. So vampire it would be.

"Yes. I want to be a vampire." It was only a whisper but he heard it. A sly smile spread across his face. I hope I made the right choice. Before the thought even left me head, he was standing right in front of me. He looked deep into my eyes before lowering his mouth to my neck. I felt his cold breath on my skin making me shiver. At that moment I felt his razor sharp teeth dig onto my skin. It was the worst pain I had ever felt before in my life. Only seconds later I felt his teeth leave my throat. I had my eyes closed shut, and my jaw was clenched.

"Try not to scream. You might call attention to yourself. I am going now. There is no way I can take care of a newborn by myself. I wish you good luck in your new life." And with that I felt an unnatural wind brush my face, and I knew he was gone. I was alone. Again. Then my entire world blacked out.

Good? Bad? Please review!! Next chapter includes Jacob and vampire Bella!!! I will try to update as soon as possible.. This is my first fanfic…. So no haterz plz…. 3

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