Decker Figures it

by KATECRILEY

After Murdock returns from his time with Patty he has more problems at the V.A.

1. Chapter 1

Decker figures it out.

Katiemarie

Warnings none

Comments : please oh pretty please. I need them good or bad.

So lately I have been watching the show over again. And I don't get how Decker just lets Murdock go. There really is so much evidence that he is a an active member. Murdock is a great actor but the facts are there. So I am gonna play around with what happens after my last story where Murdock reappears in the VA with a broken arm. I enjoyed writing the last story so much that I am not ready to let the characters go.

Chapter 1

Murdock walked into his room at the VA. He had spent the last week with his new girlfriend Patty. He had to stay with her after getting hurt in the teams last job. It was a broken arm and a shoulder injury. He knew he could come up with a cover story, a few months before he came back to the VA with obvious powder burns on his face. Colonel Decker was all over him. Decker hung around for weeks trying to catch Murdock in a lie. Murdock laid the crazy act on thick .

He sat down on his bed and grabbed the phone to call Hannibal who also was back after a few days in Badrock with Maggie. He called the Van's mobile phone . Hannibal picked up on the second ring.

" Lou's Delivery." the voice said

" Hey Colonel."

"Captain." Hannibal was all business.

" Just letting you know I'm home. Got the the shoulder brace off now I just have the cast."

" Did you have a good time with Patty during your visit ?" Hannibal asked Murdock could hear the smile in his commanders voice

"Awe now Hannibal what kind of question is that"

" Murdock I don't mean it THAT way just wanted to know if you enjoyed your time in the real world. No gunfire no bad guys ."

" That I did, how was your time with Maggie?"

"Wonderful." Hannibal thought back to his week in Badrock. As the doctor in a small town his lady friend Maggie had to stick close to home but she had a lot of free time.

" I just wanted to let you know I was back at the VA"

"Any problems?" Hannibal asked with a touch of concern

" None yet but I have only been back a little while. I haven't even seen anyone yet. I just came in and headed back to my room. So the jury's still out on if there has been any questions about my absence." Murdock said eyeing his door

"OK either Face or myself will call and check on you tomorrow. If anything happens give us a call and we'll come get you." Hannibal knew Murdock could handle himself but that didn't quell his concern.

"Thanks Hannibal"

" Nite Captain "

"Hey tell BA I miss him" Murdock could hear BA yelling in the background about him being a crazy man and that he should just shut up.

Murdock laughed as he hung up.

Chapter 2

Murdock slept on and off most of the night, his shoulder was still sore. His cast itched he was just generally uncomfortable. He inwardly cursed the gorilla who hit him with a truck. Well it was stupid of me to be out in the open like that he thought. When the sun rose through his window he threw off his covers and got up. He entertained himself on a video game till his morning nurse opened his door.

She was all business as she greeted him. She really liked him but she had been hearing the talk his latest absence had caused. "Mr Murdock when did you return?"

"Oh hey Lynn, I got back late last night have you seen Billy anywhere? He hates when I am gone too long, I think he ran away." Murdock flashed her his best innocent grin

She looked him up and down and noticed the fading bruise on his head and the cast on his arm. "What in the world happened to you?"

Murdock's brain scrambled quickly trying to remember what his doctor 's cover story was. Dr. Richter was the only one who had any idea that Murdock was still working with the team. He only knew because Hannibal had caught him outside the VA and told him. But he was sworn to secrecy. He knew the difference that the team made in his patient's life.

"What?" Murdock asked innocently

" Your arm, your head? Come on Murdock be honest with me?"

" I fell out of a tree at the camp"

" You do remember I'm a nurse right? It must have been a big tree"

"And MY favorite. The tree was HUGE"

She just shook her head and walked out. She knew from previous dealing with the lanky Texan she was not about to get a serious answer. As she left he gave her a big grin as he waved at her.

He watched her leave and had a sinking feeling that wasn't gonna be the first inquiry about his whereabouts for the last weeks and his current physical state. He suddenly regretted his quick return to the VA.

Chapter 3

Murdock spent most of his first day back in his room, resting and just staying out of view. He did see Richter who didn't ask to many questions knowing he wasn't gonna get an answer. So he listened to Murdock ramble on about UFO's and killer Fruit bats. Finally he stopped Murdock from a new rant.

"OK Murdock are you gonna tell me about the last two weeks or should I call Colonel Smith."

Murdock gave him a confused look. "What, Who? Doc I think you are spending to much time with your patients. Your starting to sound like them."Murdock pulled himself into a sitting position.

"Murdock be straight with me, I put myself out on a limb for you these past weeks. I think I deserve an answer."

Murdock raised himself off the couch and walked around the room. He looked out the window and then went to the door. "You right you deserve an answer. I can't keep lying to you. Its not fair to ya."

The doctor watch him walk around the room and held his breath he was finally getting an answer from the man. He had been treating Murdock for a few years and respected his loyalty to his friends.

"So there is this girl I met, her name is Patty. She really loves me. I don't know how to handle it. I mean come on Doc I'm no catch. So for the last two weeks I have been staying with her. Trying to figure out if I could make it on the outside. But Doc I don't know I mean why would any girl in her right mind hook up with me."

Murdock sat back down on the couch and put his head in his hands

" How did you meet her?"

"Why does that matter, my point is I did and I need advice. Doc isn't that your job?"

"It matters Murdock, if you can't tell me how you met than how do I know she is real?"

Richter hated having to push his patient that way. But he had been dealing with Murdock for a few years. All he wanted was a straight answer .

"Trust me Doc she's very real... "

Before Richter could say anything else there was a knock on his door.

Without waiting for an answer the door burst open and Colonel Decker stormed in with Crane behind him.

Richter stood up to stop the onslaught of people in his personal space. Murdock had jumped behind the couch on reflex. Decker walked around the couch and grabbed Murdock by his jacket collar. He pulled Murdock from his crouched position. Murdock tried to fight but with his arm in a cast up to his shoulder he couldn't.

"Captain Murdock your presence is requested. He pushed Murdock out of the office. Richter tried to stop it but Decker just gave him a look and he sat back down. Murdock just sighed and shook his head.

"I guess we will pick up next week Doc." He gave the doctor a pleading look as he was rushed out the door.

After Murdock was ushered out of the room , the doctor picked up the phone and dialed a familiar number.

Chapter 4

Murdock was pushed down the hall he hadn't fought he wasn't in any shape to even try. So he just tried to keep himself a step or two ahead of Decker so that his arm and shoulder weren't being pushed or pulled. Finally Decker shoved him into an office.

Murdock ended up on his knees and he rolled onto his good arm. He stayed in there long enough to wait for the screaming of his muscles to stop. As he laid there trying to catch his breath and waiting for his pain to subside he glared at Decker.

"Murdock I have believed your act but no more."Decker spat

" What are you talking about?" Murdock played dumb

" It's all falling in place now. I can't believe I was so stupid." He spat

"Why did you pull me away from my doctor?" Murdock knew where all this was going but he couldn't help himself.

"Don't toy with me Captain, I know your still with them!" Decker yelled

"WHO ? What are you talking about?" Murdock stared up at him

"You know who I am talking about Smith, Peck and Baracus"Decker stood over Murdock who hadn't gotten off the floor yet.

" Look I think maybe you should be here more than me cause you are talking crazy Sir."Murdock pulled himself to his full height. He was a few inches taller than Decker. And felt a little safer having risen out of the vulnerable position.

Before Murdock could even blink Decker pulled his club from his waist and hit him hard in his side.

Murdock doubled over from the blow and tried to protect himself by moving back from the angry man.

Decker grabbed him and spun him around till they again were face to face. Murdock couldn't hide the hate seething though his body. He glared at the man in front of him.

"Is that all you got ROD. I've been hit harder by a two year old!" Murdock snarled He bore his eyes into Decker's. Showing nothing but contempt.

"I knew it was an act Murdock , I just need to bring out the REAL you. There is Hannibal Smith's training."

"OH no MY dear Colonel You haven't met the real me.. cause your still breathing."

" Hannibal taught me how to NOT react to my feelings. Maybe you should go back and read my files. Hannibal spent most of our time together trying to reel me in. I think I am probably the only person alive to actually scare him." Murdock said in a low voice never breaking eye contact.

Decker inhaled .He tried to regain his composure but it was to late Murdock knew he had shaken him. Murdock could hear people coming down the hall so he hit the floor. A few seconds later MP's burst in the room followed by Dr. Richter.

The MP's grabbed Decker and pulled him out of the room. The Doctor gently helped Murdock up.

"Are you alright Murdock"

"Yea doc fine.. " Murdock couldn't hide the anger coursing through him. He knew it wasn't over . His mind was raising with scenarios.

"Do you need to make a call? "

"Yea" and Murdock headed out to Richter's office.

Chapter 5

Doctor Richter had Murdock come back to his office so he could look him over. There was the a dark welt on his side where Decker's club had made contact. Murdock pulled his shirt down and winced as the adrenaline began to fade.

"Alright Captain what was that all about? Why was Colonel Decker so angry? And don't bother to try to snow me. I already put a call into your friends but there wasn't an answer." When Decker took Murdock out of his office he called the number Smith had given him but no one picked up.

" I don't know what set him off other than he has failed countless times to catch the guys. At least that's what he said as he used me for batting practice. Can I use your phone doc there are other numbers I know. Hannibal probably just gave you the vans number."Murdock crossed the room and picked up the phone without waiting for permission.

He called Face's phone and Face picked up.

"Hey its me." Murdock didn't wait for Face to say anything

"Hey Murdock whats up?"

"Are you with Hannibal and BA? "

" Heading there now."

" OK call me on this line when you get there."

"What's wrong?"

"I'm OK for now but I think I got major problems on the horizon FaceGuy."Murdock closed his eyes to control his racing thoughts.

"Tell me?"

"Nah I would rather only have to tell it once Face. But I am gonna need you guys to help me figure it out."

" OK hold on." Murdock could hear a horn blasting in the background. A few moments later Murdock heard face talking to BA and Hannibal, He must have covered the phone because everything was muffled.

Richter was watching him so intently that it made Murdock uncomfortable. So he turned the office chair he was sitting in around to face the window.

" Captain? Your on speaker what's going on" Hannibal asked

"Hey Colonel I just got an up close and personal visit from Decker. He dragged me out of my session with the Doc. Pushed me in to an empty room and told me he knew I was still on the team then used my side as a piece of meat."Murdock could hear BA yell in the background

"I'm gonna pound him in the ground." BA yelled

"Cool it BA. You OK Murdock he didn't hurt you did he?"

" No he hits like a girl but if the Doc hadn't come in with some MP's I don't know what would have happened. I scared the hell out of him. I was about to lose it Hannibal." Murdock started going through drawers in the desk. Richter pointed to the top drawer knowing Murdock was looking gum. He kept some in the office for him. Murdock found some and nodded at his shrink.

" What am I gonna do Hannibal. How do I get out of this one." Murdock asked desperation creeping in to his voice.

"It's gonna be fine Murdock are you still with Richter?"

"Affirmative Colonel." Murdock starred at the desk

'Murdock sit tight, let me talk to Richter. Stay in you room don't go anywhere with Decker if he comes back. I think we may have pushed Decker over the edge."

"Oh great and I am a sitting duck here." Murdock handed the phone to the Doc

" Hello"

" Doc listen to me, what ever you do keep Murdock from going dark on us. If he gets backed in a corner he can and will hurt someone. Can you do something on you end? Any legal aspect to keep Decker out?" Hannibal light a cigar and looked the concerned faces of his other two men.

"I am gonna call the brass as soon as I get off the phone with you. I didn't want to waste time before I just wanted to get to Murdock. Decker was angry and I was concerned about Murdock's safety."

" I appreciate you looking out for my man. But Doc I am being dead serious about not letting Murdock go dark. You know his file but I know the man. I have seen it and Decker would be in mortal danger if he pushes him to far."

Murdock took the phone back "Captain you hang tight. I will call you in a few hours." Hannibal hung up

" Murdock I am gonna escort you back to you room and tell the nurses not to let anyone see you OK?But what did Smith mean by you going dark?" the Doctor asked

Murdock had been pinching the bridge of his nose to stay off an impending headache.

" In Nam I had a bit of an anger issue. Hannibal had to pull me off of a few people who had decided that I was an easy target one night in a officers club. Well by the time he got me I had broken one guys arm and cracked the skull of another. If the colonel hadn't pulled me off I would have killed him."

"Everyone thought BA was the dangerous one because of his size. But I have more training thanks to the company. When Hannibal spoke to me about it he said I wasn't in control and he said my eyes had gone dark. So that's what he means by that. He told me that no one scares him but I did that day. It's not something I talk about." Murdock stood up and headed to the door.

Chapter 6

As they made their way down the hall Richter could see the physical change in Murdock. Gone was his easy relaxed gait. Now he was as alert as a cat in a kennel of rottweilers. He saw some MP's watching Murdock's approach . One placed their hand on his baton. Murdock swiftly crossed the hallway to give him as much leeway as he could but he didn't break eye contact. Richter quickened his step to walk next to his patient. They got Murdock's room and could hear his phone ringing. He quickly went in and grabbed the phone. Richter stayed back but didn't leave. He stood at the door and watched the hall.

"Yea"

" Murdock is that you?"

" Patty, hey darlin'" He sat down on his bed and tried to relax his muscles.

" Why do you sound weird?Is something wrong?" Patty asked . His usual tone was nowhere to be found.

" Hun everything's fine. I'm happy to hear your voice." Murdock tried to swallow the lump that quickly forming in his throat.. Now pictures of his pretty redhead were flashing through his mind.

From the hallway Murdock could hear angry voice's headed in the direction of his room. Murdock stood up and looked at the Doctor who was still in his doorway.

" I'm telling you General He's a fraud .He is still working with the A-Team I will bet my career on it."

"Patty darlin, I got to go ,I love you if you don't hear from me in 2 days call Hannibal."He could hear her yelling his name as he hung up.

Murdock backed as far into his room as he could. He really wished at the point he had his gun. But rules are weapons stay in the locked case in the van. None of them carry when they aren't working. Well none of them but Hannibal who wont go anywhere without his personal piece. It was a gift from the team a few years ago.

"Doc you can't let them take me out of here. If they do I'm dead."Murdocks voice was cold and flat. All signs of his usual personality replaced by another. This must be what Hannibal was talking about he thought. A chill ran down his spine.

Richter went to stand by Murdock and Murdock stopped him with a glance "Stay back Doc, If I need to fight I don't want you in the middle."Richter acknowledged him and stayed a few feet away.

"Colonel Decker I will not have you disrupting this hospital. And I will be dammed if I will allow you to man handle residents in my care." the voice of General James was a welcome sound to Dr. Richter. He was the administrator of the hospital and a good friend. They had served together in the war. He helped the Doctor get his job.

The General and Decker entered the room. The General didn't seem surprised to see Richter standing a few feet away from Murdock who looked extremely tense almost defiant. He had seen the man many times and usually he was smiling and talking .Any signs of mirth in his face had left. All he could see now was a solder ready to defend himself. Even with his arm in a cast James didn't doubt for a moment that Murdock could do it.

" Doctor Richter Captain Murdock would you like enlighten me on what is going on?"

" General the Colonel there decided to pull this man out of my office and hit him with his baton."

" Is this true Captain Murdock ,were you attacked by Colonel Decker?"

Murdock stared into Decker's eyes never breaking contact . "Yes sir it is. I was in session with the my Doctor and Colonel Decker pulled me out and shoved me in an empty room and yelled at me and when I didn't give him the answer he wanted he hit me." Murdock raised his shirt to show the bruise from the baton.

"He is a member of the A-team general and I demand the right to interrogate him. He also threatened me. If you won't let me get my answers I want him brought up on charges."

Decker took a step towards Murdock who had reached behind him and grabbed a baseball bat he kept in the corner. The staff hadn't seen it he kept a shirt hanging on it. He kept it hidden behind his body. But Richter saw it and placed his arm on Murdock's shoulder and shook his head. Murdock tightened his grip on the bat. Ready to swing it at Decker if he got any closer. Richter feeling the man's body tighten had backed up. He didn't want to get hit should Murdock swing.

"Charges ? FOR WHAT!" Murdock yelled

" Lower your voice Captain." two orderlies ran in the room with a straitjacket. Murdock's nurse close behind.

" I didn't do anything this maniac has been harassing me for years and today he crossed the line .If anyone should be charged its him."Murdock lowered his voice and took a step back to replace the bat to its hiding place. There were too many people in his swing zone . The staff was just doing their job and he would never do anything to hurt innocent people.

"There will be no charges . But there will be a full inquiry. Captain Murdock you confined to your room. I know all about your frequent disappearances. I have overlooked them because the paper work is always in order. If we have to medically restrain you we will." Murdock's color drained from his face. He knew what that meant. Injections and restraints. He would be unable to protect himself at all.

" Colonel Decker you are to cut off all contact with Captain Murdock until I figure this out." With that he walked out of the door.

Decker pointed at Murdock and said "This isn't over Murdock"

"Remember what I said Decker!" Murdock said in low tones. As the two men made their way out Murdock's room he crouched down and placed his head on his knees.

" Doctor Richter can I speak with you outside." General James asked Richter looked at Murdock who waved at him dismissively.

"You better go Doc , no reason to get you pulled into my mess." Murdock walked to his bed and sat down.

" I'll be back Murdock. I made a promise and I will keep it." He left the room the door shut and Murdock heard it lock.

" Awe man Hannibal I hope you got a plan" he thought

Chapter 7

Hannibal ,BA and Face were sitting in the living room of Face's temporary house.

"Decker hit him Hannibal man this bad" BA said

" No argument there Sargent" Hannibal stared pacing the living room cigar in hand

"Not to mention Colonel what if Decker gets charges brought up against him. I don't put it past the Military to nail him with everything. He could end up in Leavenworth." Face told him. " What will we do then? He has saved our bacon more times than I can count. Without him it will be a lot easier for Decker to catch us"

"Let's not worry bout us right now Face. We need a plan. How are we gonna help him I guarantee that we will be unable to get in to see him." Hannibal's face was lined with worry

Hannibal grabbed the phone and called Murdock's room. It had been a few hours and he needed to check on him.

Before Murdock answered he checked the hallway through the opening in his door. Not seeing anyone around his door he lifted the receiver.

" Update Captain"

" Awe man am I 'm glad its you. Decker pulled in the General who runs this place. Talking about interrogating me and wanting me brought up on charges for threatening him." Murdock didn't use Hannibal's name in conversation in case someone was listening outside his door.

"Can you get out of there?"

"That's a big negative . I am grounded until the tower clears me." Hannibal knew Murdock was stressed .When he was he used a lot of Pilot terms. Murdock felt like he was gonna snap.

" What do I do? Please tell me you got a plan" Murdock played with the phone cord

" I'm working on that Murdock. I'll come up with something. But If you can come up with something too it would be helpful" Hannibal couldn't lie to him. Plus Murdock was the second best plan maker in the group. He also had more information about the situation.

"Well there's always the window."

" No Captain we have to figure out a way to keep you clear of heat. We need you above the law. Not on the run with us."

" I understand. Not sure how we are gonna pull this one out of the tailspin."

" What about a lawyer?" Face pipped up.

"What do you think Captain. What if we do this the legal way. Decker wouldn't be expecting that. He is gonna expect you to do it the A-Team way but if we can get you a lawyer."

"I don't know what one could do. Are we talking regular or green?" Murdock asked

" I think it would have to be Military. I'm pretty sure a civilian lawyer wouldn't have any sway."

" I would rather just beat the snot out of Decker to be honest " Murdock said he said

" We all would Captain. We all would."

" What ever you think is best. I told Patty to call you in 2 days if she doesn't hear back from me. I don't know what to tell her right now I also don't want her driving over here and exposing herself . I don't put it pass Decker to try to use her as leverage." Murdock's heart sank at the thought of her. It was looking less and less likely that their budding romance was gonna get very far.

"Hang in there Murdock .I will call Patty and tell her not to run up there and fill her in a much as I can"

" Thanks" Murdock could hear BA and Face calling from the background words of encouragement and support. It lifted his spirits to know they were there and on his side.

" I will call you in the morning. If I can't get you I will call Richter" Hannibal was concerned that the hospital would take Murdock's phone.

Murdock hung up the phone and went to his closet. He grabbed is overnight bag. Packed it with clothes and important items. And shoved it under his bed. That way if he did end up making a hasty escape he was ready to go. Then he went and retrieved the bat and placed it in between the wall and his mattress. He decided the best thing to do at the moment was try to get some sleep . He needed to stay sharp and was already feeling hazy from exhaustion.

Chapter 8

Doctor Richter followed General James to his office.

"Sit down Allen. Drink?" the general filled to glasses with a brown liquid from a decanter on the table by his desk.

" How much do you know about Captain Murdock? Is what Decker is saying true?" James sat behind his desk and handed a glass to Richter

" The Captain is sick Rob. He was with them before but I don't think he is now."

"Come ON Allen , I have seen Peck in here with my own eyes. I should have stopped it. But I feel those men got a raw deal. I know the good they do out there now. And even if I hadn't the mysterious injuries. The disappearances. Decker is like a dog with a bone. He isn't gonna let this go." The general had Murdock's file on his desk. It was thick. He had been there over 10 years. He opened a part of the file that detailed Murdock's injuries after returns from trips.

" In the last year alone he has come back with whiplash, black eyes, bruises and most concerning was the burns and eye damage just a few months ago. Now I am no Doctor but all these injuries were inflicted by violence."

Richter was away at a conference when the last thing happened and a temporary Doctor was filling in for him .He had released all his patients after suffering his own mental breakdown. Murdock's return just happened to coincide with a passenger plane crashing into a terminal at LAX. It didn't take a rocket scientist to put two and two together. The news claimed it was an accident caused by brake issues. But If Murdock was on the plane and able to fly it that accident wouldn't have happened. But if he was and had been injured one of the other members of the team would have had to fill in for him. Richter had seen the man's face and the burns looked like power burns from a gun.

"Allen I know how loyal you are to your patients. But I need to know if I am gonna have a problem here. I can't help if I don't know what is really going on. I want to protect Murdock too. Please we have known each other for a long time. I trust you Now I need to know if that trust runs both ways." he loosened his tie and took it off.

" Rob I trust you so I will be honest." Richter took a breath and told him the truth

"Yes it's true." Richter watched his friends reaction. He couldn't read it.

"Dammit Allen how long have you known"

" I had my suspicions. He didn't admit it till today. But Smith approached me in the parking lot and asked me to keep an eye on Murdock. Then last week Smith called me to tell me about Murdock being injured. That is why he is in the cast. Murdock always denied it but with everything that happened today he finally told me. I also spoke with Smith, he is very concerned. But not about Murdock as much as he is for Decker. He says that Murdock can be dangerous when cornered." Richter took his glass and refilled it.

" Oh Hell. What am I supposed to do with this information. I could lose my job. I could get a court Martial."

" I could release him from care. Give him a chance to put some distance between him and Decker."

" Does he need the care? I mean didn't smith tell you he was dangerous."

" I could still treat but on a private basis. I think this maybe the only way to get him clear of this."

"Let me weigh the options. I will talk to you about this later. I think I would like to have a meeting with Murdock. One in a calmer atmosphere."

"When?"

"Well no time like the present. We are gonna have to move fast before Decker pulls in any favors. For all I know he is coming back with a court order right now to have Murdock removed."

Chapter 9

Murdock tried to sleep but wasn't having any luck. Every sound from the hall sent him into a heightened sense of readiness. He laid and stared at the ceiling. He heard keys jingle outside his door and jumped off the bed ready to swing if needed.

The night orderly came in "Murdock..The general wants to see you" He didn't approach Murdock just waited at the door.

"NOW? Isn't past office hours?" Murdock grabbed his jacket and hat.

"Don't know I am just doing as I was told. Man everyone is talking about you. I don't know what you did but its big"The orderly liked Murdock all the staff did. He was a nice guy and a lot of fun to be around. In fact Murdock had helped fix his car a few weeks before .Saved him a big bucks. He was always doing stuff like that.

As they walked to the office he asked Murdock what happened to his arm. "Got hit by a truck" Murdock replied

" I thought you fell out of a tree?"

'I did the tree was on the truck" Murdock's stomach was flipping and his body was sore.

"Hey could you do me a favor. Could you ask the nurse for some aspirin for me. I got a headache. And I'm pretty sure its gonna get worse." Murdock took a deep breath as the orderly opened the door to the office. He relaxed a little when he saw Richter sitting there. And a little more when he noticed Decker was not.

"That will be all Pete Thank you." The General said

"Catch ya later Murdock. I will tell Sally and have her leave the aspirin on your nightstand."

" That won't be necessary." The general reached in his drawer and pulled out a bottle of aspirin

" Please sit down Murdock"

Murdock took the other chair and sat down. He took the aspirin and a glass of water. He nodded in thanks at the General

"Now Captain I am gonna start off by telling you this meeting is off the record. Anything you say will stay between us." I have spoken to Allen . I mean Doctor Richter., He has told me some stuff but I need to know the truth from you. Are you still in contact with the A-team?"

Murdock felt like he had been kicked in the gut. He turned to his doctor and glared at him

"Thanks DOC. So much for patient confidentially."

"It's not like that Murdock you have to trust me. We are trying to help" Richter looked at him trying to calm him.

" HOW ? BY GIVING DECKER THE ROPE TO HANG ME WITH!" Murdock shoved his free hand in his pocket to keep it from getting him in more trouble.

"Like I said this conversation goes no farther than the three of us. I am just trying to get ahead of this before it's too late."

"With all due respect General it's too late. This freight rain is rolling and the only question now is how many towns is it gonna take out before it finally explodes."

"Murdock we can help you. I know it doesn't seem like it but we are on your side." Dr Richter placed his hand on Murdock's shoulder. He quickly pulled it away when Murdock glared at it

"Fine..It's true. There I said it. Its not like I can get any more screwed. Decker knows and he is gonna prove it. I just need to get out of here." Murdock put his head down in defeat. This had been one of his worst nightmares. He knows without him the team won't be able to avoid Decker for ever. But If he was out of the picture they might get out of LA and start somewhere with less heat.

"Can you Murdock? If I discharged you what would you do? " Murdock raised his head and looked at his doctor.

"What do you mean , like out out for good?" Murdock asked incredulously

"Yea I could still see you as a private patient. If you need me ."

" But won't that leave me open to prosecution .Right now the Army can't cause I am here. But If I am found sane and released ..they might try to use me as bait for the guys. Or worse charge me with everything just to cover their ass." Murdock got out of his chair and paced.

" They might try but if you aren't locked up here you would be harder to find."

"IF we do this how soon I mean would it take time" Murdock started to feel some hope.

"It will take a few days. I have to put the paper work in but with the generals help we could expedite it. So by the weekend." It was Tuesday.

" If this can happen before the Decker hits the fan I'll trust you Doc." Murdock stood up and walked back to his room.

Chapter 10

Decker was more angry than he could ever remember. He was positive now that Murdock was the reason that the team always got away from him. He always thought Murdock was lying. If he couldn't have the whole team he would settle for Murdock. Like dominoes he thought. One falls they all fall.

If only Richter hadn't interrupted him. He almost had him. He had stated talking he was off balance. Even though the look in Murdock's eyes made his blood run cold. Murdock was in no condition to fight him.

Now he couldn't even get to Murdock. He could though sit in the parking lot. He was sure Smith would come try to his mans aid. Then it would be over for him.

Decker had put a call into his higher ups to see if he could get a court order to remove Murdock from the hospital and have him relocated to the nearest base. He hadn't received an answer yet. So he sat in his car and pictured fun ways to get the answers he desired.

Murdock called the house where the team was staying. He knew someone would be awake. They never all sleep at the same time.

Face answered . Murdock greeted him and asked if the rest of the guys were around.

" Jeez Murdock this is the second call from you today that you didn't want to talk to me. I guess you don't like me anymore" Face tried to lighten the mood with a joke. He always did. Stress brings out his sarcastic side.

" Sorry Face but I just got an interesting offer from the Doc and a General James who works as the administrator here."

" OK hold on let me get Hannibal and BA." Murdock heard Face place the receiver on a table and then heard Face knocking on doors. Within a minute he heard Hannibal pick up the phone.

" What was the offer Murdock"

" Hey colonel I got summoned to the head honchos office . He knows about me. Richter told him. Evidently they go way back. So after I picked my jaw up off the floor. Richter offered to discharge me from care. I don't see any other way Hannibal. Especially now that the boss knows. He said he would protect me but can't say I put a lot of stock in a promise from the military."

"But what happens then. Does the government then come after you? " Face asked

" I don't know but at least I wouldn't be under Decker's thumb."

"Captain this decision is on you. Do you think your ready?" Hannibal posed the question that was on everyone's mind

"Well the doc said I could see him as out patient. It's gonna be different but its a better option than having Decker locking me up somewhere dark." Murdock couldn't shake the feeling that Decker was about to go off book. It was personal now. He spoke to the team for a few minutes and then ended the call.

Murdock thought over the offer from Richter. He would be free. But where would he go, what would he do? I wonder if I could get my license back? He always dreamed of owning a flight school. Training new pilots. Then there is the Team to add in. He is no longer their secret weapon. The major reason he was always successful with aiding their escape was no one knew he was there. Are they gonna worry about him all the time?So much to consider. The there was Patty. Their relationship was so new. What if she wants him to move in or something like that. Or worse she doesn't. She realizes he is just to much to take on full time. Murdock looked around the room. I need to get out. Just some fresh air and a chance to look at the sky while I think. He opened his window and removed the screen. BA had set it in a way that Murdock could get it out from inside. He climbed out the window closed it and headed to his favorite spot on the VA grounds. He knew he was running a risk of being caught but he needed to. Just a little while, He set his watch for a half hour. Then he would go back in.

Decker was still sitting in the parking lot when he saw a figure walk out of the shadows. He hadn't seen any cars pull in but watched to see where the figure was going. He could tell it was Murdock with out the aid of much light. He got out of the car and followed. Hoping to catch him with the rest of the A-Team. When he saw that Murdock was just sitting alone on a bench by the water. He realized the Captain wasn't waiting for anyone. So no one is going to come to his rescue this time. He quickly advanced on the unsuspecting figure.

Murdock was lost in is own thoughts when he heard a twig snap behind him. He automatically reached for his weapon and cursed inwardly when he found none. Suddenly he was hit from behind. He went down but managed to protect his arm. He flipped over on his back and kicked as hard as could to dislodge the body on top of him. In he moonlight Murdock realized the attacking man was Decker. Decker stood up and took a offensive stand. " I told you this wasn't over ,no one here to bail you out now." He yelled as he ran full sped at his combatant. Murdock realized he had no weapon but his own cast. So he gritted his teeth and swung his arm as hard as he could. He didn't make full contact but the glancing blow was enough to knock Decker on the ground. Murdock stood over him and said through his heavy breathing " I told you Decker not to mess with me. There may not be anyone here to help me but there isn't anyone here to save you either." Murdock kicked at Decker but missed as Decker rolled out of the way. He grabbed Murdock's extended leg and pushed it up. The momentum of Murdock's kick and Decker's push flipped Murdock backwards . He landed hard on his back. Hard enough to knock the wind right out of him. He laid there stunned fighting to catch his breath. Decker was straddling his chest holding his baton against Murdock's throat. His vision becoming pinpoint. He knew if he didn't get some air he was gonna pass out. He reached around on the ground grabbing for anything he could use as a weapon. All he could get hold of was dirt. So he grabbed the biggest handful he could and threw it in Decker's face. It hit him directly in the eyes. Decker released Murdock's wind pipe long enough for him to gasp for air. Murdock rolled onto his side and pulled in enough air to stave off the oncoming darkness. From the distance Murdock heard approaching feet. " His first thought was MP's . He tried to get up to run but collapsed. He tried again to rise to his feet just to feel his body being lifted off the ground. He started swinging desperately to get away. When he heard a familiar voice in his ear. " Murdock ,Man it's me relax." Murdock kept swinging "Murdock stop its me BA" Suddenly he was tossed into the van and he heard the tires squeal. He laid on the van floor panting. " Fool what the Heck was all that. Was Decker trying to kill you" BA asked.

When Murdock got his breathing under control he tried to talk but his voice only came out in a scratchy whisper.

" BA where did you come from?"

" Hannibal had me watching the VA , he figured that sucker would try somthin. What were you doing Man why were you outside alone"

"Needed to think, do it all the time. BA Pull over" Murdock said as he felt the bile rise in his throat

BA noticing his friend's distress pulled over. Jumped out and opened the van door .He helped Murdock out of the van. Murdock ran to the woods and fell to his knees. He managed to get control of his churning stomach without incident. But he still sat there on his knees taking large deep breaths. His throat burned. He felt like he may have a cracked rib and his cast was destroyed. He pulled the plaster off and cradled his arm. When he felt strong enough he rejoined BA at the van. BA helped him onto the front seat. As BA drove to the rendezvous point to meet with the rest of the team. He cast sideways glances at his friend. Murdock was sitting with his head against the window. His shirt was ripped .His hair was all over the place. BA then noticed he was just wearing a t-shirt and pants. He really did just go out side to think. No jacket , no cap. Murdock never goes anywhere with out them.

"Now what BA. I can't go back. If you hadn't stepped in Decker would have killed me." Murdock shifted in his seat and cradled his now cast less arm.

"We'll figure it out little brotha, We will I promise" BA pounded his fist on the wheel.

BA pulled into a truck stop and went and parked next to Face's car. Hannibal and Face were leaning against it. Hannibal opened the passenger door and took one look at his Captain and realized just how serious the situation was.

" I was watching the VA ,I noticed Decker in the parking lot. Then he got out and headed onto the grounds. So I got out to follow him. I heard him yell and the fight . I ran over just in time to see him on top of Murdock choking him with a baton. Murdock managed to get him off but that was all he could do. I picked him up and threw him in the van."

"What were you doing Murdock. Why go outside alone? " Face asked him

"I'M sorry guys, I just needed to get my head straight. I really didn't expect Decker to be out there. I figured he would have planted himself in some higher ups office to get his paper work to have me buried under some jail." Murdock used his good hand to rub his throat.

" Well I guess that's the end for me .It was nice knowing ya guys. Send me some cards. Maybe a nice cake with a nail file in it." Murdock said

"No don't think like that Murdock we will get this fixed but you have to get back to the VA. I don't like it either but I really don't think Decker will report this to anyone. He was attacking you. Hows your arm. Do we need to recast it." Hannibal inspected Murdocks arm. The swelling was gone. Murdock could move it.

" Nah Colonel I think I can get away with a an ace bandage. I really don't want to put a cast back on. It slowed me down to much. Although it made a nice club."

" OK lets go back to the VA and get you in your room. Hopefully no one noticed you were gone."

"Let's hope Decker split"

Chapter 12

The team shut the lights off and pulled around to the closest spot by Murdock's room they could. They got out of the van and listened . No sounds but the birds. Murdock headed back to his window. Quickly got in and went to his sink to wash up. He decided his best bet was to shower and get into bed. He had dirt and twigs in his hair . His shirt was a total loss. He took a quick shower and threw on some clean clothes. He wanted to be ready to run if needed so he didn't put on his pajamas. When he came out of the bathroom he heard voices in his hall.

" I'm telling you Sirs Mr Murdock is in his room." the door opened and in walked Pete and two other men. One was the head of the hospital the other Murdock didn't know.

"See there he is."

" I walked past this room not 5 minutes ago and it was empty" James was eyeing Murdock with anger.

"Sir I decided to take a shower. " Murdock flashed his most charming smile

'Where is your cast you had one on earlier today?"

" I got pudding in it. I was saving it for Billy .HE loves pudding. So when I took my shower it got wet and I pulled it off." Murdock shrugged his shoulders and knelt down to pat "BILLY"

"Well there were reports of two men fighting in the courtyard. Then someone saw a third man pick up one and sped off in a dark van."the other man said

"You sure you don't anything about the fight Murdock?"

"NO Sir why would I .You said I couldn't leave my room. And I always follow orders."

" OK James everything looks fine here. I will have a talk with the reporting party." the other man left the room.

"Pete go get the doctor on call tonight I want Murdock 's arm checked out."

When it was just James and Murdock in the room James stared accusingly at Murdock.

"It was you and Decker wasn't it. Murdock I can see fresh bruises on your neck. What in the world happened. Decker reported this. He said you attacked him."

Murdock spun around in anger. "That LYING SACK OF...UHHH. I went out to sit by the water like I do almost every night. He attacked ME.. ME tackled me from behind and we fought. I gave him a wallop with my cast and got out of there. That's why the cast is gone. Sir I can't be here." Murdock grabbed his Jacket and Hat , pulled his bag out from under his bed and headed for the window.

James stepped in front of the window. "Murdock stop, I can't let you go. If I have to use force I will"

Murdock reached in the back of his waistband and pulled out his 9 mil . He had snagged it out of the van when the guys were talking .

" Please General I don't want to use this but I wont be used as a scape goat either. I may be a lot of things but I am no patsy." Murdock's eyes were dark and cold." So just let me go. Feel free to tell them I pulled this here gun and you had no choice. A Madman with gun..real scary."

"Son we can protect you.. let us . We can keep Decker away. Get you out of this. This isn't gonna help anyone." James pleaded with the angry man.

"No I don't think you can.. He was just out there waiting for me to pop my head out of this hidey hole. The only reason I am still breathing is he didn't just shoot me and I had friends watching my back." Murdock took a step towards the window.

Richter was heading back to Murdock's room to see what had been going on. He heard about a fight in the courtyard. He saw Murdock holding a gun on General James. He slipped past the door and grabbed a needle and vile from the nearest med cart. He snuck in the room and while James was talking to Murdock he stuck the Captain and plunged the drug in. Murdock froze for a second and slipped down on the floor. The last thing he saw before blacking out was his doctor standing over him.

James picked up the weapon out of Murdocks hand and inspected it. It was unloaded. James was sure Murdock knew it was. He only had it as a threat for protection. James knew Murdock did have the clip though so he checked Murdocks unconscious frame and found the loaded clip in his pocket.

Richter called in the Orderly's and they picked him up and placed him on a gurney. They put him in a small room with restraints. Careful not to make them to tight on his broken arm. "At least for tonight he will be safe. This is gonna set our therapy back years." Richter locked the door behind him.

Chapter 13

The next morning Murdock woke up with a familiar headache. He couldn't move his arms or legs and the memories of the night before came flooding back. "Dammit Richter!" Murdock started yelling to get someone's attention. He had to get out of the restraints. They were hurting his arm and not helping him keep the rising panic he felt in his chest at bay.

The door opened and Dr Richter and General James walked in the room.

"Come on Doc let me up. This is no time to role play."

"You pulled a gun on me Murdock, you are staying in those restraints till I feel safe you wont try anything."James informed him

"Come on it wasn't even loaded. I know what I am doing." Murdock threw his head back and looked at the ceiling.

"But you had the clip in your pocket."

"Well a guns no good without bullets. I never would have shoot ANYONE who wasn't a danger to me."

"Look I'm sorry I scared you. But I am in complete control of my faculties. Sadly and terrifyingly in control. But leaving me locked in here is just like giving me to Decker or one of his cronies in a big nice bow."

"Murdock why didn't you wait for me .I told you we were gonna take care of it?" Richter said

"Thanks Doctor turncoat but I think my best bet is to take care of this myself." Murdock's voice had a steeling quality to Richters stomach.

Richter undid the restraints . He had to show Murdock he could still be trusted. He worked to hard and too long to lose the mans trust. He went to help Murdock sit up. Murdock jumped off the table out reach of the aiding hands..

"Murdock we need to talk. Decker filed charges against you for last night." James saw the tall mans face go pale.

" So let this straight. He attacks me. AND I'm getting charged. Yep Military justice at its finest." Murdock ran his hand through his hair.

" That's its I Can't do it. I am out of here ." Murdock threw open the door and stormed down the hall to his room.

Richter and James ran quickly behind him trying to stop him. They knew he was gonna lose it when he got to his room.

Murdock stood in the middle of his room looking around in disbelief. Everything was trashed. It looked like a tornado had hit the room. His dresser was dumped on the floor, his tv smashed. His closet emptied of its contents. His mattress had been ripped open. His over night bag, Jacket and cap were nowhere in sight. Even his video game system Face had bought him for his birthday was smashed.

Murdock felt like he was being ripped in half. This was his space. His sanctuary. He rushed to his closet and started pulling stuff off the floor to get to the back of his closet where he had made a little hollowed out wall. He pulled back the false cover and found what he was looking for. He breathed a little sigh of relief when he found his money stash and his code book. He stuffed all in had left in his pockets and grabbed a flannel from the pile on the floor.

He came out of the closet and looked at Richter. " where is my bag and jacket?"

"Murdock I have that stuff safe in my office. When we knocked you out I took them into my office."

"And my gun? That is mine too, a gift from a friend. I want it back."

"Just come to my office and talk for a minute. I promise I won't stop you if you still want to leave."

" You got 5 minutes Doc then I am gone. A Ghost ." Murdock set his jaw and followed the doctor to his office.

Chapter 14

Murdock waited for the Doctor to unlock his office door and walked in. He spotted his stuff in the corner. He went to it looked through his bag to make sure everything was there and put the stuff in his pockets in there. He threw on his jacket and cap.

"Where's my gun?" Richter unlocked a drawer in his desk and placed it on the table.

"Sit down and I will let you have it back." Murdock looked at him distrust evident in his eyes. Richter hadn't seen that look in years.

"What happened last night?"

"See like I said Doc ,you of all people shouldn't even have to ask. You have known me for over 10 years. I told the truth. " Murdock stared back

"How did you run into Decker. You were supposed to stay in your room."

" Getting bogged down in the whys and hows Doc. But if you must know I went to sit by the water to think. I was just gonna be gone a half hour. I even set my watch. He blindsided me and tried to kill me."

"He probably would have succeeded if BA hadn't been watching the VA for that reason."

"Times up Doc. I gotta go. While we were here having our little heart to heart Decker could be moving in at any moment. Although I would like to know who trashed my room? Murdock asked

"MP's were in there this morning . Decker wasn't since he still isn't allowed on the grounds but his second was in charge."

" So that makes two people out to get to me huh .. cant wait to see the trifecta." Murdock laughed bitterly.

"Two two hundred ,dont matter. They can't get me. Doc why do you think the A -team has survived this long on the run."

"They're good"

" No We are the best. And we are even stronger when we have a purpose. And now we do. So if you don't mind I will be taking my gun and clip back now"Murdock's hand moved so fast the Doc didn't have a chance to grab the gun before Murdock had it back in his waist band.

As Murdock stood to go to the window the Doctors phone rang. He picked it up expecting a call.

" Is he with you?"

"Murdock it's for you"

Murdock eyed the phone like it was a snake. He took it anyways and listened to the voice. He visibly relaxed when he heard Hannibal's voice on the other end.

"Where have you been we have been trying to get in contact with you all night."

" I spent the night in a drug induced coma. Complete with handy straps and rubber walls. It wasn't the nicest room I have had. But its up there in the top 3 behind that last hotel Face scammed and the Hilton.

"OK captain we are 3 minutes out looks like your with us."

"yep not much here now. They trashed everything I owned . So I am traveling light Colonel." Murdock told his friend

"I'll meet you around the corner. What Vehicle am I looking for?"

Murdock knew when things got to hot they would leave the van back and grab one to blend in.

"Blue sedan"

"Got ya colonel"

He hung up and looked at his former doctor .

"Well thanks Doc this will probably be the last time we see each other. It's been fun."

Murdock was out the door and headed to the fire exit. He popped the door and ran as fast he could to the waiting sedan.

Chapter 15

He watched Murdock run out to the street and jump in a blue sedan. Richter shook his head. He had wanted to help so much. Now he feared he would never see him again. He wasn't to concerned about Murdock's mental state. He was more positive now that Murdock was acting. Not when he first got there but as the years went on and he spent more and more time with his friends. His flights of fancy became more elaborate almost like he was putting on a show. He didn't know where that left him as a doctor though. Maybe He wasn't as good as he thought. Or maybe Murdock was just better.

General James came running up to Richter as the last bell rang. "What happened. Where did he go?"

"He's gone Rob. And he is probably safer with them than with us." Richter went back into his office and shut the door.

"You OK Captain'" Hannibal asked as he turned in his seat to look at the latest addition to the car.

Murdock held up a finger while he took a moment to catch his breath. His ribs were on fire from running.

"Yea thanks Colonel, Thanks guys thanks a lot. It was getting hairy in there. I mean like Big foot hairy."

"Murdock don't start with your crazy talk this soon" BA said

"It's a figure of speech big guy. Its not like I said Big foot was chasing me" Murdock smiled at Face who was laughing next to him.

Murdock felt all the stress of the last few days start to fade. But then a new thought tightened in his stomach.

" What now Hannibal. Decker is really REALLY mad at me. SO he may just shoot time next time. Not even try to take us in."

"I think we need to go on the offensive with old Rod .Give you your chance to get back at him. I don't like it that he attacked you from behind like that. Can't have him thinking you are an easy target. " the team had just pulled up to the van. They all got out of the car as BA and Face wiped it down for prints.

Murdock thought about what Hannibal said as he climbed into his seat in the van.

"But for now I think we should take a road trip to see Maggie to have her X ray that arm and make sure its healed up correctly and you didn't mess it up more last night." Hannibal picked up the phone and gave Maggie the heads up.

Murdock took the phone from Hannibal when he pushed the end call button and made a call of his own. "Some other place,Mac speaking"

"Hey there mac, Is Patty around I know she usually works this shift."

" Murdock what the hell is going on,Your face is all over the news. Reports you escaped and attacked a Colonel and A General?"Mac didn't know the lanky Texan well but what he did know none of the news reports made any sense.

"Mac that's not what happened , I was attacked by Decker, I did pull a gun on the general who runs the VA but it wasn't loaded. It was just so I could get away. It didn't work though." Murdock was rubbing his face .

Hannibal took the phone from Murdock who had now sat back in his seat and covered his face with his hands. Face put his hand on his friends back. Murdock leaned over and put his head on Face's arm. Something he hadn't done in years.

" Mac it's Hannibal what is the news saying."

"Their saying that Murdock is an escaped mental patient and should be considered Armed and Dangerous. He is also being accused of robbing the Bank of Hanoi and Murder."

Hannibal reached over and turned on the radio and caught the tail end of a news broadcast

"To recap today's top story. There was a violent break out of the LA Veterans hospital today.

Captain H.M. Murdock pilot of the infamous A-Team escaped custody today. He had been under doctors care for mental illness since the end of the Vietnam war. It is reported he put a Colonel Rodney Decker in the hospital and brandished a weapon at General Rob James and other staff members.

He is believed to be traveling with the fugitive group know as the A-team and should be considered armed and dangerous. If spotted notify the US Army do not approach or engage.

"Hannibal there have been cops here all day. People know you around here. More than that they know Murdock and Patty are together. I had to send her home she spent the whole day yelling and crying at everyone who asked about him. We love him but it's not safe here right now."

"It's OK Mac we weren't headed to you. Murdock just wanted to check in with her." Hannibal felt bad for the little family they had made at the bar. They knew about the teams status but this mess with Murdock's was worse because it was all fabricated. His captain didn't deserve this .

"Have him call her at home that's where she is. And tell him we're sorry and we support him too."

"OK Mac give our love to Jane"

" I will you guys be safe" Mac hung up.

" I didn't put Decker in the hospital, Colonel you got to believe me."

"Yea I was there Decker was fine just had some dirt in his eyes. He almost broke Murdock's windpipe."

" I know guys. Murdock what is this about a gun? Is there any truth?"

"When you guys were talking outside the van , I grabbed my 9 Mil." Face BA and Hannibal looked at him with shock.

" Look it wasn't loaded. I took clip out and put it in my pocket when I got out the shower. I didn't feel safe,. I didn't know if Decker was gonna come back. So when General James tried to stop me from going out the window. Yes I pulled it. It was just so I could get out of there. I am not exactly in the best shape for hand to hand right now. But then Richter hit me with a sedative and I spent the next 6 hours strapped down to a gurney. Richter even gave it back to me." Murdock knew he was in some trouble with Hannibal now.

" I want to yell right now Murdock but I can't blame you. You broke one of our top rules. No weapons off a job. But I can't tell you I wouldn't have done the same thing in your shoes. We have more problems than you taking your gun."

"Yea every half wit bounty hunter is gonna be on the look out for Murdock now. Like we didn't already have that problem. But people have kinda forgot about us or just don't care. But this new and fresh." Face said

" Maybe I should just turn myself in. I could try temporary insanity again. I mean it worked for 10 years right." Murdock suggested his voice sad

" No Captain the best place for you is with us."

"Yea Fool you ain't going nowhere. I won't let you if I got to break your legs myself. So don't go getting no crazy plans." BA growled from the driver seat

" Thanks Big Guy I wont run off I promise. I got no place to go now." Murdock took his hat and covered his face.

" Murdock you should call Patty and let her know your alright." Face said gently

"What's the point Face. I don't need to bring all this to her doorstep. Its for the best I just disappear. Let her move on."

" Shouldn't you give her a say in that?"

The van phone rang and Murdock's heart broke afraid it was Patty calling . It was Amy.

" Hannibal its all over the wire. Murdock is he OK? He put Decker in the hospital? Not that Decker wouldn't have deserved it. But a gun at the VA he wouldn't do that. Is this just another attempt to draw you out. I have been trying to get hold of you guys since it broke but no one answered any of the phones."

Amy listened to Hannibal explain what happened.

"Anything you can do kid to help clear Murdock's good name would be appreciated."

" NO Hannibal NO. Tell her not to . I don't want her dragged into this!"Murdock yelled.

" Colonel the Army has already turned on me and changed all the facts of the case on a personal vendetta. What do you think they would do to her if she went in sniffing around. Besides I am sure that Decker has her staked out. So Dammit NO . I will handle this. But I'm not putting any one else in the line of fire."

"OK Captain, you heard him kid don't do anything. We will be in touch." Hannibal hung up

Hannibal answered 3 more phone calls , One from BA's mom , one from Maggie who told him everything was still safe in Badrock. Finally Patty got through and demanded to talk to Murdock.

Hannibal shrugged and made Murdock take the phone. "Hey BA pull into the rest stop. Let's give them some privacy."

The guys got out and left Murdock alone in the van.

" Murdock Dammit talk to me" patty yelled

" Hi Patty." he didn't know what to say so he listened as she yelled at him. She yelled at him about the sudden hang up the last time they talked. His having Hannibal call her instead of calling her himself.

When she had spent all her anger she hiccuped and waited for him to respond.

" What do you want from me Patty. Isn't it obvious that this can't go any farther. I mean how much more can the universe throw at two people before its crystal clear that one of them isn't allowed to have happiness." Murdock wiped his eyes that had filled with tears.

" We had a deal. You promised if I stuck by you,you would be there. Now you want to bail." her voice was rough with emotion.

" I know what I promised and I meant it. But Babe everything is different now. I am numero uno on the governments hit list. How long is it gonna take for them to find out I have you. Then what.. Huh ?

"I get to watch them haul you off in cuffs as a co conspirator or some other trumped up bullshit. Or worse a bounty hunter knocks on your door one day and takes you as bait."he said

" But But I love you"

" I love you too and that's why I have to go I can't have in danger because of me. Not now Not ever. I can't protect you on the run Patty. Please don't make this harder than it has to be."

" I'll come with you."

"This is no life Patty, not for someone like you. You deserve a home , a man who loves you and kids. Lots of little beautiful kids that look just like you. I love you but I can't give you that as much as I wish I could. I will always cherish our time together. My beautiful Irish lass. With your green eyes that twinkle when you smile. And the way you crinkle your nose when your mad. Murdock could feel his throat closing as he spoke the next words."Be happy Patty. For me. Be happy enough for both of us." And he hung up.

He threw the phone at the windshield. It hit it but didn't break the windshield but the phone was shattered. Just like Murdock's heart.

The guys were out side talking about their next move when they saw the phone fly from the back seat and hit the windshield. BA went to open the door and Face stopped him. "Give him a minute. We can a get a new phone. He's hurting BA."

" Wasn't gonna yell at him Face. Feel bad for him. He shouldn't be going through this. He didn't do nothing"BA shook his head and walked away.

"I think we should pay a visit to Decker. Try to get him recant his lies." Face said

"I agree Face, but not right now. Lets get Murdock on more stable ground. Physically and Mentally"

" OK." as Face went to say more the van door opened and Murdock joined them.

" You Alright Murdock?"

"Sure Face Sure Face. YA know typical day in H.M Murdock's life. Shit in shit out. Hannibal you wouldn't have a cigarette would you?I haven't felt the need since Nam but I need something." Face and Hannibal watched him. The pain he was going through etched every line in his face. Hannibal opened his door and reached in the glove box where he kept his cigarettes. He didn't smoke them often mainly when he was out of cigars.

" Sorry about the phone guys..I will replace it. I got money." Murdock took a long drag off the cigarette Hannibal had handed him. He immediately regretted it as he started hacking and felt dizzy and nauseous at the same time. He put it out and climbed back in the van.

The guys headed back on the road. Stopping at the first electronics store to replace the shattered handset. If only they could get Murdock's life fixed that easy.

Chapter 16

They pulled into Badrock and Maggie met them at the van. She quickly embraced Hannibal .

"Hey Mo, He hugged her back and they walked into the house with BA ,Face and a very forlorn looking Murdock behind them.

" OK Murdock head into the exam room.. Let me get a look at you."

He just shrugged and went with no argument.

" He hasn't said anything since we got back on the road. He ended it with Patty." Hannibal told her

" That explains the call I got from her." they met at the A-team appreciation party. Maggie immediately took a liking to the friendly red head. They had exchanged numbers to keep in touch and had made plans to get together.

" Why Hannibal he was so happy."she asked

" Well he can't exactly date while on the run" Hannibal said

"We do" Maggie crossed her arms over her chest and gave Hannibal a look that made him blush.

" Their not us Mo" He hugged her again

" Well let me go get him checked over , there is food in the kitchen if your hungry."

She walked into the exam room to find her patient staring out the window.

" Murdock Jacket and Shirts off. I can't ex-ray your arm though them."

" Sorry Mags" he did what she asked and She looked at the obviously new bruises. He had on his side , one on his back and one on his neck. She said nothing as she examined his arm. It seemed stable on first exam but she needed an x ray to tell.

" So you have had a rough couple days I hear"

"You could say that"

" Ya wanna talk about it" she asked gently

" Well in a nut shell Decker ruined my life. Just when it was getting good ya know. I had a girl. I was feeling good for the first time in a long time. I was gonna look into getting out the VA game ya know.."

"Maybe get a place out by Patty, work for Mac. But I had even thought about getting my license back and opening a school." The pain in his brown eyes broke her heart.

"Don't throw it away. I mean Me and John we work. Not saying that it isn't hard but we make it work cause it' s important." She took his hands in hers and tried to catch his eyes

" I'm not Hannibal." he pulled his hands away and started pulling on his shirt. He felt vulnerable enough without having a heart to heart without a shirt. He also knew she had seen the new bruises and he had too and they made him angry.

"Decker do those. I mean I know John was me so you guys weren't working."

"Yea.. Don't matter according to the news I put him in the hospital." Murdock threw his jacket across the room in anger.

" I heard that too, I don't believe it though."

" Why ya think I couldn't? I could have. I could have killed him if it wasn't for that ridiculous cast I was stuck in. Had my arm not been broken." He was balling his fists over and over. She walked over to his jacket and picked it up.

" I know your capable of doing it. But you wouldn't have..killed him. That's not you." She handed him his jacket and he put it on.

" You don't know me. You know a version of me. The Facade of Murdock that I wear. But you don't know the real me.. no one does."

" What about the guys, I'm pretty sure they know you."

"There are versions of me that I play for each of them. The geeky acting partner for Face to help run scams. The childlike annoyance for BA. Hannibal's partner on the jazz. Ready to feed into his wild imagination. But none of them are me. Hannibal saw the real me once. And it took him months to not look at me different. With mistrust and fear . But it was getting good there. I was able to let my walls down with Patty. I was finally finding the real me. The one I was before the War ,Before the Camps .Before the pain. Now I don't know." he heard his friends behind him. He realized they had heard it all.

" Captain we do know you. The real you. You don't think we see though all that."

" Come on Murdock give us some credit. You don't go through what we did and not see the truth of who everyone is." Face told him

" Yea Fool, we know you. Its too bad Decker doesn't"

"Yea cause if he did ..he would have been on the first bus out of town" Hannibal added

Murdock just blew air out of his cheeks. He shook his head and looked at his friends.

Maggie came back with the X-ray put it up on her light stand. "It's healing good Murdock. You still have to have something. I wont put you in a full cast but I am gonna put you in a brace. They are lighter and less restricting. But it will protect you arm. For now I am gonna wrap it till I get the right brace. It will take a few days to get here.

"Thanks Maggie, Sorry guys " He said again

"Dammit Murdock stop apologizing. You got nothing to apologize for." Hannibal went and for the first time since this started took his captain in his arms. He felt Murdock tighten but then relax.

" We are gonna get him. We're gonna fix this." Face said as he placed his hand on Murdock's back.

"Yea man That sucka aint seen nothing yet." Murdock felt BA's hand on his other shoulder.

As the men pulled back from the unusual show of affection. Murdock turned away to wipe his eyes.

"OK now that's done lets go make a plan." Hannibal said.