Forks was going to be Hell, I 'm pretty sure of it, but Renée deserved some time alone with Paul. So here I am, in the most depressing town of this country, here I am going to be stuck in a rainy routine, my skin used to sun was going to get wet.
Charlie was trying his best, we never were close, but I can say he's trying, it makes feel safe, welcomed. When you're coming back to a father you barely talked to, you feel like a burden, I hope this feeling will stop. He gave me a truck "to go to school"...two things One I love it, not the truck, but the intention, the idea of it, being independent not burdening him with driving, Two I don't wanna go to school starting over is so hard, in the middle of the year in a new town. But since I have no choice then Be it.
First day was ….odd... in a good way, I guess. Lunch time came, I sat on a table with Jessica, Mike, Angela and Sam. We were chatting, actually I was listening to them chat, until I felt the urge to turn around, like my body was craving for me to, so I did.
What can I say, I saw the most beautiful people I've ever seen, one of them more than I even thought possible, she was tiny, short brown hair, she looked my way, My body shivered under her gaze, she on the other hand looked like she was struggling, she took her eyes away from me. I felt cold.
"It' the Cullen's family" said Jessica
"Who is she?" I asked, looking at the brunette, hoping she'd look back, she didn't
"Alice Cullen, the blond next to her is Rosalie, and her boyfriend Emmett, the tall boy is Edward and his boyfriend Jasper" said Mike
" They are not blood related, Carliste Cullen, seems to be holding a foster house and a dating website" laughed Sam
"Is Alice with anyone?" I asked surprised by my own bluntness.
"Not that we know of, but then again we don't really know anything about them" answered Angela
Single, then I hope...I mean ….I don't know what I mean, I'm just relieved that she's not in love with anyone...Don't ask me why I am not ready to answer.
I kept throwing side glances, to their table which they seemed to notice, especially Edward who was looking at me, as if trying to figure me out. I wish he couldn't... I wish she would look at me. She doesn't.
Biology class, was starting in five minutes, and Mike was telling me something about a football game or baseball, I wasn't really listening, in fact since I saw Alice I wasn't really doing anything, it's like I was put on hold until I saw her again.
When I enter the classroom, I heard nothing but silence, and eyes turned towards me. Awesome, I'm late.
"Well, I take you're Bella Swan, daughter of chief Swan and new in my classroom"
I nodded " Yes, sir"
"Fine, well, welcome Bella, take a seat, please, next to miss Cullen, and try to be on time from now on"
I wanted to hug my teacher, a wave of joy rushed over me as I was taking a seat next to her, she on the other hand didn't seem thrilled, she looked pained, almost disgusted.
"Hi" I said
She just nodded on my direction, turned her head and kept staring at the window, I was starting to feel self conscious, what is wrong with me?
An hour passed, without her acknowledging me, I was angry at her, sad, and revolted at myself to let her, a girl I didn't know hurt me so much. As soon as the bell rang, she literally flew out of the class.
So much for wishful thinking.
I went to the administration, to get my official schedule, she was there, obviously irritated.
"You surely have another class, I can intend to, anything really"
What class, what is she talking about? And why do I care so much?
"No, I'm sorry you'll have to stick with your biology class, miss Cullen"
That hurts, I wanted to tell her something, anything really, just talk to her.
"Fine" she stormed out, and I still couldn't muster a single word.
When I got home, that night, my thoughts were filled with her, she invaded every bit of my mind, and heart. Why wouldn't she want to be around me? Sure I am not even close to meet the standards of her family beauty, but she didn't even knew me, yet she was avoiding me. Maybe I wasn't worthy of her time, maybe she figured it out faster than anyone else. Still, I was desperate to be close to her.
I do not believe in things such as love at first sight, you have to be mentally damaged or French, in order to believe that you can fall in love just by one sight, one simple stare, fall under her spell as fast as under her gaze. And since I am not French, I take it I am mentally damaged, because, God be my witness what I feel for that girl, I can't even make sense of it myself, but it sure feels strong, stronger than I ever felt, a love that strong, that I am not sure I can carry it. It scares me. Even more now that I see she despise me.
Tomorrow I'll talk to her, I don't care tomorrow I'll do it. I fell asleep, the picture of Alice, drawn in the inside of my eyelids.
Next day, came faster than I expected, I was ready, brave like a soldier going to war and equally terrified. Alice, wasn't at school that day, or the day after for that matter, she disappeared for a few days. Few agonizingly long days, in which the Cullen's kept throwing weird looks in my way. It was starting to get on my nerves.
"Hello, my name is Edward" I jumped...God how did he get here without me noticing!
"I'm sorry didn't mean to scare you" he said, he seemed sincere and guilty
"It's okay" I said
He stared at me, and smiled "You're Bella, right?"
God he must think I am a basket case "Yeah, sorry, I am Bella Swan, nice to meet you Edward"
He was handsome, flawless, his skin was pale and perfect, the most beautiful man I ever laid eyes on, still nothing compared to his sister.
"So Bella, how are you enjoying Forks so far?" he asked, and he looked like he was actually interested.
"I don't know, It's different from Jacksonville, but I think I'll get used to it"
"So you're from Jacksonville?"
"Yes, I lived there with my mother but she got married recently"
"And you don't like her new husband?" It's like this guy wanted the story of my life.
"No, no it's not that I just thought, they might want to be alone together, you know"
"I understand, that's nice of you" he concluded "And do you enjoy living with your father?"
I was taken aback by this question, asked by a guy I barely knew, he must of sensed my discomfort
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable, it's just you're not easy to read, it makes you interesting"
I looked at him, and felt like, he cared, is it a weird thing to say? It is. It's just that I don't know..
"No, it's okay, no harm done" I smiled "Where's your sister? if you don't mind me asking"I couldn't resist anymore.
"Which one?" he smiled, I know he knows I'm talking about Alice, but he enjoys teasing me apparently.
"The only one I know" I answered
"Alice, she, she has migraines, and sometimes, they're strong enough to make her stay home" he answered.
Alice is sick My Alice is sick, wait My Alice? Where did that come from?
"Is she going to be Okay?" I sounded as alarmed as I felt.
"Yes, she is don't worry, she's always fine, plus she's not sick enough to stop driving me crazy at home, so yes she's fine" he smiled "You care about her don't you?" he asked.
"I didn't even spoke to her" I said
" That wasn't my question" he smiled "but it's okay, you'll talk to her soon I"m sure" He said, and I believed him.
I started to think about what he said, Alice driving him crazy, it's hard to imagine her at home, I realized how little I knew her. It made me sad.
"As much as I love our conversation Bella, I have to go, please don't be a stranger around me, I like you I hope we can be friends"
"I'm sure we will" I said convinced.
The day ended, I got home.
As I got in my biology class, a week exactly after, my disastrous first face to face with Alice, I saw her, she was back. I walked to my sit ready to tell her, everything I had in mind, but as soon as her eyes fell on mine, every word I've ever learn was forgotten. Golden eyes, were looking at me.
"Hello, I am Alice Cullen" she said
"I know" is all that came out of my mouth.
she smiled to me "And you're Bella Swan, but I suppose you know that too right?" she laughed.
Is it possible to blush to death? No, I thought so. Jesus !get a grip, talk to her! Still no word out of my mouth
"I am sorry for the way I acted, last week, I wasn't feeling very well I had -"
"Migraines" I finished for her, rather unsubtly, thanks brain I owe you really!
She laughed, for the second time, her laugh is my favorite sound in the world, her voice too, actually any sound she'll make will be worshiped by me.
"So how are you enjoying Forks so far?" she asked
"Your brother, Edward, asked the same question, like exactly the same one" I said in disbelief.
"Well, did he got an answer?" she said teasingly
Okay teasing, family thing, noted.
"I told him, that I will get used to it, eventually"
"What do you think about the weather?"
"You're talking about the weather?" she nodded "I don't like cold, I miss sunny Jacksonville honestly"
Her face turned incredibly sad, I wanted to take back what I said, I'll love rain if it makes you happy!
"Yes, I get it" she said her face returning to no expression at all, and started with our science project.
We won a golden onion, if I were brave enough I would tell her, to keep it, it suited her eyes, but I am not. Alice was currently walking me to my locker.
"So, if you're with your father just to give space to your mother, isn't it too hard for you to adjust living with your father?"
I looked at her, shocked. She smiled.
"Edward asked, right?" I nodded "Oh, well, next time I'll make sure to ask you first" she laughed.
"I didn't answer him" I said, as if it was supposed to make her feel better.
" You must think we're crazy" she smiled shyly, with a look of a guilt.
"It's a bit hard, but Charlie and I we get along, and he's my dad, so I love him anyway"
"You didn't have to answer"
"I wanted to" I smiled "You know the first time I saw you your eyes were black, and now they're gold" I stated
She looked completely taken aback "eyes don't change color, it must be the lights, anyway I have to go" Just like that she disappeared from my sight
Damn you! Damn mouth!
Alice was nowhere to be seen for the rest of the day, and I searched for her, it's okay I guess, at least we're making progress, I mean we talked. Weird thing is I can't get enough of her, few words make me crave for a few more and then a lot more. It's like an addiction really.
I was trying to read a bit, lying on my truck, the Cullen's were on the other side of the parking, talking to each other, I wanted to go over there take Alice's hand and take her away with me, cheesy much? I was so deep in my daydreaming that I failed to notice the screaming tires, in less than a second I found myself in Alice's arm while she was still resting the other one on the car that almost hit me.
We were only a breath apart, she was looking straight in my eyes, and I fainted.
Next thing I know, I wake up in a hospital bed with Charlie next to me.
"Hey, you're awake, I was worried sick about you"
A man entered the room "Hello, I am Doctor Cullen, you're fine Bella, just fainted of shock but no damages"
"Thanks to you daughter" I said
"What?" asked Charlie
"Alice saved my life she -"
"pushed you just in time" finished Mr Cullen
NO, she stopped a car with her hand, with just one, catching me with the other, not to mention how fast she got by my side."
"Yes, she did"
Charlie was waiting for me in the car, I gathered my stuff and started walking to the exit, when I spotted Dr Cullen, Alice and Edward talking.
"I couldn't let her die" said Alice
"You did the right thing" said Edward
"Yes, but now you'll have to be more careful, and I think we should continue this conversation later" he added as he turned to me.
"Can I talk to you, please" I asked Alice
"Edward would you come home with me, Alice you have your car?" asked Dr Cullen
"Yes, I do" she answered
So here I am alone with Alice, who just saved my life.
"How did you do it?" I asked
"Do what?"
"Stop the car, with your hand"
"No one can do that Bella, you must be confused you hit your head pretty hard" she smiled
"I am not crazy, I know what I saw"
She looked like, she would give anything to see me let it go...
"Can't you just say thanks and leave it there?" she asked harshly
"Thanks, it's just that... I don't know"
"You should go, your father is waiting for you" with that she left.
Have I blown any chance of having Alice in my life, I mean come on she saves my life and I go Colombo on her, but come on it was like a movie thing, a superhero movie like, where the hero saves the girl before kissing her, yes I know all my thoughts about Alice ends with a kiss, so what? Can you blame me?
I got home, I fell on my bed and slept like a baby, I was exhausted, it had been a hell of a day, at some point during the night I woke up to be faced with Alice's face, as soon as my eyes opened she disappeared. Was it a dream, pretty sure it wasn't I saw her, I'm sure I did, didn't I?
The next morning, I was really late for my classes, too late to search for her, I went through my classes, well decided to get my old self back, Alice has obviously no interest in me, if anything I upset her every time I spoke to her. I was getting ready for a field trip with our science teacher.
Mike was standing, next to my truck, I suppose waiting for me.
"Hi, Bella..." I didn't hear the rest I just spotted Alice, and she was looking in my direction, not at me, but in my general direction.
"So would you go to the dance with me?"
Oh God!
"I can't Mike, I am sorry, I have to go to Jacksonville"
"Can't you go another week-end?"
"No I'm sorry, it's a non-exchangeable ticket, but you should ask Jessica"
"Erm, Okay fine, well OK, bye"
"Bye"
Alice was smiling, when Mike, went away, I know he's a nice guy, but I'm not really in public events, especially not the ones that involves dancing.
I was walking in the areas of the plantation, with Mr Jones telling us what there is to know about plants reproduction, all really fascinating, really...
"So, you're heading to Jacksonville?" said Alice joining my side
"Erm, what? How do you-"
"I heard you talking to Mike"
"Yeah I am going to-" just like that I slipped, and felt a strong arm holding me.
"Can you at least try and be careful" she said harshly
I was kind of out of it, blaming myself for slipping, but the point is I couldn't seem to do anything right when she was around, fortunately I was saved by Jessica...
"Guess who just asked me out to the dance?"she said joyfully
I looked over at Alice, who seemed to be struggling as always, and I left with Jessica, didn't even say goodbye, all I wanted to do was get away from the pain, of her not loving me. Wait I mean liking me, I mean wanting me as much as I wanted her. All I could see in her eyes was regrets, and it's all I've seen since the day she saved my life. Maybe, she did regret saving my life, maybe she still thinks I'm worthless, Hell! I think I'm worthless why would she believe I am anything but?
When the tour of the plantation was finally over, I went out before everyone, well not everyone obviously Alice was there, I don't know if she was following me or the other way around, but what I do know is she keeps crossing my way unexpectedly, and even though every time we spoke it ended weirdly I was always happy to talk to her again, not exactly happy, more like satisfied, more like an addict who just had a shot.
"I don't think we should be friends Bella"
"Look, I don't get you, sometimes you're friendly then cold, I just don't understand you, if you regret saving my life so much just say it and let's get this over with" I didn't know why I blurted all of this out, it word came crashing down without me knowing.
"You think I regret saving your life"
"No I know you do"
"Well, then Bella Swan, you sure don't have the faintest idea of -"she was cut off by Edward
"Bella, you're riding with us?"
"No our bus is full" answered Alice for me
Not gonna lie, it blows, it's like I was dying to get close to her, but every time I tried, to get through her walls, it seemed I made them stronger. So I climbed in the second bus, resigned to not be able to be her friend nor to get over her. Needless to say, I wasn't even considering being more than her friend anymore.
Few days passed by, days in which Alice gracefully ignored me, just like she ignored anyone else really, just her and her family, but I couldn't bring myself to be fine with it.
Edward came to sit with me, in the library..
"Hello Bella, How are you?"
"Fine, you?"
"Fine, I am a bit worried though, Alice told me you thought she regretted saving your life"
"Did she?"
"Yes, don't blame her, she tells me everything, I am her brother after all, she can't hide anything from me" he smiled
"Okay" I didn't know how to answer that
"Anyway, I wanted to tell you that you were wrong, Alice never regretted saving you and never will, in fact she would do it again in a heart beat"
Okay, Alice didn't regret saving me, but then what's her problem with me. What have I done to upset her that much? To have her hating me?
"May I ask what you're thinking?" said Edward. I must've zoned out on him
"It's just I don't get your sister"
"And it bothers you"
"Yes, I mean no, what do you want to know exactly?"
"Nothing, I told you Bella I'd love to be your friend, and I just want to make you feel better"
"That's nice of you Edward, but I am fine"
"Okay, I just want to tell you Alice, she's not a mean person, she's actually one of the nicest and most selfless persons I've ever known, and I am not saying that because she's my sister"
"I never thought she was mean" I said
"Okay, well Bella, I have to leave, but I am sure everything will work out soon"
"Bye"
What will work out? Me and Alice? As friends? As more? I have no idea, but I feel slightly better to know that something will work out. It's like whatever happens between her and me I carry hope that one day she'll want me as I want her.
I finally came to terms with it I am in love with Alice Cullen.
Lunch time, was always a weird period for me, where I really had to mingle, and I don't like it. I've never been good at socializing. I was lost in my thoughts when I accidentally made an apple fall, luckily it was caught by the graceful hand of Alice. Same Alice that I was desperately trying to understand.
"Hey, here" she said giving me the apple
"Erm, thanks sorry, I'm always a bit clumsy"
"I can see that, I wanted to apologize for earlier, I do not regret saving your life Bella I want you to know that"
"Erm, okay thank you, but are you ever going to tell me how you did it?"
"I would like to hear your theories first"
"Honestly, I thought about everything Kryptonite, radioactive spiders" I smiled
"Those are superheros, what about the bad guys, they can do pretty good stuff too"
"True, but you're not one of the bad guys, you can't be"
"Will you let it go?"
"No, I just want to understand" I said pleadingly
"Then you should enjoy being disappointed"
"I don't think I will be, I think that for some reason you don't want to be my friend-"
"I never said that, I said we shouldn't be friends, not that I didn't want to"
"So you want to be my friend"
"Yes, but if you're a smart person, you will stay away from me"
"I've never been a smart person"
she chuckled, I made her chuckle, feels awesome.
"So, you want to be my friend Bella Swan?"
"Yes, thus I am asking you if you'd like to come to the beach tomorrow"
"The beach?"
"Yes, bunch of the school people are going, so tomorrow is a day as good as any to talk"
"What beach would that be?"
"La push, I guess"
"I can't tomorrow, I am sorry, when it gets sunny, all my family goes hiking, it's a tradition thing really"
"Oh, okay" I said, trying to hide my disappointment
"But, we will talk, trust me I know" she said
And I believed her.
When I was around Alice, I felt the urge to touch her, to be with her, not to be with her like hangout, no it was more than that like , all my being needed her. I read somewhere that in Greek mythology there was a belief that a long time ago, humans were created by pair, they were attached, body and soul, and never separated. And this made them perfect, because they were created perfect, so they stopped praying, Zeus became madly angry at them and separated them, so they'll loose their perfection and start needing him again. That's why until today people keep looking for the other half. Well, I guess that when I am around Alice I feel like she could be my other half, which is crazy because I don't know her, but I need her.
The day at La push was becoming slowly impossible, I love Jess and Angie, but they can't stop talking about boys and shopping, fortunately Jacob arrived, he's the son of Sam, Charlie's best friend. When we were young Jacob and I used to be very close, and now that I'm back I feel we still are.
"Hey Bella"
"Hi Jake, how are you?"
"Fine, you?"
"Great, I was hoping you would come walk with me"
"Yeah of course"
Quick goodbye to the girls, and here I am with Jake, he is the only true friend I have in this town, so I felt comfortable around him.
"So what's going on in that head of yours Bella?"
"You know stuff" I answered playfully
"What kind of stuff?"
"Stuff"
"Okay, I heard that Cullen saved your life"
"Hum, news travel fast in this town"
"Faster than you'll believe" he laughed
"Yes, Alice saved my life"
"I was going to ask you to stay away from them, but now I don't know anymore" he smiled
"Why would you ask me to stay away from them in the first place, I asked curious"
"You know how persistent legends are in my family"
"Yes, what does it have to do with anything"
"Well, Dad said that we are descendants of wolves, that our blood is hot, and that we protect this town from the cold ones, don't laugh, I know it may sound weird but that's how I was raised, and the Cullen they are supposed to be cold ones"
"Hum okay, and the cold ones are the bad guys, right and the wolves the good guys, I got that right?"
"You're right laugh it off, still, if you think about it, they act like bad guys" he said
"What! Alice saved my life" I said disbelievingly
"Yes, I know that's why I am a bit confused about her, but if you think about it, they don't mingle, they stay together all the time, they're not very friendly"
"How would you know that, you don't even come to our school" I said smiling
"You're right, but go ahead and deny it" he laughed
"Okay, you're right, so what they don't like people, neither do I, but I'm still a good guy I hope"
"Yeah, yeah okay I'll leave it! Just promise be to be careful around them, don't trust them"
If only you knew, what I would be willing to do for them, for her
"Fine, so any girlfriend in that school of your Jake?" I teased
"Funny I was going to ask you, a boyfriend?"
"I'll answer if you do, I asked first"
"Okay, fine then No, none, you?"
"Jake, If I told you I'd rather have a girlfriend than a boyfriend would it be bad?"
I can't believe I'm doing this, but at some point I had to come out to someone
"No, I'll just ask you if you have a girlfriend?" he smiled
"That's it, it doesn't bother you more than that?"
"Oh no it does, it means I can't have you, but at least I didn't loose you to any competition" he laughed
"Do you think Charlie would react as good as you did?"
"Bella, Charlie loves you to pieces, so trust me he wouldn't like your boyfriends or your girlfriends but he will love you no matter who you bring home" he smiled
"Thanks Jake, you're my only friend in this town"
"You must get pretty lonely then at school"
"No it's okay, I attract a lot of attention, being new in town, and if I want to talk Edward is usually here"
"Edward as in Cullen?"
"Yes, not that I talk to him on purpose, but when he talks to me, I feel like I can you know open up"
"So much for being careful around them"
"Come on! I didn't tell him anything really, I don't know talking to you seems more natural" I said
"Glad to hear that I am the man of your life, as in best friend of course"
"Yeah!your place for sure" I said " and thanks Jake" I said truthfully
"For what?"
"Being here, talking, not judging, I couldn't hope for a better friend"
We talked and laughed for a little while longer, it was nice just being myself for a while, not try to socialize with the school crew or being completely and utterly hypnotized by Alice.
Saturday night Angela and Jessica convinced me to go shopping and have dinner with them, so here I was watching Angie try her 20th dress, and daydreaming about being anywhere else really.
We were heading to the restaurant, when I saw a little Quilleutes boutique, I told the girls I'll go check it out and then join them.
The boutique had a quite unique smell, as I walked through the shelves, I couldn't bring myself to choose a book, so I ended up buying two bracelets. When I got out of the shop, I heard footsteps following me, I tried to ignore them, but they kept following me, I was growing more and more scared.
"Hey, sweet heart, stop we have candy" said one
GROSS! Keep walking
"Come on don't run away" said another
In what felt like seconds, they were surrounding me, saying that I was scared, was the understatement of the year. They were getting dangerously close to me, when we heard a car.
Alice!
Alice got out of the car
"Bella get In the car!" she said without looking at me.
I never thought that her face, could express so much anger, I refused to leave her alone, how could such a tiny human being do anything against three grown man, and they seemed to share my doubts.
I still didn't move.
"Oh sweet little thing came to rescue her friend"
"I advice you to get out of my sight and fast, and leave chief Swan daughter alone" she said fiercely.
"Or what?"
"Or I'll make you regret the day you crossed my path" she said moving towards them.
I was standing next to the car, I saw the quick change in their expressions as she got closer. And slowly backing away.
As soon as I saw she was okay, and coming back to the car, I got in. When she got in she was still fuming, not that she was controlling it, her body language advised me to not say anything until she spoke, which she did thirty seconds after she started the engine.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, thanks to you"
"Did they touch you"
"No, you arrived just in time"
She was driving insanely fast, I was getting scared; even though I was learning that as long as I was with her I was safe.
"What did they tell you?"
She was asking all these questions without looking at me.
"Erm, I don't remember exactly, can you please slow down"
The car slowed as soon as the words escaped my mouth.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you" she said meeting my eyes for the first time tonight
"It's fine" I said shivering
"You're cold" she stated
We both reached for the heater at the same time, and when my hand met hers, it was so cold, as cold as ice and soft, so soft. Electricity surged through my body as I pulled away.
"Your hands are so cold"
"Yes, I'm sorry, I have bad circulation"
Silence filled the car again, and I wanted to break it, so much, I wanted to talk to her. The proximity was driving me crazy.
"You seem to always be there when I'm in trouble. I don't know how to thank you"
"You seem to attract danger" she smiled
"Yeah, sorry" I said
"Don't you dare apologize, for something you don't have control over" she said
"Erm, okay"
"Are you hungry?" she asked
"It's okay, I'll fix something when I'm home" I said not wanting to bother her
"non sense, I'm taking you to dinner, my treat, you deserve it after what you just went through"
"You do not have to do that" but I want you to
"Are you refusing to share a dinner with me, Miss Swan" she smiled looking at me.
"I wouldn't dare" I smiled and she laughed "thanks for everything Alice"
She parked the car, and we were walking to the dinner. She took my hand in hers, it felt like heaven, but she took it away as fast as she moved it towards me.
"Sorry, I know I'm cold" she said apologetically
"It's fine" I sutured my hands are only cold because yours aren't on them.
We were sitting in comfy seats as a waitress came to take our orders.
"Can I take your order?"
"Yes, I'll have a burger, and a coke"
"And you?" she asked Alice
"Nothing thank you"
"Are you sure?" asked the waitress
"yes thank you" answered sweetly Alice
Here I was, alone with the woman I was in love with. And she didn't wanna eat anything, actually, I've never seen her eat anything.
"Alice, can I ask you something, but please don't be mad"
She looked like what I've just said pained her.
"Bella, I wanna apologize, I know I wasn't my best self with you and I am truly sorry, about it. I will stop running away, or being harsh. I will behave. So ask away"
"No, it's okay. But please tell me what's your deal?"
"What's my deal?"
"Yes, I mean your mood swings, the fact that you stop cars with one hand, and scare guys away, and trust me, I feel horrible to ask, I know you saved my life, twice and I should let it go"
She chuckled "Can I offer you a deal?"
"Okay"
"Let's say that, instead of giving you an answer, right now, I'll give you a promise of the entire truth in a near future"
"What do you mean?"
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes" I said without hesitation
"Okay, so Bella, I promise you that soon enough, you will not have to ask, you'll know the truth"
"How do you know?"
She smiled "Have I ever broke a promise?" she asked
"I don't know, you never promised me anything"
"Okay, so I will rely on your trust"
"You're not giving me answers tonight are you?"
"Not tonight, Tonight I just wanna get to know you, I want to make sure you're safe, and leave heavy subjects for lighter days"
She had me, I wouldn't argue with her, I loved her too much to deny her anything she asked for.
"Okay, fine."
And it was indeed a light night, filled with laughs, she eased the tension between us, she eased the pressure on my shoulders, eased the fears, she made a dark night turn into a bright night.
She drove me home, walked me to my door, and I had to gather every bit of will, I've ever had to not jump in and kiss her.
"Goodnight Bella, and promise me to not get in trouble" she smiled
"Goodnight Alice, I promise I'll try"
"I'll take what I can get" she smiled and headed back to her car.
I watched her drive away, I went to the living room and told Charlie about what Alice did for me, I wanted him to know, he already loved her for saving my life once, now he just worships her. And the thought of my dad loving her made me feel warm.
I went to my room, and went on the INTERNET. Alice said I will find out her secret, so here I am searching what do I know, she doesn't eat, is quick, is strong, is cold, is related to the cold ones, her eyes change colors. After several hours of research, there was no more doubt in my mind.
I know her secret, I know what she is. And I can't wrap my mind around it.
A VAMPIRE
The next morning I parked my car, and waited for them, her, when I saw her and made sure she saw me, I started walking towards the woods, making sure she'll follow me. Once we were deep enough in the woods I stopped, I felt her behind me.
"I know what you are" I said
"say it out loud"
"A vampire"
"Are you scared?" she asked
"No" truth
"You should be" she said
I turned around to face her.
"You wouldn't hurt me" I said confidently
"I'd rather die" she said
"Vampires can die?"
she laughed "Yes, immortality doesn't belong to our world"
"So you are a vampire?"
"Yes, Bella I am, and you shouldn't be alone with a vampire in the woods"
"I am not with a vampire, I am with you"
"You don't know me" she said
"I know what I need to know" I answered
"Let me show you who I am"
She took my hand and I collided with her back as she ran, I've never experienced such a speed, we stopped next to a tree.
"See Bella, this tree is heavier than you'll ever be" and with one hand, she literally uprooted it "One mistake from me and you're dead" she showed me her fangs "One bite and you fade" she took my hand again and took me to the top of the clairiere, the sun was piercing through the clouds, she exposed her skin to it, and it shined, like it was filled with diamonds, most beautiful thing if you ask me.
"See what I truly am Bella, so are you scared?"
I was still, looking at her perfect body, she was an angel, vampire maybe, but angel surely.
"You're so beautiful" I said
"I was designed to be, so I can drag foolish humans and suck their blood to death"
When she said that it clicked, she did drink human blood, she had to, but then again she was Alice, I couldn't picture her killing anyone.
"Do you?" I asked
"Do I what?"
"Do you drag foolish humans to feed?"
She smiled " No, I feed only on animal blood, as all my family, we refuse to be the monsters were shaped to be" she said darkly
"You're anything but a monster" I said
"And you are crazy, being so tender and nice with a bloodsucker"
"No I'm being nice to one of the most incredible girl I've ever met, one that saved my life, one who is sharing her biggest secret with me, I am nice to you Alice"
She slowly moved closer to me, never breaking eye contact, to make sure I agreed with every step she took. I was more than okay, I was thrilled. We were finally only inches apart, she stopped, and waited for me to close the gap, which I gladly did.
My lips found hers, timidly at first, tasting her cold, delicious lips, her tongue begged for entrance, and I gladly gave in. Our tongues met, with the heat of former lovers, I started to deepen the kiss, completely forgetting to breathe. Suddenly she pulled away, her eyes black. She closed them, and stopped moving for a few seconds when she opened them they were starting to get gold again.
"I'm sorry, it was a bit too much for me, your blood is very appealing" she said looking at her feet
"Never apologize for kissing me"I said
"I was sorry for pulling away" she smiled and I blushed.
We sat on the grass, for hours, staring at each other, kissing, talking, just being together, best hours of my entire life. It was one of those moments of pure happiness. Alice Cullen was with me, finally, there was nothing unpleasant about her. The true Alice was even better that what I pictured her to be, I couldn't wait to get to know her better.
When she drove me home, she walked me to the door, and this time I kissed her, I did, and believe it or not no matter how many times I've kissed her today, I still felt dazzled afterwards.
"Can I take you on a date tomorrow Bella Swan?"
"I would love to miss Cullen"
She kissed me again and left, tomorrow I am going on a date with the woman I love, I can't wait!
I got into my room, I laid on my bed and thought about today, the most incredible day of my life, come on I learned that vampires are for real, and the most beautiful day of my life, because Alice, The Alice, My Alice kissed me.
per viam: I am sorry for the poor English
Here it is, I think Alice is going to start act less Edward and more herself.
Let me know if I should keep going or not :)