I was inspired to write this by a song, hence the title. I do not own the song nor the characters, they are owned by Hinder and Stephenie Meyer. I hope you guys enjoy this one shot and don't forget to review!
Lips of an Angel- EPOV
Oh god. I missed Bella like crazy. Her gorgeous chocolate brown eyes that had this intense hold on me, her luscious brown wavy hair to match that I loved to get my hands tangled in, her rosy cheeks that I loved to make blush, her soft pink lips that called to me… Stop! Get a grip Edward Cullen! Shit. I was getting hard just thinking about her. But I had Tanya now, I needed to stop dreaming of Bella. We weren't together anymore and we weren't ever going to be together again. Why? Because I had to make the biggest mistake of my entire life by breaking up with her. Why did I ever break up with her? Oh yeah. I'm a dumbass. I thought that it was best to end our relationship after high school, because we were going to be far away from each other during college.
There was one month left until summer ended and we would all be headed to the college of our choice, but Bella and I hadn't discussed our future. I avoided the subject at all costs, I wanted to have an amazing summer with her before we were over. She had already told me that she was dead set on going to the University of Alaska. Alice decided to have a sleepover of the couples at our house, so Jasper, Rosalie, and Bella came over. We were all in the living room with our blankets watching the Notebook, the girls' choice of course. It was at the part where Allie had gone to where Noah worked to say goodbye, because her parents were making them move away so she wouldn't be able to be with Noah. "Edward, can we talk?" Bella whispered to me. I nodded and took her hand, leading her up the stairs to my room. When we got inside my room, I shut the door quietly and we both sat down next to each other on my bed. "So…there's one month left and summer is over…"
"Yep," I agreed. I didn't like where this conversation was going, but I knew we had to have it sooner or later, but I was rather hoping for much later.
"Edward," Bella sighed, "I'm going to Alaska."
"I got accepted to Dartmouth, Bella, in New Hampshire." I couldn't look at her face so I just stared at the cream colored carpet.
"Oh…How long have you known?" I could tell by the sound of her shaky voice that she had already begun to cry. Shit. I'm making her cry, I'm hurting her.
"Since late May." It's almost freaking August now.
"What are we going to do?" She was going to leave it up to me?! I had to let her go, long distance just doesn't work out. It would hurt her more in the long run, I would just be leading her on. It wouldn't be right. Bella deserved someone that could be there for her and not someone on the opposite side of the fucking continent. I couldn't be there for her, so I should just let her down now so she could move on. This is what's best for her.
"Bella…I don't think long distance will work out. We would barely see each other. It isn't fair to either of us so I think…I think we should break up. I'm sorry. You'll always have a place in my heart, but I think this is best. I mean what if we find someone else? It's better to break up now, it would hurt much much more if we just let this go on longer."
"So you're just going to give up…not even try to make us work?! Am I not worth it to you? I thought that you loved me, but if you really did, you would wait. I know that I could wait a few years for you, but I guess you can't. So I was just a fling to you? Fine! Go off to fucking New Hampshire and find some other girls to screw around with!" With that she ran out the room and I heard the front door open and slam closed. She was so angry and hurt. But she was so wrong. She meant everything to me and I was just doing what was best for her. She wasn't the only one hurting, I was, too.
For the rest of the summer, my family barely talked to me. Alice and Emmett were furious at me for breaking up with Bella. They were my brother and sister! Not hers! Alice refused to talk to me. Oh well, I'm going off to college anyways. Alice and Emmett were going with Bella to Alaska. I was the only one that was going to Dartmouth, it had been my dream ever since I was a boy to go to Dartmouth and become a doctor just like my father.
Tanya came out of the bathroom attached to our bedroom in some slutty lingerie. I had flashes of Bella in lingerie, she looked anything but slutty, she looked so unbelievably sexy. But Tanya in lingerie did nothing to my body. She crawled onto the bed and straddled my waist and leaned in close to my ear and whispered, "Fuck me, Edward." Tanya is freaking addicted to sex. That was all we pretty much did together, purely physical. Our relationship didn't run any deeper than that. I liked her, I mean she is attractive, even though I have a penchant for brunettes instead of blondes. But I don't picture spending the rest of my life with her or anything serious, we just have fun. She is a nice girl even though my family hates her. I have no idea why.
Tanya began to kiss me roughly and I returned the kisses. I didn't enjoy them as much as I should have. I knew a bunch of guys that would kill to be in my position. In my mind though, I was comparing them to Bella's sweet kisses. I quickly got her out of the lingerie and allowed her to take off my pajama pants and boxers. She straddled my hips and inserted my dick inside of her and rode me. She quickened the pace and leaned over to place wet kisses all over me. She moaned my name but all I could think about was Bella. She kept it up until we both cummed. It took her a heck of a whole lot to get me there though and she fell asleep right after. I got up to take a shower. I felt dirty and disgusting everytime we had sex, but the shower only helped me a little bit.
I couldn't fall asleep yet after my shower so I went into my study which was right next to the bedroom. I pulled out Wuthering Heights from the shelf, it was one of Bella's favorites, though I didn't see why she liked it so much to read it over and over. I sat on my black leather sofa and began to read. Ten minutes into the novel, my cell phone rang. Strange, I guess I must have left it in here. I picked it up and looked to see who was calling so late. Bella. I always kept her in my contact list, but I didn't think that she would keep the same number. Without thinking, I flipped the phone open and answered it, "Bella?"
"Edward!" Bella replied, but she sounded sort of sad. I couldn't believe that she would call me, it was really her. My heart fluttered when she said my name.
"Is it really you? Why are you calling me? And so late?" I asked quietly. I couldn't be too loud or Tanya would wake up. She was right next door.
"Why are you whispering," she asked, evading my questions.
"I'm sorry, I can't be too loud, my girlfriend is in the next room sleeping."
"Oh…sorry. I don't know why I'm calling it was sort of a spur of the moment thing. I'm sorry, were you asleep? Did I wake you?"
"No, it's okay. I have trouble sleeping, so you didn't wake me up or anything."
"Oh okay. Well…Jacob is in the other room, also asleep."
"Jacob?" Who the hell is this Jacob guy?!
"Yeah, he's sort of my boyfriend. Remember Jacob Black?" I couldn't help the anger and jealousy that overcame me. What the fuck.
"Oh yeah. Real tall, tan, dark hair… Does he know you are talking to me?" A part of me wished that he did know. That Bella was talking to her ex-boyfriend. A part of me wanted him to fight me, so I could beat the hell out of him for being with Bella. She deserved so much and he wasn't enough. Not even close.
"Nope, does your girlfriend?" It sounded like she was crying almost.
"No, she doesn't have a clue, she's asleep. Are you crying?"
"No. So what have you been up to? Are you a doctor now?"
"Nothing much and yes I am a doctor." I have been for more than a year now at a hospital in Seattle. I moved back to Washington to be closer to my parents but I didn't want to live in Forks and work in the same hospital as my father. I liked the big city more.
"Carlisle must be so proud of you. Congratulations." My whole family flew out to see me graduate and Carlisle was especially ecstatic that I was becoming a doctor just like him.
"Thanks and yes he is proud that I followed in his footsteps. What is up with you?"
"Well, I work for a newspaper now and I still live in Forks." She was always a writer and a bookworm.
"That's great. I live in Seattle now." I can't believe that we lived so close. I felt like driving over to Forks. I haven't seen her in so long. I wondered what she looked like now or if she still looked the same. Either way, she'd be beautiful. We were silent for a couple of minutes.
"I miss you so much," she whispered. When she said that, I swear that I could feel my heart shatter and swell at the same time.
"I miss you, too, so much," I replied honestly. I constantly thought about her. What she was doing? Did she think about me? I dreamt about her everynight that she would still be in my arms and that I could still kiss her lips. She is such an angel.
"I dream about you. All the time," she said. She still thought and dreamt about me! I remember when we fell asleep together. I would wait until she fell asleep before I did. She was fascinating when she slept, she would talk. She said my name numerous amounts of time and that she loved me.
"That's funny, I dream about you everynight."
"Yeah? I guess we never really got over each other, did we?"
"No, I guess not. In my dreams we are still together."
"I'm not mad at you anymore, you know… for breaking up with me. I understand where you were coming from, but there is still a part of me that wonders what if we gave a shot at a long distance relationship. What if we would still be together now if we pulled through that."
"I regret breaking up with you, it was the biggest mistake of my life. My whole family hated me for it, hell, I hate myself for it. I should have been honest with you. I never got to apologize for not talking it out with you. I'm so sorry. I don't know what would have been, but it's a little late for that now, huh?"
"Yeah… I forgive you. I know we can't turn back time."
"Thanks. Speaking of time, shouldn't we both be getting some sleep?" I didn't really want to stop talking to her, but I didn't want to deprive her of human necessities.
"Oh yeah, we should."
"Okay, good night then."
"Wait! Are you still there?" she asked, before I nearly ended the call.
"Yep."
"Maybe we should grab a bite to eat some time, you know, catch up? I'd really like to see you. We could be friends…" God, how much I wanted to see her. But I shouldn't. I would just fuck up everything, because I know that as soon as I see her I would want to be more than friends. It wouldn't be fair to Tanya… or Jacob.
"I don't think that's a good idea, Bella." The monster in me was screaming to say 'Let's go out to dinner!'
"Why not? You don't want to see me, do you?" she asked, sounding hurt. I wanted to see her so badly.
"No, it's not that. I'd love to see you, but I don't think that I could be just friends with you. I would always want more and that's not fair for all of us. I'm sorry."
"You're right. I'm sorry for bringing it up. I'm stupid." She still doesn't see herself clearly. Sigh.
"No, you aren't. You are intelligent, beautiful, and kind. Never think otherwise." Why does she never believe me?!
"Thanks, you're always so sweet. Good night or shall I say good morning, Edward."
"Okay, good morning, Bella." I quietly went back to the bedroom, Tanya was lightly snoring. I got in bed and thought about my conversation with Bella. It sounded so good to hear her voice again. The voice of my angel. When I finally fell asleep, I had a dream about holding her in my arms and kissing her again. How I long to be able to do just that.
Honey why are you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying, is everything okay?
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my nameIt sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me?
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late?
Please review! I'm wondering if I should just continue this story or just leave it at that.