Okay, this is my very first fanfiction. I loved the site so why note. I hope you like this first chapter of mine plz leave any suggestions or tell me if I should keep going. If u do happen to like it I already heve about 3 more chapters written so, hhhhhere ya go…
Disclaimer: This'll be for the story as a whole "I do not own Twilight"
Fault
Chapter 1
In the back of my mind subconsciously perhaps, I always had a deep gut feeling. Maybe I chose to ignore it. Maybe I was just so oblivious an 'happy', I could've just completely missed out on this so called joke. When I think back to that time, those memories that we, well that I thought we shared. It wasn't such a surprise that he left. Well, actually after thinking over it for a long while it doesn't seem like one. There were too many limitations, too many precautions, not enough time. Or maybe, too much. I've some what let go of the feeling that I wasn't good enough for him… Okay that's not totally true. But I had to face it. Coming to terms with the fact we weren't compatible, not in the slightest was difficult. Way too different beings, species really. How could the living reunite with the 'dead' in a relationship such as ours? Now I see that my assumptions that we could be so carefree and comfortable were childish fantasies of mine. Quite silly, really. It was absolutely lucky that I had him to help me. Some one who stood by to wait and care for me in my broken state. Someone who could make me forget for a little while; about the pain, depression, the rejection. He was the only one who could bring me back to life. It's just that thinking thoroughly through after all this time; I wish I hadn't let him fix me. I would've surely died without his help; a good thing. This chaos, this tragedy wouldn't have happened. The other broke me like a toothpick, and made me vulnerable almost beyond repair. In a few short moments, a few simple acts and emotions and uproars molded my future into so horrifying, far from what I thought could happen.
Huh, maybe it wasn't my fault. How exactly was I supposed to gather that, that the risk and the loss could be so great? NO. It is not my fault. It is his. He created this disaster, and his dumbass can't fix it. He teased, and taunted, luring me into love, fooling me. I cannot endure this, can I? I'll have to try even ifI die in the process.
A/NSo what'd ya think, hope u liked cuz I really like to keep going, but I need you all to tell me whether to or not.
Peace out,
Indigo