Title: Things I'll Never Say

Author: Heavy Glow

E-Mail: motivation_77@hotmail.com

Disclaimer: I do not own Gilmore Girls, or anything associated with it. As nice as it would be!

Author's Note: Hey! I hope y'all enjoy it! Review please! Constructive criticism is appreciated!









Thing's I'll Never Say



Chapter One

It's Been A While

"Excuse me, can you tell me where I can get some coffee?" Rory asked a man standing against a wall. She had just gotten of a direct flight from Hartford to New York and wanted a good coffee, not the kind you got on an airplane!

"There's a coffee shop around that corner." The man replied.

"Thank you so much!" Rory smiled and thought, 'I guess there's at least one nice person in New York, contrary to my mother's belief!' Rory headed to the café around the corner and settled for a window seat and a strong black coffee.

"Excuse me, is this seat taken?"

"What? No." Rory replied taking a sip of her long awaited coffee.

"You know Rory Gilmore. You're to nice for your own good." The man said.

Rory looked up. How'd he know her name?! "Jess!" She stood up wrapping her arms around her child hood friend. "I can't believe its you!"

"Speaking of people not believing things, I can't believe you actually moved to New York." Jess grinned, hugging her back.

Rory sat down, drinking her coffee. "I got a job writing for the New York Times, I guess they liked my style. After all Jess, I am a graduate from Harvard!"

"I know," Jess grinned, sitting across from her. "Aunt Lorelai told me."

"Its weird isn't it?" Rory laughed. "Who would of thought Luke and my mother would finally realize their feelings for each other, and that my mother would wear Luke down into eloping! Thank god it doesn't run in the family!"

Jess looked at her for a while, his thoughts drifting back to when he had felt something for Rory. He grinned. "Yeah, thank god it doesn't. So where are you staying?"

" I don't know yet. I was hoping you could point me in a good direction." Rory smiled.

"You can stay with me until you get on your feet." Jess told her.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" Rory exclaimed.

"You're welcome, you're welcome, you're welcome!" Jess laughed. "I see you still drink coffee," he glanced at his watch. "We have to go, I need to get to work!"

"Wait! Coffee to go!" Rory rushed up and ordered a coffee and rushed after Jess as they headed to get her luggage. After what seemed like an eternity, the hailed a cab and headed to Jess' place.

"I hope you don't mind living with two guys." Jess told her as they drove down streets that seemed identical to Rory.

"Are you trying to tell me you're gay Jess?" Rory asked, hiding her smile and knowing that Jess was not gay, quite the opposite indeed.

"I see you haven't lost your wit Gilmore!" Jess smirked. "No, I am not gay. I have a guy room mate, which I assure you is not gay either."

"That's ok Jess, I won't mind." Rory replied, pleased that Jess cared enough to tell her. "I use to live with Lorelai remember?"

Jess grinned. "Yeah, all to well!"

"Here we are!" the cabby yelled as they pulled up in front of a very old by established building. "That'll be 21.75, please." Jess handed him the money.

"You can at least let me pay." Rory argued as they got her belongings out of the trunk of the cab and carried them to the front door of the building.

"Good evening Jess." The doorman smiled.

"Evening Smith!" Jess replied as he walked through the door and to towards the elevator.

"Evening Miss." Smith nodded at Rory.

"Hello." Rory replied, following Jess. They took the elevator to the twelfth floor and headed left to the pent house. "Impressive!" Rory laughed as he unlocked the door.

"Not to shabby for a writer hunh?" Jess grinned. Rory took in her surroundings. They had entered into a coatroom and headed on through the hall into a living room on the right. "Leather?" Rory eyed the couch. "That doesn't seem like you."

"That's the room mates." Jess replied, walking down another hall to what seemed like bedrooms. "This is your room Rory, theirs a bathroom through that door, you have to share though. Through that door is the balcony, but you can see that, and that there would be your closet."

"Wow Jess! This place is great!" Rory told him. "I hope you didn't go through any trouble though!" This was a bachelor's pad, you could see that.

"I didn't do anything. Maria did all this." Jess shrugged. "Don't feel special!"

"Maria?" Rory raised an eyebrow.

"My personal assistant Rory!"

She laughed. " Thanks Jess, this really means a lot to me."

"No prob," he shrugged. "Anything for an old friend." In all Rory's 26 years she had never had such a good friend as Jess. He always looked out for her, even if he didn't like to show it.

"I think I'm going to take a nap, unless you had something planned?" said Rory.

"Nope, go right ahead, I'm going to be working anyway."

"Oh that's right! I'm sorry Jess! I hope you don't have far to go! I wouldn't want you to be late on account of me!" Rory exclaimed.

"Don't worry Rory, it's only down the hall in my office." Jess grinned.

"Oh, ok, good!" Rory smiled. "Thank you again Jess!"

"Stop with the thank you's already! Get some sleep!" Jess shut the door gently behind him. Rory flopped down onto the bed, thinking that she had lots of time to unpack, with that she drifted off to sleep. A few hours later Rory stirred, feeling the dirt and grime she decided to take a bath. She searched through her bag and got out a fresh change of clothes and all her essentials, including her mocha smelling bubble bath (I have no idea if you can get mocha smelling bubble bath!). she sank into the tub, relaxing as she started to read a book. Her weary bones ached so she decided to put her book done and just rest, lying there with her eyes closed.

"Oh shit!" was exclaimed, sending Rory's eyelids fluttering open. She looked up. "I forgot Jess said his friend was coming today!" Rory looked at the blonde form.

"It's ok, I should have locked the door. Will you pass me that robe please?" Rory asked him calmly, after all, it wasn't his fault she forgot to lock the door. He grabbed the robe and passed it to her without turning around. "I'm decent." Rory told him.

He turned around slowly, still unsure. He opened his eyes. "Rory?!"

Rory's head shot up when he said her name, it was something in the way it rolled of his tongue that sounded familiar. She stared into deep blue eyes. "Tristan?!"

And it's been awhile

Since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile

Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile

Since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile

Since I could call you