Prolgoue

Never in her life had she felt this much painand emptiness

Had she done this ?

She had been the one who wished for this. Had been the one who wished see her in her grave . She had been the one who wished for her to drop dead . Lifeless . Unmoving . She thought that if she had died her life would go on , Scarlett would be the cold and selfish person she had always been

She wished this to happen . She wished for the one person who still loved her after her world had completely shattered , after everyone had deid or turn their back on her , to die ...

But now , . . . she was not so sure ..

Did she love her?

Yes! Of course she had ? How could she not ? She had loved her even when she annoyed her , she had loved her .

... She had only wanted attention and praise . Nothing more.

Was that a lot ? No. It never was . Did she ask the world from her? No . Not once . Not even twice . She had asked only the smallest amount possible. But could she give her that ? To hell no ! She had been rude , unreasonable, selfish and cruel , and unloving . She was truly an awful person , And now she would have to pay for it ... Scarlett knew she would for ever be broken after this . She knew that she would thrown into a world of grief and sorrow . She would never find strength in anything again . Nothing , not even Tara. For she was broken beyond repair. Ripped to shreds. She knew in her grief stricken heart that she could never let this go, even if she wanted to.

She never forget this .. The day her world had completely turned upside down and inside out and then thrown in the gutter. Memories would huant her thoughts during the day . And her demons would pich her in her sleep. She knew Rhett would never forgive her . She had lied to him . Betrayed him . She should have told him the truth when he asked shortly after he had gotten out of jail , For he jad the right to know

But now none of that seemed to matter now .

Nothing mattered anymore . Rhett would surely never come back to her now. Now that he knew . All that mattered was that she was dead . And no one was to blame but her . Not Rhett , not anyone . Perhaps she had not looked hard enough . Or prayed hard enough . Or ran fast enough. The memories of her being trampled over by dozens of horses would never leave her . She'd never forget the moments leading to her death . The pain it caused just looking at her .

Or Rhett's expression when she told him the truth.

It would never let her forget .

Her emerald eyes , lifeless and dull , followed the casket that lowered into the ground her eyes blinked back hard angst tears that had pricked her eyes . Her hears heard the dirt slap against the casket . Her eyes clearly screamed in pain ... but she made no movement . For she was dead inside ...Like hard stone .She wanted to do something. Anything to keep them from lowering her into the ground . But nshe stood there .

She could not move . She could not talk . She could not blink . She could only feel the constant , dull pain that wrapped her like a heavy cloak. What was holding her back she did not know .

Maybe it was fear or grief , she would never know .

Mrs. Meade reached out for her , but Scarlett flinched and flung her head into Rhett's chest . In a scratched vioce she said ,

" Don't touch me . "Sobs rose in her throat .

As she blinked back salty tears that leaked into Rhett's black jacket . As the funeral ended , Mrs. Meade left and soon did the others , Scarlett and Rhett stood there for a moment later . Staring stupidly at the stone . Finally Rhett could not take it a moment longer and said emotionlessly ,

"Let's go , Scarlett , the rain will get worse if we stay ."

But , in all their own grief , they both knew he wasn't talking about the rain . For none of them cared . But the pain that continued to grow inside boh of them . For a moment , Scarlett knelt down onto the mud , not caring about her dress she murmured,

"Take care of her won't you, Frank ? "

Then she gave a weak pathetic smile and left . One that day she had lost her soul and her heart , buried along with her . She knew she would soon go insane with grief and she would never be able to get back up.

And as I've mentioned before ... she never intended for this to happen, ...

This is where our story begins . ...

TBC...?

Author's Note : Hmm ... who died? What was the truth that Scarlett told Rhett?

Thoughts , comments? Please leave a review ! Constructive critusium please! This is the frist fanfic I've ever posted.