This is my first fanfic so i appreciate eveyone's feed back but please dont be mean.. thanks
disclaimer: i dont own twilight. The lovely SMeyer owns everything, I just love Edward so much i can't help but to write him in my own little world. hehe
Black.
Everywhere I look all i see is people dressed in black, and it just makes me me want to cry even more.
Right now i am sitting in a room full of people. Flowers line all the walls around me. and all i can look at is my husband's lifeless body lying in the box at the front of the room. All i can here is a buzzing all around me, everyone else is talking among themselves.
I still can't believe that it's true, that this is really happening to me. Why him? Why Jacob? he was the sweetest person anyone could have known. He was my sun, my warmth. How will i survive without him?
I am now truely alone.
"Hi honey, how are you holding up?"
I looked up startled, I hadn't even seen anyone walk up. It's Seth , he was one of Jacob's good friends.
he was in the truck behind him, in the convoy when the bomb hit his truck. he watched it all happen and it shook him up pretty bad.
"Okay, I guess." I replied mechanically. I have been asked the question so much lately, I don't have to think before answering it anymore. It just comes out by itself. I mean what else am i supposed to say to that? Everyone knows that im not okay, I just lost my other half, my sun for God's sake! What do they exspect me to say.
"Okay, well if you need anything at all you can just call me anytime. Okay?"
"K" I replied with out even looking at him anymore.
When i seen him walk away i went back to staring at Jake's cold , lifeless body, remembering the last time i saw him alive.
I stood in the doorway of our bedroom, watching Jacob as he finished packing.
He was so handsome. i could help but stare at his over six foot tale , lean but very musculer body. he had brown short hair and brown eyes.
He turned and looked at me smiling.
"How long have you been standing there?" He smirked.
I blushed at being cought ogling him. "I don't know i lost count a while ago. I was just admiring how sexy you are in the uniform of yours." I walked over to him and put my arms around his neck.
"Oh really?" He asked raising an eyebrow at me .
"Well of course. No one looks better in that camo than you do, darling you know that."
"You know you're to have to stop saying things like that if i am planning on being on time." He replied.
I sighed and dropped my arms from around him as we made our way outside to his car.
As soon as he put his bag in the back of the car his arms were around me and i was crying. "Don't worry I'll be home befor you know it." He cooed. I could here the tears in his voice.
I looked up at him and he kissed me. It was sweet, tender, and showed all the he had for me.
"I love you ." He said once he released my lips.
"I love you too." I choke out through my sobs.
Then he got in his car and drove away. Little did I know that, that was the last time i would see him alive.
The rest of the day went by in a blurr. Before I knew it I was l lying in my big empty bed, in my empty house, crying. I was all alone now, I had no one to confide in. I closed my eyes praying for sleep to overtake me.