Just a random little idea that I wrote in class when I got bored. I was getting so mad about how Bella treated Jacob, and then I'm currently re-reading New Moon, and so this became the outcome of my random Twilight thoughts.
Bella commits suicide because she can not decide who she loves more, and realizes that she is undeserving of either. These are the last thoughts to cross her mind.
I can't do it.
I'm sorry, I just can't.
I don't deserve either of you.
Edward, you're just so perfect, I couldn't even begin to describe. My feelings for you are forever. You are always there when I need you, I can always count on you, and you love me unconditionally and irrevocably. I don't deserve that. You are on an entirely different level than me, my love.
Jacob… I love you. Just not enough and I'm sorry. I never deserved someone like you. You can always make me smile; you are so sweet and funny. I used you, I admit it. From the very beginning, I was only using you to get to Edward, and then for happiness. I never intended to make you fall in love with me. If I had any idea of what I was doing to you, what I was doing as I did it, I would have stopped. You're too young for this hell in your life that I have helped to place on you. I am sorry. So very, very sorry.
I have to do this, and you both must move on and find someone more deserving of you. I am sorry for all of the pain that I am inflicting on you. Please, do not do anything rash. Do not get yourselves hurt or killed, because I would never want that, and I am undeserving of that kind of devotion.
I don't deserve either of you.
I'm sorry, I can't choose.
I can't live on.
I can't.