The True Motomiya Daisuke
The rain seemed to hesitantly pour harder. My hands were
in my short's pocket, with my head drooped down. It seemed like the world
stopped with all the silence. I let out a heavy sigh.
My
Kaa-San told me once that the angels in heaven cry when someone is in pain. I
guess she is right. This rain is their tears for my sorrow. I guess.
I
almost forgot why I was out here. My
clothes were drenched, and my eyes dulled. Nothing seemed to be right anymore.
Everything was pure pitch black, and I could only see myself. Splashes of
droplets fall down to my cheek, letting my own droplets mix with theirs. I just stood there, facing forward to the
sky, unmoving and with my eyes closed. Then I collapse on my knees as
uncontrollable sobs lifted out. The rain just started to pour heavily as I
stood there. I opened my eyes and looked at my right. It was the Tamachi
Apartment Complex where Ken lives.
My
heart started shattering once again. I
bet Miyako's with him, snuggling warm under a blanket holding each other or
making out. Another sigh came
out. I used to love Ken. I guess
fate had to toy with me huh? I HATE IT!! My first three loves, taken away from
me, and left me here like a lonely shadow that once looked over hell. Then
a flashback came back to me.
~::Flashback::~
The
place was fiery and dark. Except for the figure that lay ahead of me. I saw
that I was omitting a pure holy light as the figure was shielding itself. Then
I realized where I was. I was in hell with the devil, or more likely Satan,
sitting on his throne shielding himself. My wings were white, except for the
tips, which were turquoise and gold. I charged toward him with incredible
speed, and gutted him hard. I left him there to suffer, not die since this was
another world.
A
thought came to me. Well, I guess my duty was served. I guess it isn't easy
for being an angel. It blanked out afterwards.
~::End::~
The rain's speed seemed to increase with more droplets falling. I walked away with my hands in my pockets.
Why
does my life have to be cursed? First now I'm receiving these, visions
no, maybe flashbacks. Now I'm a total freak. Hikari and Takeru are together. I
got over my crush on Kari over a year ago, but my crush on Takeru still lasted
after they were dating. Well, I always thought he was cute when he was mad. But
now, it's useless. And Ken has Miyako already. I hate the way they make fun of
me, insult me, tease me, and stab me in the back. They don't realize who I am.
They practically don't even know me!! I bet my Kaa-San is calling them and they
just stare at me as I walk by. With
their eyes piercing through me, right to the core. I wonder if they even care. I've already slit my wrists twice,
and my throat once. Except it was just partially.
As
I pass the park, I saw a couple under an umbrella talking. They were laughing
and smiling, until I realized who they were. Hikari and Takeru. They
turned their heads towards me with concern written all over their faces. Kari
calls out while examining my face, "Daisuke!! Are you alright?" Both of them
stand up and walk towards me. They both stop as the umbrella shelters me.
Takeru
put his hand on my shoulder.
"Daisuke."
"What,"
I snapped back coldly and monotonous.
"What
bit your ass? Geez, are you ok? Your drenched to the bone and you look
practically blue? What's the matter?"
I
shoved his hand aside," What do you need to know?! It's none of your
concern anyway!!"
I
practically jumped back.
"Daisuke…
Your one of my best friends, I NEED to know."
I
nodded with the same monotonous voice," Well then, I'll give it to ya. Its…"
"Its…"
"Takeru
to tell you the truth, its EVERYBODY!! Including you! Now leave me the
hell alone!" I take off sprinting as Takeru and Hikari run after me. Hikari grabbed a hold of me and spat out
gently, "What do you mean everybody? What did we do?"
I
grunted slightly, "You don't think I can hear your comments and insults. And
the jokes you tell behind my back. You think I'm some hyper egoistical, bull
and hotheaded jerk. Well, I'm NOT. It's obviously true you don't know about who I am. You don't know
the true me. You don't know how much courage it takes every single day just to
wake up and explore it to realize I'm nobody. I'm just another plain lifeless
soul in the middle of nowhere. Everything seems to detract from me every single
damn day, making me the freak, the unwanted, the unwilling. SEE! You don't even
understand me!! You might just think it's monophobia, but it's not!! You don't
know HOW hard it is just for me to even walk out there!! Geez, for
KAMI's sake you don't even know about me!! I DO have a better
vocabulary TK, or should I say Takeru. I DO have a caring side!! For all
you care, I DO have a compassionate soft side. I'm crumbling BIT by
BIT just for telling this in your damn faces!!! For crying out loud, why
should I even talk to both of you anyway?!"
I
took off looking at the expression on both of their faces as tears started
splatter from my cheeks all to the ground.
I
heard a gasp from Kari breaking down while Takeru said with tears coming, "I
never knew… And he remembered my name…" Kari was sobbing already.
Before
I left, I spat in TK's face with the anguish anger dancing in my eyes, "You dunce!!!
I've ALWAYS known your name though I chose not too. Now that you know,
why don't you let me rot in hell?!"
I
heard Kari's last murmur, "Daisuke, I'm sorry… I never knew all this time. I WAS
an idiot not realizing. Please forgive me…" By the time she was waiting for
her response, I already shot off.
After
running a block or so, I tripped accidentally over a pebble and a bag of
groceries toppled to the ground. I saw both Ken and Miyako trying to help me
after picking up the bag. I slapped their arms away from me. I yelled in their
face, "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I dashed off again leaving them both puzzled and
Miyako's response of, "Daisuke…"
While
running, I had crossed another street. I heard a car coming my way, while the
light turned red. I was in the middle of the road. As the screeching of brakes
filled my ears, the impact left me in the pool of thick crimson black blood. I
felt it coming out of my mouth and licked it. It felt sticky, thick, and really
sweet. I don't know why, but it did. My vision blurred drastically till it was
black as the person approached me. All I knew was the screeching of the other
cars and I was completely wiped out.
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Hey!!
I gave ya a cliffhanger!!! YES!!! I have been on writers block for six
months!!! (Or more) Here's the results!! Please review, this is my first
digimon fic, and yes, I WAS depressed while I wrote this and I still am.
I discontinued my other stories, not because of the pressure; it just doesn't
come out to me anymore.
I contribute this to anybody, with a mind
that knows how to express. And in *MY* opinion would be dedicated to Hikari
Takaishi. She's a very good writer, who someday would probably write a
bestseller. So if you're reading it, ARIGATO!! ^_^
I
remember a day I was crying a month ago. My depression grew from that day,
until it goes like this. Now that I read sadder, dark, fics, I'll get on the
verge of tears. I was on this one. I don't care if you flame or not, cuz I
don't care. Flames are from most immature people.
Well,
thank you for reading the first part… The next will come soon. I really don't
know how long this will go, but I'm going to make it the best I've ever had.
Now go and review or insult which ever you like to do.
*Bows*
Thank
you. Oh and Digimon isn't mine!! I'm sorry if I offended any Takeru fans. I
LIKE Takeru, he's number two on my list. This came out different than how it
originally came in my head so, I hoped you like it…
Well,
review!!
~A-Chan
Yuy~