Sisfic Coda to 4x21 "When the Levee Breaks". Enjoy!
"If you walk out that door... don't you ever come back."
Sam turned to leave, ignoring his betrayed, angry, and hurt older brother lying on the floor, and promptly froze at the sight of the smaller form standing in the doorway of the hotel room. Shay stood stock still, green eyes full of disbelief and, worst of all, pure unadulterated fear. She stumbled back into the wall opposite the door, honestly afraid that her little brother was going to start in on her next.
Dean, who'd managed to sit up, spotted her and growled despite the pain he was in, "If you touch her, I'll kill your ass, Sam. I don't give a damn what you do to me, if you hurt her, you're dead."
"Sam," she looked between her two brothers fearfully, "why'd you hurt Dean?" Tears were building up in her eyes. Sam took another step in her direction and she cowered back again, moving her arms into a subtly defensive position.
"Shay, I can—"
"Why?" she whispered, "Sam, why are you doing this to yourself?" Her green eyes glimmered with heartache, "you have to know how much you're hurting us, Sammy, so why are you still…" she shook her head and looked away, blinking away the tears that wouldn't stop gathering, "I don't know what else I can possibly say to get you to stop—"
"Shay, I have to do this. You don't understand—"
"No, you think you have to do this because Ruby filled your damn brain with bull shit," she sneered, "sure, maybe she said a few things that you wanted to hear, but she snuck in a few little hints here and there to make you think you were doing this because you wanted to. But fine," she looked back at him with angry, disappointed eyes, "make all the excuses you want, I don't have to believe them. You nearly killed our brother just now, so I don't think I have a reason to buy a damn word that comes out of your mouth."
"If you choose her, don't think we'll still be here when it turns out she was using you all along," Shay murmured, even though she knew it was a lie, "you wanna listen to a demon over your own blood, then fine. I mean, we're only your older siblings, why would you even listen to us over some demon you've barely known for a year? You're my baby brother and I'll always love you, but I… I can't back you up and I'm not even remotely sorry for it."
Sam breathed a heavy sigh and closed his eyes briefly before murmuring, "Forget it. Neither of you wanna hear my side so fuck it," he spat viciously, "I'm trying to save everyone, you're just too blind and ignorant to see it."
"Just get the hell out of my way so I can take care of my brother." Shay placed heavy emphasis on the words and shoved past Sam, no longer afraid of him now that his anger seemed to have dulled, "good bye, Sam." She dropped to her knees next to Dean and gently cupped his face, murmuring softly to him. The eldest Winchester wasn't looking at her, his green eyes were focused on Sam's back as he walked out of the door.
"De," Shay whispered, "what are we gonna do?"
"We'll figure it out, Bug," Dean spoke hoarsely, rubbing at his bruised throat, "don't worry."
"Dean," she murmured, "there's no amount of 'figuring out' that's gonna fix this shit storm. Sam's made off with that fucking demon slut and I just… there's no coming back from this, is there?" Shailene bit her lip shakily, "when he turned around, I honest to God thought he was gonna start in on me. He looked… unhinged. Not like our Sammy—"
"That's because he's sure as hell not our Sammy anymore," the eldest Winchester grumbled, "Ruby's got him by the short and curlies; he's her Sam now."
I generally try to leave some of my personal feelings regarding certain episodes out, but this one right here... The ending never fails to get me all worked up because, even though I know how things got that bad, I still wonder 'how the hell did it come to this?' The ending to this episode and 9x13 always make me so sad and upset. I hope you enjoyed the read!
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