Lavender Surrender
Disclaimer: I do not own Code Geass or any of the characters. I do however own the plot of the story.
Summary: When you pick the wrong flowers, can you expect that the others, still will grow, or will they wither away, and bloom in another man's garden? Will they ever return just for you? Suzalulu rated M for future chapters. (Lelouch is a normal person, Zero never existed)
Chapter 1
Lelouch had had a great day, Milly had not pushed him into a cat costume or a dress and Shirley hadn't bothered him, with her love sick ideas, and longing looks. Kallen hadn't commented or mentioned his sleeping in class, and Gino hadn't been ruffling his hair or bothered him with annoying personal questions. Gino and Kallen had recently become a couple and were spending more time together. It didn't bother him much though, Kallen was his best friend, and if she was happy he was happy, besides Gino was a nice guy. Anya hadn't been taking pictures of him, Nina had laughed today and Rivalz had been getting the attention he wanted from Milly. C.C. was eating pizza in a corner, all quiet and Arthur had been sleeping in his lap most of the time while he read his book. Everything seemed so perfect and quiet. However the silence was broken by Shirley, as always. "Where's Suzaku?" Lelouch's heart sank at the name. He swallowed the lump in his throat. "Where do you think he is? He is with my, brain death sister that is." Milly had laughed, and Kallen had looked at him with sympathy in her eyes. Being his best friend other than Suzaku, who didn't really seem to fill out that place anymore, knew very well, that he was very much in love with Suzaku. But how couldn't he notice? Lelouch would only laugh when he was around, he would smile so differently than that frown or forced smile, he made. His eyes would shine so happily that it would brighten the mood of everyone. Gino, Kallen, Milly, Rivalz, Anya and C.C. knew and acknowledged his love. Shirley still tried to deny the fact that she would never have a chance with Lelouch. Nina still had the problem Suzaku, but if he made Lelouch happy, she didn't feel that she should say anything. Even Nunnaly felt her brother's happiness, even if she couldn't see his shining eyes or bright smile. She loved how happy he seemed whenever Suzaku was around. But when Suzaku, fell in love with the bubble-gum haired plague Euphemia, as she would like to call her, in her own mind, she had heard her brother cry at night, when he thought she wouldn't hear. She had grown to dislike Euphemia, for the great unhappiness she had brought her brother.
Nunnaly and Lelouch, was living under the supervision of The Ashford family, Milly's grandfather, who had taken them in, when their mother died. She had died in a car crash, when Lelouch was 10 and Nunnaly 6 years old. Nunnaly had been in that car and had lost her sight, well seeing her mother die had traumatized her so much, that she just couldn't open her eyes, once they were closed, and her ability to walk. She had broken her back in the crash, she was however learning how to walk again at the hospital she came to, to have her regular check-ups. Lelouch was very proud of her and would often let her go for a walk, in the garden, under his supervision, with her crutches. Even with his love for Suzaku, Nunnaly was his whole world. She would always make him smile. Not so long ago she had even started therapy, hoping she would see her brother again. She had gotten to know, from many girls in her class, that her brother had grown very beautiful. She wanted to see her brother; she couldn't imagine him, growing more beautiful than he had been in her memory. And even Suzaku had helped with encouragement, telling her about the beautiful Sakura trees, with their falling leaves, that looked like pink snow, when flying through the air. She wanted to see fireworks, and see their garden, which smelled so amazing of lavenders. Like her brother did. She missed his lavender eyes, which would be so serious and yet so shining. She wanted to see her brother. Her brother, her most important person, he would be the one she opened her eyes for and no one else. How often wouldn't she say 'I love you oni-sama!' especially in front of Suzaku, she felt somewhat jealous, that her brother loved him so dearly, that he would cry at night. How could Suzaku be so stupid? Euphemia didn't have anything that Lelouch hadn't; he had even more than her. He had his own mind, his independence and his future. He could even carry a child. When he was just a fetus, a mutation in his cells happened, which had made him develop an uterus, and an opening that would collect semen, though he would not have any birth canal and would have the exact same anatomy as a normal boy, he was able to carry a child, though his mother thought she had done nothing wrong, his father, had aloud and experiment on his own child, for a large amount of money. She had taking some strange drug, thinking it was vitamins that would secure her a healthy child, though she had gotten the almost opposite. Lelouch got sick very easily and had a frail body. He was however smart, smart enough to be called a genius. Their mother was very proud of her son, and when Nunnaly, who was perfectly healthy baby girl, came into the world, she couldn't have been happier; Lelouch felt a great love for the new-born and even decided her name. he had taken care of her, since they were very small. They had always been together he and Nunnaly, no one could measure the love they had for each other, Lelouch would rather die than let anybody hurt her. So when their mother died, he had decided to go away, with Nunnaly, and not be with their father, which had hurt Lelouch and had found another woman, whom he had had his half siblings with; Lelouch had refused their existence, and had left with Nunnaly. They had inherited a fortune, from their mother, but weren't able to use the money until Lelouch turned 18. That had happened just a few months ago, which allowed him, to take care of Nunnaly without any help. The Ashford family did however still pay Nunnaly's medical bills, the house they lived in on the school grounds and paid Sayako, their maid, to take care and help them. They had a good life, they were so incredibly happy, until Suzaku showed up, and Lelouch fell in love with him. Well, they were still happy, when it just had been Suzaku and Lelouch, and not Suzaku and Euphemia. Suzaku knew how Lelouch felt about his siblings, and he had been deeply hurt, though it didn't matter to him it seemed. Couldn't he see the pain Lelouch was in? Couldn't he see his eyes that were red from crying? Couldn't he hear him crying at night when he slept over? Didn't he feel his friend falling into a depression? Did he even care? Or was he just plain stupid?
Arthur was still in Lelouch lap, purring and cuddling against him, he had taking a great liking to him. Lelouch, liked dogs more than cats, but Arthur was adorable. And who would have thought that Arthur was the one to save him that fateful day? Not long after Lelouch remark, Suzaku had come running into the student counsel, happy as ever. Milly seemed to be amused about his great mood, people worked faster, when they were happy, and she had a great stack of papers with Suzaku's name on them. "Why're you so happy?" Milly had said, smiling deviously. "I have great news!" Suzaku had uttered. Most of the counsel had tipped their heads in curiosity. "I asked Euphemia to marry me, she said yes!" Everybody grew quiet. Tension came rushing through the room. "That's great man!" Gino and Rivalz said padding Suzaku's back, Nina and Shirley seemed overly excited about this and hugged him. C.C. didn't say anything, and ate her pizza; Kallen made an angered frown, and ignored him. Milly felt hurt, for her friend, but congratulated Suzaku. When people were done, distracting him, so he wouldn't see Lelouch hurt and angered face, he walked towards that very boy, smiling with his eyes closed. "So it looks like we're about to be brothers." Suzaku said still smiling. But when he was about 2 steps away from Lelouch, he heard something, an angered hiss, which sounded more like a growl, from a very angry Arthur. Arthur usually bit him, but he had never growled at him. Arthur attacked Suzaku, ripping his arm open with his claws, making his arm bleed violently. Suzaku screamed in pain, trying to get the angry cat away. Lelouch took that chance to run away before he would cry in front of everybody. Kallen looked at the door, feeling a lump form in her throat. She knew that Lelouch was miserable right now, she was frightened that he would do something stupid. Suzaku didn't even notice. Gino noticed the look on his girlfriend's face; he knew where her heart was. He was Suzaku's best friend other than Lelouch. But he did as well, feel sympathy towards Lelouch. He nodded at Kallen signalizing, that she could go; it would be for the best.
Kallen had walked to Lelouch house, an knocked. Sayako opened the door. "Kallen, what a surprise to see you! What may bring you here? Master Lelouch is not home." Kallen's eyes widened. Sayako, who saw Kallen panicking, asked what had happened. "Suzaku is getting married, to Euphemia that bitch! Lelouch ran away from the room." Kallen was raging by now, if anything happened to Lelouch, she would kick Suzaku in the family jewellery so many times, his nose would bleed. "Oni-sama is missing?" Nunnaly said worried out of her mind. "No, he just haven't come home yet Nunnaly-sama." Kallen faked her voice a little. "We haven't really looked for him yet, so he is not missing before we can't find him, I just assumed he would have gone here." Nunnaly smiled. "Oh. Please find oni-sama." She said smiling at Kallen. Kallen hugged the younger girl and promised to find her brother. When Kallen had left, Nunnaly was with Sayako once again folding cranes. "Sayako? Is it bad to hate someone, who has made someone you love very unhappy?" Sayako touched the girls hair. "No of course not, Nunnaly-sama." The girl smiled at the maid. "Then I think I hate Euphemia."
Lelouch had run away, till his legs couldn't hold him up anymore. He had crashed onto the ground, not caring where he was, he could not hold his tears in anymore. They floated from his eyes. Why did he have to go through this? Dear god why? He looked around, and recognized the place he had landed in, was a park not very far from the school. He found a bench and sat down. It was a very beautiful park. It had a medium large lake, with very clear water, and in the middle of the lake, there was some sort of fountain, squirting the lake water up into the air. The water was filled with swans. It seemed that the swans had taken a liking to the environment. There were very large beds, filled with flowers, not just any flower, but lavenders. There were large siren bushes and a large oak tree, which he loved deeply. The bench he had placed himself on was placed right under the old oak. It was his place to read, eat picnics with Nunnaly and Suzaku. But it was his tree, he slept under the tree, he wrote under that tree, it was his tree. And now he sat under it and cried. It started to rain not long after; its arms sheltered him from the rain. When he had sat there, for maybe 1 hour, his eyes had gone completely dry. He tried to stand, supporting himself on the tree. He didn't care about the rain, as he walked home, he didn't care that he was drenched. When he was about half the way home, he got surprised by hearing a sad and very worried call for him. It was Kallen and Gino. "Where the hell have you been? I was so worried!" Kallen was almost crying, she had feared for her friend. Gino hadn't let her walk out into the rain to look for Lelouch all by herself, she had been panicking and he had been afraid that she may have gotten hurt herself. Lelouch didn't say anything, neither did he cry. Kallen hugged him and then he cried. He cried and fell to his knees, exhausted and weakened by the weather. "Lelouch? Lelouch?" Kallen frantically called, as his eyes closed. He had fainted, letting his system shut down, protecting him from the pain of sickness. Kallen cried, fearing for her friend's health, knowing his frail and weak immune system. Gino picked him up, protecting his friend, his girlfriend's best friend. When they came home Nunnaly was out of her mind, with worry for her sick brother. She knew how dangerous it was for her brother to get sick. Their doctor, did however, guarantee that her brother would be fine, he needed to sleep, and be kept warm, and food wouldn't hurt him either. He did tell them that they couldn't wake him up until he woke up himself, he had shut down; secure himself from a wave of pain. Nunnaly blamed Suzaku, for getting her bother sick and making him cry. She had heard what had happened earlier that day. When the phone rung later that night she ignored it, unless it was Milly or Kallen who rung the phone. Then Lelouch cell started ringing and vibrating, she turned it off. And when she was having dinner with Sayako, the door was knocked violently for a very long time, she ignored that as well. Like she was going to let that man, see her adored brother. He didn't deserve to breathe the same air as him! It eventually died down and the house was quiet once again.
"Is Lelouch awake yet?" a very sleep deprived Kallen had asked. She was standing in the door. Nunnaly smiled. "He woke up about an hour ago. He is very weak, and we can't get him to eat." Nunnaly said, knowing that Kallen would get him to eat, one way or the other. Kallen smiled. "I'm coming." Sayako was in Lelouch room trying to convince him to eat the miso soup, she had made for him. He refused; right now he just wanted to die. Kallen nodded her head towards Sayako who pretended to give up and left the soup in case he grew hungry. Sayako couldn't help but giggle, when she walked beside Kallen. "Hi Lelouch, do you feel any better?" Kallen said as she sat on his bed, he looked terrible. He had bags under his eyes, which were a shade lighter, than his purple eyes. His skin was sickly pale, almost grey. He was sweating and shaking. When he got sick, his body reacted to the extreme. Lelouch smiled, that was all he could do. He wasn't better, mentally; he had never felt any worse. "Why don't you eat anything? It would make you feel better?" Lelouch shook his head no. Kallen pretended to give up as well, letting him relax. But all of sudden he held her fingers on his nose, closing his access to air. He gasped, and when he opened his mouth she shoved the spoon in, forcing him to eat it. "See? I'll keep doing this until you eat on your own, and until all of the soup is gone!" She said not letting go. He coughed and nodded his head. He knew it wouldn't do him any good to argue with her. Suzaku had been asking for Lelouch all day, though only Gino, Kallen and Nunnaly knew where he was. Nunnaly had stayed home, Kallen had refused to talk to him at all and Gino had pretended not to know. Kallen knew that she shouldn't mention the Japanese man right now. She did know that he was with the bubble gum bitch again. Nunnaly, Kallen and C.C. had nicknamed her that. Nunnaly seemed so innocent, but when it came to her brother, and people hurting him, she would show no mercy. She did have an evil side, which her brother didn't know off, of course.
A couple of days had gone by, before Lelouch's body was healthy enough for him to go anywhere. And he had mentally prepared himself, to ignore the Japanese boy. When he arrived to school, he sat in his normal spot and looked towards the chair that Suzaku normally would sit in. Kallen had taken that seat, C.C. had taken the spot behind him, and Rivalz had taken the spot in front of him. Rivalz knew all too well, that Lelouch didn't need to see Suzaku after so many days being sick. Suzaku came into the classroom to see that his usual spot next to Lelouch had been taken by Kallen. Suzaku knew that he shouldn't go near Kallen. The top athlete from the girls department had a temperament to match her strength. She would bite his head off. He sat down next to Gino, who smiled his normal friendly smile. Class started, and all he could do was staring at Lelouch, who would sleep the class through. He would try not to know, that the man he loved didn't love him at all. What had he done in an earlier life, do deserve such fate? A sick, wrong body, a dead mother, a sick sister, a horrible, evil father, siblings that he couldn't acknowledge and now the man he loved, didn't love him back. When he thought of that chain of awful things, he felt tears fall from his eyes, though no one noticed. Couldn't the one who controlled happiness, give him, his wanted love? Why couldn't he have that? Where had he ever been wrong? He had taken care of Nunnaly, been kind to others, been fair and tried not to hurt anybody. Couldn't he have a chance to be happy once again? Had he ever been happy? He wondered. 'Fuck it. Fuck love, fuck happiness. Fuck you Suzaku Kururugi! I don't need you, I shouldn't be so unhappy over you, you don't mean anything. I've got many offers from men, I'll just settle with one of those. They can offer me more than you ever could! I hate you! I hate you so much! I love you so much you incompetent fool.' He looked at Suzaku, who still was staring at him. Suzaku smiled at him, Lelouch just turned his head, and didn't even pull a muscle in his face. It was cold. Lelouch knew, that this would be the face; he was going to show Suzaku from now on. Suzaku was now, no longer his friend. He knew all too well how Lelouch felt about his family. When class ended, he sat back, determined to only talk to Kallen and C.C. Suzaku rose from his seat, and didn't see the look that Kallen shot Gino. Gino nodded; "Suzaku, let's go play basket! Right now come on!" Gino pulled Suzaku away; Suzaku was struggling for his life. Gino was much larger than him, and pulled the strong boy away like he was just a child. "Gino put me down! I have to talk to Lelouch!" Gino just laughed, pretending not to hear the last part and walked out the door. "Kallen, let's go out." Kallen looked at him like he was an idiot. "Idiot I have 3 reasons. 1: you're gay! 2: I'm with Gino and 3: you're my best friend." Lelouch laughed. "I meant let's go to town? I think, I need a night out, you know like we used to, when you were single?" Kallen smiled. "Well if you insist, then let's go!" Kallen said happily, even if she knew that Lelouch probably just needed to drink, she was happy that he would go out. "So, you're okay again?" C.C. asked him. "Well, no. I'll never be okay. But I'll manage; I just need to give up." He said with a sad smile. How much pain did he have to be in before he broke down in pain? If Nunnaly simply was his reason to be this strong, and the only reason, he hadn't died long ago, Kallen prayed that Nunnaly always would be there.