Hey everyone! Here's a new story that I wrote in about an hour last night. I hope you enjoy it, and please review!

Disclaimer: I do not own CCS

Sakura sat down on her bed, propping her back against the wall. "I wonder if I'll ever have the gut to send this to him," she whispered to the darkness, setting a diary onto her bent knees.

Staring at her old high school yearbook, she began to write.

Dear Syaoran,

It has been a long time, huh? Three years since we last saw each other, three years since we last spoke. Yet everything feels like it happened yesterday.

It has been over five years since we broke up. How long was it? Three months? I remember back then, all our friends thought that was such a long relationship. We were very silly high school freshmen! However, those three months still affect me to this day.

Do you remember when we first met? My first memory of you is on the soccer field in 8th grade. My friends and I were playing, and we were just introduced when you picked up the soccer ball and chased me around threatening to hit me. There was a lot of smiles and laughter! And since then, I've only had pleasant memories. At the beginning of freshmen year, you were my confidant. I could tell you all my problems and you told me yours, and somehow just by talking to each other it felt like the problems just disappeared. I remember finding out you liked me after my "first" boyfriend (your best friend Eriol!) and we started dating March 9. I remember you told me you loved me and that you would love me forever, putting it into writing in my yearbook. I remember your father dying and how you needed me to be your rock. And I remember how we broke up because of a miscommunication, ending us on June 14.

After that day, we were never the same. We each went our own way, getting different friends and taking different classes. But for some reason, God brought us back together again in our senior year. And I don't know about you, but old feelings were rekindled. But by that time, it was too late. We were in two completely different worlds that made it impossible in the high school environment to ever get back together.

And now, all I can do is ask "what if" questions. What if we had dated when we were more mature? What if your father hadn't died and you didn't need me to be your emotional support at that immature age? What if I realized you were my first love during high school instead of in college, where we are on opposite sides of the state? What if our friends hadn't been so different? What if we saw each other now, in this very moment? How would we react? What would we do?

I still wonder if you are my soul mate, and if God has it planned, well then I'll find out in His time. But now, I must go back to my boyfriend of almost two years. Even though we have both moved on, you will always be in my heart and I will continue to pray for your happiness. And if God allows it, I pray that someday we'll return to what we were.

Love Always, Sakura