Everything I never wanted
It's been awhile since I wrote anything, sorry about that. Anyway, I wrote this in class out of boredom and then decided that if I already wrote this then why not post it and see what other people think. And keep it in mind that this is my first attempt at poetry. Oh and this is supposed to be in Sam's pov.
Summary:ButheiseverythingInevercanbe.AndheiseverythingIcouldneverhave. "Andthat'swhyIwillnevertellhim." Ipromisetomyselfagain.ButhowcomeIcanneverkeepapromise?
I am everything I always hated.
I am everything I promised I would never be.
I'm a liar and a cheater.
I get joy from others pain.
Pain is something that I'm used to.
It's something that I had to deal with everyday.
And from this quiet hell inside me,
Nobody could hear my cries for help.
And nobody ever even noticed,
The broken girl.
Who just needed somebody to tell her,
That she's not alone.
He is everything I never wanted.
And everything I promised I would never love.
But I broke that promise just like every other.
And it scares me that he has this power.
To bring me down with simple words.
It scares me that he stays,
Even if I push with all I can.
But mostly it scares me that I kind of like it,
This warm feeling, I never felt before.
But he is everything I never can be.
And he is everything I could never have.
"And that's why I will never tell him."
I promise to myself again.
"But how come I can never keep a promise?"
I whisper to myself that night.
He tells me that I'm perfect.
He tells me I'm much more then I can ever see.
And for the first time I believe him.
Because I know he doesn't lie.
"You can be anything you ever wanted."
I hear his voice right next to me.
So I'm happy I could never keep a promise.
And I'm happy that he's here.
Because he's the only one who saw,
The broken girl and helped her heal.
Even if the broken girl was me.
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