Changes
by fairieangel
E-mail: lydia293@yahoo.com
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sonny/Carly/Lorenzo
Disclaimer: Don't own a thing.
Summary: Carly reflects on the changes in her life and what they mean. Short one-part, Carly's POV
It astonishes me all the things that have changed in my life in the last year. Some changes I guess were for the better and some for the worse.
Sometimes I'm happy with my life and the direction it's going in but then I wake up and realize just how bad it is.
It wouldn't be so bad if I had my children. They're my whole world – my boys. Sonny says that he'd give my joint custody if I left Lorenzo. Lorenzo has been so great through this all, but they're my kids. Then I think about the fact that even though Sonny and I are no longer together he's still trying to control my life.
I know Sonny loves our boys more than anything, but he's being selfish right now. He's not thinking about what the boys want or need, he just doesn't want a bruised ego. He just wants to 'beat' Lorenzo.
I wish I could go back and change the outcome of what happened but I know I can never do that. What happened, happened and now I'm left to adjust to all of these changes.
They say change can be good but I don't know how anything will ever be good in the end. No matter the outcome, we all lose.
The approaching footsteps snap me out of my reverie and I look up to see who is it is. Looking up, I see the main reason behind all of these changes: Lorenzo Alcazar.
The minute he stepped into Port Charles, my life was forever changed, whether for the better or worse remains to be seen. Before either of us has the chance to speak more footsteps can be heard bringing me back to my earlier revelation...no one will win.
I am once again stuck between a rock and a hard place. Trapped between Lorenzo and all the love and possibilities he brings and Sonny and the life I've always dreamed about.
Snapping back to the present, I realize that they're once again at each other's throats, a battle of egos that I want no part in.
I get up and leave. I don't want to deal with this today. I just want to crawl into a hole where there are no changes and where I'm no longer stuck in the middle.
The three of us know, though, that at the end of the day...I'll still be with Lorenzo and I will still be without my boys. I may have walked away today, but I keep on ending up with Lorenzo. Where before I was Lorenzo's addiction, now he's become mine.
All these changes and no where to escape. I feel in my heart that in the end everything will work itself out. All these changes have made us stronger and ready to deal with the war that was ahead of us.
With one last look behind me, I say a final goodbye to what once was, what could have been and for the first time, embrace what is to come.
Hope you enjoyed. This was just a quick one part that wouldn't get out of my head until I wrote it. I wrote it in about 15 minutes so it's not that great. Please review and tell me what you thought! Ciao~fairieangel
by fairieangel
E-mail: lydia293@yahoo.com
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sonny/Carly/Lorenzo
Disclaimer: Don't own a thing.
Summary: Carly reflects on the changes in her life and what they mean. Short one-part, Carly's POV
It astonishes me all the things that have changed in my life in the last year. Some changes I guess were for the better and some for the worse.
Sometimes I'm happy with my life and the direction it's going in but then I wake up and realize just how bad it is.
It wouldn't be so bad if I had my children. They're my whole world – my boys. Sonny says that he'd give my joint custody if I left Lorenzo. Lorenzo has been so great through this all, but they're my kids. Then I think about the fact that even though Sonny and I are no longer together he's still trying to control my life.
I know Sonny loves our boys more than anything, but he's being selfish right now. He's not thinking about what the boys want or need, he just doesn't want a bruised ego. He just wants to 'beat' Lorenzo.
I wish I could go back and change the outcome of what happened but I know I can never do that. What happened, happened and now I'm left to adjust to all of these changes.
They say change can be good but I don't know how anything will ever be good in the end. No matter the outcome, we all lose.
The approaching footsteps snap me out of my reverie and I look up to see who is it is. Looking up, I see the main reason behind all of these changes: Lorenzo Alcazar.
The minute he stepped into Port Charles, my life was forever changed, whether for the better or worse remains to be seen. Before either of us has the chance to speak more footsteps can be heard bringing me back to my earlier revelation...no one will win.
I am once again stuck between a rock and a hard place. Trapped between Lorenzo and all the love and possibilities he brings and Sonny and the life I've always dreamed about.
Snapping back to the present, I realize that they're once again at each other's throats, a battle of egos that I want no part in.
I get up and leave. I don't want to deal with this today. I just want to crawl into a hole where there are no changes and where I'm no longer stuck in the middle.
The three of us know, though, that at the end of the day...I'll still be with Lorenzo and I will still be without my boys. I may have walked away today, but I keep on ending up with Lorenzo. Where before I was Lorenzo's addiction, now he's become mine.
All these changes and no where to escape. I feel in my heart that in the end everything will work itself out. All these changes have made us stronger and ready to deal with the war that was ahead of us.
With one last look behind me, I say a final goodbye to what once was, what could have been and for the first time, embrace what is to come.
Hope you enjoyed. This was just a quick one part that wouldn't get out of my head until I wrote it. I wrote it in about 15 minutes so it's not that great. Please review and tell me what you thought! Ciao~fairieangel