FANDOM: Saiyuki
TITLE: Notebook
THEME: #15 First Time rival or lover?
PAIRING: Sanzo x Kougaiji
DISCLAIMER: Minekura Kazuya owns Saiyuki, not me
SUMMARY: Their love was made eternal by the simple act of writing
There was a small notebook lying there on the table. A beam of moonlight entered a space between the curtains and seemed to focus on it, a silver spotlight for something that seemed so insignificant. The sole occupant of the room slept soundly in bed.
The first few entries were written in a simple slanting hand and were nothing more than some notes on how to defeat the Sanzo-ikkou or where Sanzo probably kept his sutra. Near the beginning and moving towards the middle, the notes transformed into what seemed to be shopping lists. The slanted handwriting was now interspersed with a bolder hand.
milk
butter
eggs
bacon
Xcigarettes
cheese
juice
Xcigarettes
soap
shampoo
The lists went on, the entry 'cigarettes' repeatedly crossed out by the first person who refused to have the house filled with noxious cigarette smoke. The second person, upon seeing that he would have to buy his cigarettes himself, did so, to the utter annoyance of his housemate and lover.
On the last page of the notebook was a list of a different kind.
December 18 – our 1st kiss
Sanzo's 'prize' for defeating Gyumao
December 20 – our 1st date
1/1 – first time we had sex
January 09 – first time that Sanzo admitted that he was wrong
It was your birthday, dumbass. I LET you win that fight
Whatever you say, koibito
February 14 – our 1st Valentines Day as lovers
3/20 – 1st time I saw Kougaiji cry
I was not crying. There was something in my eye
Yeah right
Well, you comforted me by being all sweet
Shut up
4/5 – 1st time Kougaiji saw Goku eating (it was the saru's birthday). He was 'permanently scarred' according to him
Why are you listing this down?
Because you said this was a list of firsts and this is a first. The look on your face was priceless
4/30 – our first fight. We made up that night
May 8 – first time Sanzo cuddled in his sleep. He looked really cute
Haha. Very funny
The list extended towards the middle of the notebook, chronicling down the firsts in their relationship of three years. Small details that either one of them found amusing or sweet and worthy of being made eternal in writing.
Sanzo sat up in bed and looked at the notebook. His face was tear-stained and blank as he slowly stood up and walked towards the table. Kougaiji's death a week ago was still hurting him.
As the blonde leafed through the pages, reading their firsts, a deeper sadness stole through him. He would never see Kougaiji again, never see him smile again, never feel his touch again, never hear the words 'I love you' again.
Sanzo suddenly realized that they never wrote down the time they first told each other 'I love you'. Deep in thought for a while, he finally remembered why. Because they both agreed that it would be a waste of ink. Because those words were always there, whispered between them even though it was hard to tell sometimes. Because it was evident in all their gestures. Because it wasn't important when they first said or realized it; what was important was that they did love each other.
Sanzo thought about committing suicide. But the thought was quickly pushed aside. Kougaiji's last words had been a confirmation of his love and an admonishment to live for the both of them.
The blonde reached for a pen and made an addition to the list.
8/10 – 1st time Kougaiji and I are apart since getting together
A tear blurred the ink.