This fanfic is different from my usual lighthearted and funny fics, so I just thought you might want to know... I don't own this it's the property of J.K. Rowling and anyone else who does have rights. So don't sue me... This is NOT a happy fic.
The Cycle
It's a cycle, a cycle of abuse...harry is abusive to his children, and his wife Ginny. They cannot blame him, he hurt them yelled at them but they cannot blame him, for with him the pain despair and abuse came from childhood a wicked cycle that has still yet to end. -Finished- Each is done to a song.
HARRY JAMES POTTER
I wanna love,
I wanna leave.
I want you to love me,
I want you to leave me.
I want to stand where I can see,
I'm watching you love me,
And I'm watching you leave me now.
Another day, another bruise... I yelled at them again, I called them all such awful names, and Ginny my sweet spitfire Ginny is so run down, I love them but I can't get close to them, for I am such a freakish wretched thing, no, don't come near me, I'll lose it again.
I did it again today; I struck gin, called them names again, I'm breaking them down even though I'm breaking apart inside.
I came home drunk, but I didn't do anything, is this my answer?
Lily is crying again...I slapped her, I ran away afterwards, this cannot continue,
I wish I could be,
Somebody else.
I wish I could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
Off I go, where I fall is where I land! I sing as I write up the papers, I leave everything to them.
Gin she tries to argue with me and I hex her, I say I will kill her, the children and burn everything to the ground if she doesn't take the children and leave. I run at her screaming, she flees with the kids, I put everything back where it should be, I place it all clean and in site. Loose ends they tangle down and then take flight but never tie me down, never tie me down, I sing as I fly my Firebolt as high as I can and then let go, as I fall I laugh and think of the good times, before my broom comes and saves me. I... cry, I cannot end it that way...
I wanna know if I could be,
Someone to turn to,
That could never hurt you.
But i know what you think of me,
You had a breakthrough,
And now I'm just bad news for you.
I cried today in this empty house,
I finally finished it! I smile without humor,
I wish I could be,
Somebody else.
I wish i could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know i need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
I visit my Father once, more I say so thanks to him and leave I hear him weep...
I sit down in the garden it's nice, I sit amongst the pretty flowers,
I walk inside...so slowly I enter everyone's rooms and kiss their pillows goodbye.
I visit Privet drive once more and see where it all started, I visit Godric's hollow and rage at them for leaving me, the place where it all began.
I go back home, and send a note to Ginny to come back that I'm better, I drink the mixture and lie down in bed, it's slowly getting dark.
I should've told you everything.
I never gave you anything.
I should've told you everything.
If I could give you anything,
Then I would tell you everything.
So dark, and yet I do this for their mercy, I beg for forgiveness for I shall never see them off to Hogwarts, never see them graduate, I'm gone, but still here, I pray that they will forgive me someday.
I see their faces, laughing happily, myself with them...
I see Snape my should be father...
I wish I could be,
Somebody else.
I wish I could see,
You and myself.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
And say,
What you really feel.
You know I need,
Something that's real.
I wish there was something inside me,
To keep you beside me.
Get darker
I see my Hogwarts years…
…So much darker...
I see my uncles...
Darkness comes closer I cannot see the world anymore...
I see Ginny...
I love you...
Darkness...
I should've told you everything.
I should've told you everything.
I should've told you everything.
HARRY JAMES POTTER
The song is called Keeper by Yellowcard, I personally think you should listen to it while reading this fic.