4 years.
4 years of hiding, of burning, of pain and of love.
4 years of keeping that secret.
I've decided already to go on like that.
So why did this have to happen?

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That's what it was like for Tom.
He was speechless and hurt when he found out that the love of his life had someone else to warm them through the cold winter.
And the worse part was that it was one of his best friends and band mates that he chose.
Tom looked paralyzed at the two figures spread on the bed in Harry's room.
He could not believe his eyes.
For so long he had kept his love for Harry secret because he feared rejection, and
now to find out that he might have a huge chance when it was too late?
That - is a tragedy.
But what could he do now? Harry had found a person that he loved and loved him
back, and Tom had no right to interfere.
He slowly backed away from the door and closed it silently behind him.
Heart dangerously beating at the speed of light in his chest, and still breathing fast, tom leaned against the door frame and tried to shake the images out of his head, But with no use.
Harry was with Dougie.
And knowing that hurt.

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It has been 3 days since the incident, they were on tour now, and Tom was going insane.
He hadn't slept so well because of the thoughts and images that won't leave him alone.
And the heart ache from only looking at Harry... unbearable.
Having a conversation was out of the question, and they all felt that something want right.
Especially Harry.
When they were at a music shop yesterday, and Harry had asked Tom to help him and Dougie to chose a bass for Doug, Tom rejected the offer and went to the bus claiming that he wasn't feeling well.
Usually Tom would gladly agree to help and rush to Dougie's side with that amazing
one-dimple smile of his that could knock angels off of their feet.

"And? What do you what me to do 'bout that, harry? I'm the one in love with him, not the other way around. I won't have any effect."

"That's not true. You're his best friend. He will tell you what's wrong. Please, Danny.
At least try."

Danny sighed but agreed to help. Well, he was madly in love with. And he couldn't bring himself to look Tom in the eyes when he was like that.

"Fine. But I can't promise you anything will change."

"Thanx Dan. That's all I'm asking for."