I've had rough times actually for a while and so I haven't been writing/ updating stuff. I might delete how to train your Rathalos but Idk for the moment.
Well enjoy cuz I really don't know what this is.
My throat burns as the lump inside of it grows larger and larger with every second that passes by. I can't shed tears. Not here. Not in this hellish place named school. My pale hands barley manage to grip the roof's railings trembling with some sort of fear, rush of adrenaline, sensation to the crisp winter air that helps scald and irritate the growing lump in my throat, the reason is unknown. "Calm down Chihiro." I mumble to myself, a cloud of vapor carrying my shaky breaths away into the now darkening sky disappearing into nothingness. I am in pain. The freezing railing that I am clutching on to for support burns my hands, the lump in my throat is mercilessly expanding, my legs are weak and failing on me while each and every breath I take burns my insides almost poisoning me. Everything is happening so quickly as my mind registers the events that had just occurred. The lump is still expanding. I can't contain it anymore. One single tear slides down my face burning my flesh in its wake making me shake my head violently. More tears follow on. forming a small stream down my cheeks and dripping down onto the icy ground. It was here when I first had met him, a year ago. It was here that we shared so many experiences. It was here when he ripped my heart out of my ribcage and crushed it between his teeth relentlessly. Now not able to stop breathing, my mouth immediately opens as I hungrily gasp for air coming out as a choked sob. More vapor, more tears, more burning, more memories, more, more, more... I have to get out. I have to leave before I'm found and laughed at. I lie to myself. I lie to get my legs to strengthen up. Just for long enough. Just for long enough to get myself to my safe spot. Shaky breaths form a sense of rhythm as I manage to race down the stairs, through the maze of corridors. Past the classrooms filled with students, most couples, most friends, most deemed as normal. In one of these rooms is my best friend. Sat there now most likely with my ex boyfriend. Shivering at the cold, I manage to get to my tiny shoe locker and change my footwear before racing out of the bland white building. The entrance is open. Of course it is. It always is and has been.
The streets are a blur. Wanderers passing by quickly with their children attempting to get home before the night sky fully dominates. Nothing is cold for me. Nothing can be at this moment in time. My legs are trembling while the rest of me is burning hot. Just a few meters... Just a few meters to the tunnel leading to the abandoned amusement park. "I just need a glimpse." I mumble to myself while gasping for air. With my water stained vision, I barley manage to evade the thick wall of the tunnel and slip into the shadows. "I just need to see him again. Even if it is for just a few moments. I need him." My legs tremor even more before completely caving in on me. My dying willpower and spirit has diminished. Here I am. Sat in the freezing cold tunnel, just so close to the amusement park full of wonders of my childhood. And the very thing that ruined my teenage life. Suddenly, a shadow flashes before me. Rapidly, I blink ridding my vision from excess tears for a few moments. Nothing is there. Nothing at all. "I'm an Idiot." I sob to myself. A silent barrier In my throat prevents me from breathing properly. "Of course he doesn't exist. Of course a river spirit can't exist. What was I thinking for ten years? What am I gripping on to?"
"I believe my shirt." A sudden masculine voice remarks. Barely managing to cast my eyes upward, only to see a head of short neck length hair and a familiar face.
"Haku." I breathe before wrapping my arms around him tightly.
"It's been a long time." He remarks quietly.
"I'm so so confused and hurt." I mumble to him not loosening my grip and shutting my eyes slowly.
"I know Chihiro." He manages to mumble. "I'll see you soon and don't loose faith in me."
"Haku I love you." I mumble with tears flowing down my face once more.
"I love you too and I'll be by your side soon. Just please cling on until then Chihiro. I believe in you. Goodbye for now."
"Wait Haku!" I call in desperation before opening my eyes once more only to find nothing there. I know, however, that this can't be a dream. His body heat clings to me and slowly slips away to follow its owner. With my throat still raw, fingers now numb and eyes sore, I stare at the fairground with a ghost of a smile gracing my lips. I uneasily rise to my feet and hesitantly walk out of the tunnel. Slowly, I cast my gaze upon the fairground once more. "And I'll see you soon Haku." I mumble. with a few stray tears slipping down my cheeks only to be brushed away by a gentle breeze and a small smile tugging at my lips, I turn around once more and continue my venture home with a flicker of hope sparked in my heart.