Ludwig and Feliciano quietly opened the door and walked inside the room.
Lovino's room had always been beautiful. Big windows , with a cute balcony and olive green walls. The windows were widely open and the curtains moved because of the strong wind. Leaves flew inside falling on the bed were lovino was sleeping. He was clomping his pillow tight to his chest. With a peaceful look on his face and having curled his body like a little toddler , Feliciano couldn't help but smile.

'' He must be dreaming something very sweet~veh. It's been quite a long time since he slept this well.''

Ludwig nodded. '' It's good to see him like this after all those …hard days'' Ludwig had a difficulty with finding the good words.

But Feliciano knew what Ludwig was talking about very clearly. He tilted his head down , not wanting Ludwig to see his eyes. '' veh…It has been a hard time for him .. after Antonio..did that..''

Ludwig could see Feliciano was on the edge of crying , but didn't say anything. He knew Feliciano didn't want to be comforted right now. He would only run away if he tried. So he remained silent.

''veh..I a-am going downstairs to make breakfast , you can stay upstairs for a little longer Lud.'' Feliciano quickly left the room and closed the door with a troubled look on his face. Ludwig wanted to run after him, but looking at Feli's mood , it was clear to him that that wasn't the smartest thing to do. At least , not now.

No one has been happy after that incident with Antonio. But out of all of them Lovino was hurt the most. He didn't eat for days and locked himself up in his room while shouting at anyone who tried to help him. Every day Lovino was crying. Feliciano could hear him every day in his own room. Every time he tried to enter Lovino's room to comfort him. But Lovino shouted at him and kicked him out his room. When Feliciano wanted to give Lovino some food, he shouted he didn't need it , kicked his brother once more out of his room and then a loud sound of door closing could be heard.
But sometimes , especially in the morning, they could sneak into Lovino's room. Feliciano was happy that he could see his brother now and then, but he was also very hurt because Lovino's actions. He understands him though. His closest friend, Antonio….he had lost him. Antonio got run over by a car while he was protecting Lovino from some local criminals.
The criminals had pushed Lovino on the road , but Antonio had pushed Lovino away. In less than a second after that the car crushed Antonio. Lovino had seen it with his own eyes. He slowly saw the blood spreading on the road and heard Antonio screaming in terrible pain. Lovino ran to Antonio, clinging to him and begging God for him to be saved. Antonio tried to comfort him by saying: ''Don't worry, boss won't die from something like this.'' But a few seconds later, he lost consciousness.

Antonio was brought to the hospital. The doctors tried their best. But soon a doctor told Lovino:
'' Antonio is in a coma.''

Feliciano stood in the kitchen , cutting onions for the frittata. He was cutting them in a decent way , but when he was looking at the knife he couldn't forget the urge he has had for such a long time. He pointed the knife towards his chest. His body stiffened. He grinned , but in his eyes only sadness could be seen. He really wanted to stab himself. Right through the heart. Making an end to his life. But instead of what he wanted he let go of the knife, laying it down on the worktop just before he fell down on the ground. He started to sob.

Ludwig was sitting on a chair next to Lovino's bed. Lovino wasn't sleeping peacefully anymore, he was having a nightmare. Sweat was all over his face and he was breathing heavily. Ludwig was worried about him. He couldn't stand to see Lovino struggling this much. He couldn't stand the fact that Lovino blamed himself for everything that happened to Antonio. He wanted to help him. So he stayed by his side, till Lovino finally woke up.

The first chapter of this Fanfiction GermanyxS. Italy.
I know the love between those two didn't really got a big part. But I will try to put it more in the oncoming chapters.
Please tell me what you think.
I am btw not a native speaker, so there will be some stupid mistakes in this story.

Thanks for reading