My hands don't feel the same.

Now they are soft, like spun silk

No more creases, burns,

Muddy scratches have all but disappeared.

Just like you did.

Its been two years since

You have stood in the doorway, laughing

Like I did at injuries.

Now I madden under them, changed.

Like the leaves change on the trees

I am waiting for spring, stuck in forever

Winter

The wind howls over the hills,

swelling in its crags

All colour faded.

We used to shout at the cold wind

Daring it to rise up, smite us

Ignite our Smarting cheeks

Tears in each eye, we would

Roll in the wet, swaying green

I felt every sting and biting

Pain you suffered by my own blood

I cried for every silent tear you shed

Curled in my crib until the night died

How could I have ever abandoned my own

Just for a fancy, a folly of a life

Glimpsed at through gold woven drapes

At times I dream you are there, yelp when …..

Your not

I am sorry my Heathcliff, my hands

They have changed

I shall dirty them, until the milk white

Skin fades and you are replaced.

I wish I was a girl again, then I would

Have my old hands back……………