This one is especially for the amazing bookdiva - really, you should go check out her stories! - I hope I could live up to your espectation.
Again, thank you to Bamie02. I have no words for you!
This one will have a second part. Hope you like it!
Kensi had spent the last 48 hours at the hospital, not leaving Deeks' side. She wasn't going to leave him alone, she knows he would do the same thing for her. They both hated hospitals, but sadly enough they both already spend too much time there.
Even though Deeks is the one that took the bullets Kensi can barely remember a thing about what happened. It all happened so fast. When she saw Deeks hit the ground he was all she could think about, everything else became a blur.
"How could this happen?" She whispers to herself while she places her hand on top of his.
Seeing her partner like this puts things in perspective. It reminds her of the fact how short life actually is. It can all be over any minute, you have to try and live your life to the fullest. Don't be afraid to take risks, it is okay to mess up once in a while as long as you pick your head up and try to get past it. Every bad thing has a good side coming with it, even though it's hard to find it most of the time. When you look hard enough, you will find its value.
But she knows that's easier said than done. It's been a long time since she felt like this. There is nothing she can do, only wait and hoping for the best, not her best qualities. With Deeks lying in this bed, his life hanging on by a thread she felt like a part of her was taken away. He is her best friend, her rock and so much more. She knows she hasn't shown it enough lately but she isn't sure where they stand now. Being honest about her feelings isn't her best skill either but she was determined to let him know when he got out of here. After all this is over.
They have been playing this game for far too long. Everyone knows this is more than a partnership, more than a friendship. Hell, they know it all too well themselves, both to afraid to say the words.
Kensi gets called back to reality by a man who is watching through the window. She gets up, reaching for her gun but then she recognizes him.
"Ray?" She gets out in disbelieve.
Ray makes his way inside the room. Walking straight up to Kensi he collects a hug.
"Hello Wikipedia."
"Why .. What .. How did you find out?" Kensi struggles to get the words out.
"A certain Hetty called me. She told me Deeks was in the hospital and she thought I'd want to pay him a visit."
"Why?"
"I don't know." Ray responds, surprised by her choice of words.
"I mean .." Kensi goes on. "You have a new identity, a new life. Hetty doesn't contact someone in your position often. Actually…never."
"That's what she told me." Ray nods his head.
Kensi drops her eyes, looking back at her partner.
"But Deeks is the only one I have left from my past, my first life, if I can say it like that? He is like a brother to me, I think she figured I would want to know." Ray continues.
"You're probably right." Kensi answers, throwing him a smile.
The whole situation made her a bit anxious, it didn't exactly put her at ease. Hetty called Ray. She called Ray. Why did she do that? Didn't she have faith in the fact that he will get through this because he will. Dammit, he better. There are so many things left to be done, to be said.
"What happened?" Ray breaks Kensi's thoughts.
"To be honest, I am not sure. It's all blank. What I do know is that he took three bullets and they hit some vital parts. Surgery went well but they are keeping him in a coma for another two days so the wounds can heal properly."
Ray can see the tears that are coming up in Kensi's eyes. He can tell she is trying to fight them but she's having a hard time. He didn't spend much time with her but it was pretty clear that she doesn't open up easy, doesn't want to show her emotions.
"He will get through this, he's a fighter." Ray tries to comfort her.
"He sure is." Kensi laughs, getting back down in the chair next to the bed. Ray takes a seat on the other side of the bed.
She knows he is a real fighter, they will need more to get rid of Marty Deeks. He won't die, after all he made her a promise. – Promise me you won't do that. What's that? Get yourself killed. – The words suddenly popped up in her head. No way in hell she is putting his frozen body in her bedroom, why would he even say that? Seriously, it's creepy. His warm body on her couch, that's more like it.
Ray notices all too well how Kensi is looking at his best friend. He has known it from the very first second he saw them together.
"So, how are things between you guys? After all, I never got that phone call." Ray breaks the silence.
Kensi looks confused, meeting his gaze with narrowed eyes she answers. "What do you mean? What phone call?"
"I made him promise me to call me and let me know how your thing worked out."
"Our... Our thing?" A shiver goes down her spine hearing these words.
"Yes, it was pretty obvious to me."
"You actually talked about it with him?"
"He tried to deny it but really, it wasn't convincing at all. Besides, he had real sparkle in his eyes, never saw that before. I knew there was something there."
Kensi smiles, looking down at her hand on the edge of the bed. She places her hand on Deeks arm, moving her thumb back and forth. Meeting Ray's gaze she starts talking again.
"To be honest with you, I don't really know where we stand at the moment. We spend almost every second of the day together, even after work. We get jealous, we'll both deny it but we do whether we like it or not and he kissed me but we never talked about it after it .." Kensi closes her eyes, a single tear manages to escape in the corner of her eye.
A soft smile develops on her face before she continues. "He can be a real pain in the ass but he never fails to brighten up the day. He means so much to me, he… he really is my everything. I really wish I hadn't been such a coward and told him sooner but I am going to make sure he knows it when he gets out of here."
"Seems to me I wouldn't have been waiting much longer for that phone call."
Kensi looks at Deeks again, leaving out a sigh. She shakes her head, pushing her shoulders up.
"I don't know. I just hope he feels the same way, that I am not making more out of it."
"Kensi, listen .. I'll put my life on it that he feels the same way about you. I have never seen him that comfortable around anyone, he can be himself when he's with you and that tells so much. He always puts up a façade, but with you he doesn't."
"He doesn't have to, he's amazing." Kensi interrupts him.
"I know, but not everyone knows that. It became pretty clear to me though that you do know that and that you two have something special."
"We've been through so much together." Kensi tries to keep her emotions inside but she knows she's doing a terrible job.
"Which only made you come closer to one another."
Their partnership really has been an interesting journey; they got to know each other so well along the way. The bright and the dark sides, they know them all. She never opened up to anyone that much but she felt comfortable doing it to him, she trusts him with everything.
"I can't imagine my life without him. It's time to get it all out, time to try and figure this out." Kensi feels brave all of sudden. Yes Kensi, it's time. We are ready for this.
"I know you will. Whatever comes along, as long as you have each other you will get through it. Deeks taught me that." Ray answers, pointing his finger in Deeks' direction.
"Thank you." Kensi almost whispers.
"For what?"
"Having faith, in the both of us. And for being here."
"I'd move mountains for him, no thank you needed."
"He will be happy to see you." Kensi throws a smile to him.
Ray looks at his best friend, whishing he was awake and would have heard the conversation that just took place. Good things are waiting for him when he wakes up, an extraordinary woman is here for him and only the thought of it makes him happy. He will be okay, that's all he needed to know.
"He's a very lucky man."
"I consider myself the lucky one." Kensi answers, intertwining their hands, hoping he will be better soon.
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