I always thought I could trust him. I cared about him thought him my friend ,but I was wrong. Somewhere deep inside me I knew it was wrong that he was wrong. I just thought he could be the someone I could be with, that would care about me and keep my secret. That would try and help me ,but than I woke up and realized it was nothing but lies. He poisoned me. He played with me, my feelings, my very being. I told him everything how I was scared of what would happen if someone found out what I am. Of how I wanted to runaway ,because not even my family or anyone could understand. He wouldn't leave me alone he didn't understand how could he, he wasn't my kind. I was doing what was best for me I was and am doing what I can for my kind.
He asked me to give up to find another way but there is no other way this is my path and it just so happens he is on another. I feel broken Morgause tries to help me heal she's teaching me everything she can to make me stronger and bring down the executioner of our people. He believes every lie I tell him, why wouldn't he, he thinks I am just his loyal ward. He can't even except me as his blood. Oh but Merlin he can see through me he always could maybe not everything but he see's what is there.
When I came back from my horrible year with Morgause he had the decency to bring ME flowers. Like if that would make me forgive him. He poisoned me he forced me to drink. I just thought he was worried about me ,but no he was devious and planned to give me that horrid poison. While I was dying the traitor held me in his arms. While I was taking my last breaths I was in the arms of my killer. Merlin. I never thought he would be so could hearted, so evil as to kill me. He says he's loyal well he is loyal to the slayer of all magic. People think him so kind, so feeble, so right. But he is Wrong! Wrong. WRONG!
I wish... I really don't know what I'd wish for. For magic obviously but there's more. Uther dead. That is also one thing but no that's not it either. I would wish for a different path one where it wasn't just. Wasn't just destiny but our own choices a path were we choose what we want where we could change everything. And while I may not have that I will fight for that I will fight for my people, for my sister, and for myself. I may be walking right up to destiny but I am doing it my way and Merlin. Merlin, Uther, Arthur, Camelot are going to see whats to them.
So Merlin, my friend at first, my enemy now. A pain in my side and traitor to my kind. You started the game and now all you can do is play through and it won't be easy for either of us.