Howdy folks, me again!

Time for a new fic: Sira works for BTR and she falls for Kendall. But there are things that are holding her back. But not many.

Another fic for my friendly friend Deborah, hope you like!

DISCLAIMER: Still not owning BTR, because that wouldn't be good for the rest of the world, since I probably wouldn't share.

reviews are hugs and shitloads of free cookies!

rated T for Touching, but not yet... I think.

Chapter 1

"Let's say you found that perfect girl for you. Would they give you a nickname?" the interviewer asked the four guys.

"Hmm, would she have a nickname for you, Logie Bear?" James asked his friend jokingly. Logan looked at his friend, look unreadable.

"Really, James, really? You're going there?" James nodded eagerly, smile plastered on his face.

"Okay, thanks a lot, Jimmajam!" the other singer grinned as he revealed James' less than flattering nickname some fans had jokingly given him.

"Hey, not cool! No one's even said that!"

"K, if you want revenge, you can mention that they do actually call him that." Sira snickered in the small microphone in her hand. A few days earlier, James had called Kendall out in front of the fans, saying he'd farted before coming out of the room. The young woman was connected to Kendall's earpiece, able to tell him things.

"Oh they do, Jimmy. They call you that." He grinned widely, happily using the new nicknames Sira provided him with.

"Well okay, before I start a war, what nicknames would you give that girl?"

"I'd go with sweetheart, or sweetie. Seems nice." Carlos mentioned. Sira couldn't help but think what a nice person he really was. Carlos would do anything for a girl. If he loved, he loved with his whole being.

"How about you, Kendall?"
The singer seemed to be thinking, only to smile and say, quite shy;" I'd call her my pip-squeak." Sira's breath hitched in her throat and she was sure Kendall had heard it. Her thoughts being confirmed as Kendall smiled just that bit more widely. He gave a silly excuse about his height and then it was up to James and Logan, but Sira didn't hear any of it. Pip-Squeak. That name flew through her mind, over and over again. Because those words Kendall used when they did something without the band. It was his nickname for her, and knowing he'd call his perfect girl that, made her chest flutter. After the interview was over, and the guys came back out, Kendall acted really weird around her; he wouldn't look at her directly, and when they were in danger of being in a room alone, he'd make sure that Logan or Carlos or even James were with them.

"So… Pip-Squeak.." Sira muttered when she finally got him alone and the other guys couldn't hear their conversation. The blonde singer nodded.

"You do know why, right?"
Did she? Did she really know why he'd call his perfect girl by the same nickname he calls her?
Maybe he thinks it's catchy?
Yeah, maybe. Sira nodded, and a dreadful feeling came over her.

Sira had been friends with James for years, and when he heard she was looking for a summer job, he immediately started begging his bosses to hire her. Luckily for the young woman, they accepted the request, and now she was working with the famous band Big Time Rush. She was thrilled to be spending more time with her best friend, and she enjoyed the time they could spend together. But as she was hanging out with James, she got to know Logan and Carlos and Kendall. And it was that last person that had stolen her heart. Over time, she had discovered that she and Kendall had many things in common, and she was drawn to the green eyed singer. But just because of that fact, she had to stay away from him. She couldn't fall harder for him than she already had, even though his eyes and his laugh and his heart made that particularly difficult for her.

Days went by and the slightly awkward atmosphere between them never really left. Sira had taken up the habit of avoiding Kendall, even though that was the complete opposite of what she really wanted. She wanted to be with him so damn badly, but she simply couldn't.

The local dance came up, and although Sira didn't have a date for the evening, she was looking forward to it. James came to pick her up, looking dashing as ever.

"Your chariot awaits, madame." He joked as he offered her his arm.

"Why thank you, kind sir." She replied with a smile on her face. As he guided her to the venue, Sira still couldn't believe her luck. She was working with one of the biggest international boybands of the moment, being friends with the guys themselves. She was living a dream, and somehow it was too good to be true.

As she and James walked in, her eyes found Kendall, and as he saw the young woman enter the room, his smile widened and his eyes shone brightly. Instead of going to him, she walked to the side of the decorated room and took a seat. She sat through the first few dances, being not too quick on her feet. Sira took in her surroundings, admiring the room, that was decorated with an underwater theme. The guys danced with different girls, and Sira couldn't keep her eyes off of Kendall. His tall frame stood out in the crowd, as did his dark blonde hair and those green eyes that seemed to capture everything. Every so often he quirked an eyebrow when his dance partner said something funny.

"Oi, Sira, are you still on the planet?" James asked her as he had his hand outstretched in front of her.

"No, I've flown off to bring cookies to Pluto." She grinned ever so sweetly. During the last few weeks she had learnt how to defend herself from the wit they threw at her.

"Well come back and dance with me." He said. Sira accepted his hand and let herself be pulled onto the dance floor. In James' arms she seemed to be flying.

"I'm sorry in advance if I step on your feet."

"Apology accepted. Now tell me why you were staring at Kendall."

BAM! There it was, she was busted.

"I wasn't staring at him!" she tried to defend herself, but James' eyes grew wide, showing he didn't believe a word she said. Sira shook her dark haired head.

"Dude, it's me you're talking to." James lifted her chin so she had to look at him. A smile played around his lips.

"And you're still calling me dude."

"Girl, boy, dinosaur, everyone's dude to me. Now spill the beans. You like him don't you?" James was nothing if not direct. Like a bomb. Like boom and you're dead.

"Of course I like him, I like all of you," James was still staring her down.

"Why don't you tell him?" his voice was soft now, making sure no one would hear what they were talking about. Sira thought about the question. Why didn't she tell him? Because she was going back home in a few weeks, and then she probably wouldn't see him anymore, so even if she had the feelings she was feeling, there was nothing she could do about it once she got back home.

"Because… because I'm going back home soon." She whispered, trying to look down.

"But you like him?" damn he was annoying.

"Yeah, James. I like him. Happy now?" The singer nodded, happily, but he didn't let go of him.

"You have to talk to him, you know? You have to tell him how you feel so you can enjoy the time you have together. If you don't, you're always going to regret that decision, you'll always be wondering what if? And that's something you don't want, believe me."

"So yeah, you should talk to him." James said before pressing a light kiss to Sira's temple.

"I know." She whispered. A part of her knew he was right.

"Can I scoop in?" a familiar voice asked. Kendall was standing beside them, a look in his green eyes that Sira couldn't place. She nodded at James, who let go of her and immediately walked away, but not before raising both thumbs. For a second, Kendall simply stood there, just like Sira, both unaware of what the other one was feeling. It was him, however, who regained composure first and held out his left hand. Sira placed her right in it as his free arm snaked around her waist. There was still a certain distance between their bodies; just enough to keep comfortable, not enough for the world to see. For some reason Sira's emotions were fighting each other. She felt so damn comfortable in his arms, and yet she was afraid of what could happen if Kendall learnt she was falling for him.

"You've been avoiding me." He said, matter-of-factly and maintaining a smile on his face.

"No I haven't. Our schedules simply… overlapped."
He laughed out loud, and Sira couldn't help but join him.

"You're a terrible liar." He said later and she simply shook her head.

"No, I'm not. I'm actually a great liar, but for some reason I can't seem to not tell the truth to you. You are the only one I can't lie to." She explained and his green eyes grew bigger as his features softened. The smile on his face widened, only to disappear altogether only a few seconds later.

"How about James? I bet he can see through all of your lies." Again, the girl shook her head.

"No, he doesn't. He never does."
Silence fell between the two and they kept on dancing. Kendall raised both their hands to his chest, pulling her closer to him. Her entire body warmed under his touch.

"But the point still is that you have been avoiding me." They were so close at that moment that she couldn't look at him anymore, which probably was a good thing.

"Yeah, I have. But it's complicated."

"Is it?" he asked her, and his voice sounded hoarse as he spoke. Was it really complicated? Of was she making things harder than they should and could be?

"Is it because of James?" how he came to that conclusion, Sira didn't know.

"James? What does James have to do with all of this?"
Kendall scraped his throat and seemed to be stalling, buying more time.

"I saw him the other day, when he left your room in the morning."
Sira had to think back really hard as t-she tried to remember when James had crashed in her room…

"Oh, James and I were having a movie marathon, and we kinda fell asleep." She explained herself. For some reason she felt the need to make sure Kendall knew nothing was going on between her and James. Nothing at all, and he needed to know that.

But Sira didn't get the chance of saying much more; from outside a loud crash could be herd, and it didn't take long before a lot of the guests went outside to see what was happening, Sira and Kendall among them. As they got outside, they got to the site where two cars had crashed into each other. People froze as they saw the scene before them.
Sira soon breached free of her frozen state and ran towards the cars with Kendall right behind her.