Isabel
He's gone, I know that it's just on trip to Nice (In south France) with Ethan but I miss him so much. All I do at the moment is think about all the little things that I love about him; his smile, his eyes, the way he always puts my needs above his (especially now that I'm six and a half months pregnant and the stress of guard work means that I could go into labour at any time), how he fiddles with my engagement ring when he holds my hand and most of all his body next to mine when I fall asleep at night.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
I sit down on the couch turning the T.V. on to a random channel, the news. I sit for a while half listening to the reporter's dull voice. Somewhere in the distance a dog barks.
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
Something on the T.V. catches my attention, I tune into what the reporter is saying.
"… The floods hit the city of Nice at 3:30 this afternoon. One man (unidentified) and Two Women, Carol Klarkson and Jenny Adams were killed and 7 others injured." The news rolls onto the next story as I start to panic. We are always in danger; it's just part of our lives.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I grab my mobile of the table and dial Arkarian's number. The voice sounds out "The number you have dialled is no longer in service" my breathing starts to get out of control and I feel my heart rate go up. I know I need to calm down but I can't. My mind flicks though all of the reasons why his phone is suddenly out of service; all of them include water and most of them include him being injured or dead.
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
I drop to the floor, tears stream down my face; I am so preoccupied with my thoughts about Arkarian that I don't notice the trickle of water from between my legs until it's too late to stop it. A wave of excruciating pain passes though me, I scream both out loud and in my head, realising what's happened.
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
My scream brings my neighbour, Sally, into my house. She sees me lying on the floor with my arms wrapped around my lower stomach. She's a truthseer so I tell her though my thoughts to get Neriah.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I scream again, the pain is getting to a point were I don't know if I can cope anymore. I focus on trying to get my breathing back to normal. Neriah runs into the room,
"What happened?" she yells.
"The News, flash floods in Nice, one unidentified man dead and Arkarian's phone is out of service." She closes her eyes; I see the look on her face.
"I can't sense his thoughts, I'm sorry" I'm about to reply but another burst of pain flows though me. Neriah kneels down beside me, quickly getting me onto the sofa and changing me into an old nightgown. Hours meld into each other as I struggle to give birth to my child.
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah.
After 18 long pain filled hours, another small cry fills the room. Neriah places a very small bundle into my arms. I stare down at my son, smiling slightly but not much because I can tell that he can hardly breathe. I focus on him for a few minuets gently making his lungs develop to normal. He stops crying instantly.
My phone rings, Neriah passes it to me.
"Hello" I whisper so I don't wake my now sleeping baby.
"Hi baby, are you alright?" Arkarian's voice fills me with relief.
"I'm alright. Are You? I heard about the floods."
"I'm fine love, I wasn't in Nice when the floods hit, but I did drop my phone into the bath." I laugh. "Sorry, it sort of slipped"
"That's ok just get home quickly. I need you here now." My voice cracks and I sob.
"I'm coming. Bye Izzy" He hangs up appearing literally two seconds later in front of me.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
Arkarian moves towards me, but stops as soon as he sees the baby in my arms.
"Oh my god, Is he going to be alright." I nod.
"He's fine now. A bit small but fine." Arkarian sits next to me and pulls me to him.
"Have you thought of a name yet?" Neriah asks.
"Alex. Alex Lorian Becket."