We're Done
Summary: Because sometimes it hurts and she can't deal with it anymore.
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee.
All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around.
I've been giving out chances every time and all you do is let me down.
And it's taken me this long baby but I figured you out.
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around.- Taylor Swift, You're Not Sorry
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, ohh no no no
I know who everyone thinks I am. Rachel Berry. Diva, star, performer. I know what everyone thinks of me. Annoying, selfish, solo-hog. But that's not my fault. I've been pigeonholed. My first day at McKinley, Quinn slushied me. At the time I had no idea what was going on, but she had been marking me a loser. I didn't even get a chance.
So I built up Rachel Berry. My friends in New York would never recognize me as the same girl that I had been when I left. Rachel Berry is loud. Rachel Berry is confident. Rachel Berry will be a star someday. But me, the real me is not Rachel Berry. My dads are the only ones who still know Rach. Until he came along. Finn.
Finn was nice to me. And I fell fast and I fell hard. He called me Rach and for a moment I believed that I could be me. But then he left me for Quinn, which makes sense since she was supposedly carrying his baby. But still, my heart was shattered and I didn't allow myself to be me. It could only lead to heartbreak.
And then Baby-Gate happened. I was the last to know, naturally. Well, almost. Finn had literally been the last to know. I didn't know what to say to him. These people said they were his friends, yet they didn't tell him that his girlfriend's baby wasn't his. They were completely willing to make him live a lie. To make him give up his future for a kid that wasn't his own.
When we began dating, I was on cloud nine. He had picked me! And I was allowing myself to hope. But it was strange, because now Rach and Rachel Berry had somehow meshed and I was both. Which was fine, because I had Finn, but then he left me. For Satan and her clueless best friend. To find his 'inner Rock Star'. Whatever the fuck that meant.
I was hurt and my heart was shattered again. Until Jesse came, like a knight in shining armor. My foolish heart fell for him too. He was perfect. Caring, sweet and just plain lovely. And he was almost as dramatic and devoted to the arts as me. We were the perfect couple. He transferred to McKinley and the slushies stopped.
Finn wanted me back, but I was not so willing to take him back. Jesse and I really had a shot at being great and Finn was too immature for me anyways. Jesse cared. Jesse forgave me after Run, Joey, Run and he loved me.
But then Jesse left me too. And I was honestly shocked. Why? I hadn't done anything lately. Why? I later found out he had been playing me, the whole damn time. I really did want him to be eaten by a lion. A big lion.
We lost to Vocal Adrenaline, but that didn't even matter at the time because Finn had told me he loved me! I was back on cloud nine. I honestly can't believe how stupid and naïve I was.
We promised to never break up. And he already knew that my only request was honesty. No matter what.
And even when I told him I was still a virgin, he didn't tell me.
He slept with Satan.
He fucking slept with Santana Lopez, school slut.
I'm done with him.
I can't take the hurt anymore.
"But Rachel!" he whines.
"Finn, I told you that all I wanted was honesty. I can't be in a relationship where I can't trust the other person. I'm sorry, but we're done." Those were the hardest words I've ever had to say, but I needed to do it. For me.