Title: Human In All My Mistakes (I'd Throw It All Away To The Shadows of Regrets And You Would Have The Best of Me)
Author: freeiheitpisarz
Rating: R
Characters/Pairings: Jamie Reagan, Danny Reagan, Frank Reagan, Henry Reagan, Tony Renzulli, OMC. Jamie/OMC, Danny/Linda.
Genre: Angst/Hurt/Comfort
Warning: Mildly AU, coarse language, homophobic language, mild violence
Spoilers: Blanket spoilers for all seasons
Disclaimer: I do now own Blue Bloods, nor do I own The Goo Goo Dolls' 'Best of Me,' or Sum 41's 'Best of Me,' from which the title comes from.
Word Count: 1005
Author's Note: May possibly become Mpreg in late chapters
Summary: When Danny discovers a secret relationship between Jamie and another man; it slowly begins to tear the Reagan family apart. Relationships are tested when Danny is forced to protect his brother from his very own family and Jamie finds himself afraid of his own family.
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Light begins to shine through the windows and Jamie groans, wrapping his arm over his eyes to block the sunlight. There's a chuckle from nearby and Jamie gingerly peels his arm off to peer up at a smiling face hovering above him. When Jamie's gaze meets blue eyes he smiles back, before closing his eyes and attempting to roll over.
"Not so fast," Alex says, swooping down to kiss Jamie's cheek. "Time to get up, chick. I have grand plans for our day off."
"Sleeping?" Jamie mutters sleepily, trying without luck to ignore the wandering hands stroking his bare skin.
"Ha, not a chance chick," a finger pokes his bare stomach and Jamie groans again, before rolling back over to face his lover. "I love how you look in the mornings." Alex says, settling on Jamie's thighs, his legs on either side of Jamie.
Jamie hums in agreement, running his hands over Alex's bare sides before resting his hands on Alex's stomach. "So what have you got planned then?"
Alex merely grins at him and Jamie smiles back in return, feeling sated and content. Without another word, Alex leans down and presses his lips against Jamie's. It's slow, languid and Jamie makes a contented noise at the back of his throat. Alex's tongue licks Jamie's lips and Jamie opens his mouth to allow his lover entrance. As Alex's tongue begins its leisurely exploration of Jamie's mouth however, there's a faint noise in the background and the door bursts open.
"Come on, Jamie, rise and shine-"
Jamie reacts quickly, breaking off from Alex and pushing him backwards. Alex doesn't move off him however and Jamie finds himself staring around Alex at his brother. Danny reacts the fastest, striding across the room and pulling Alex off Jamie, and promptly punching him in the face.
"Danny!" Jamie yells, launching himself across to push Danny away. Danny's only reaction is to punch Jamie in the face also and Jamie hits the ground with a thump. He covers his nose and looks up at his brother with a wounded look.
"Get out," Danny growls at Alex. Alex protests for a moment, standing in front of Jamie. "I said GET OUT!"
Jamie stands and gingerly puts a hand on Alex's shoulder, silently prompting him to leave. Reluctantly, Alex disappears into the bathroom, retrieves his clothes and gets dressed. Alex sadly meets his gaze as he leaves, obviously not happy with leaving Jamie alone with his brother. After a moment's hesitation, Alex leaves.
The room is silent and tense for a moment, before Danny lashes out and kicks the bed. Jamie flinches back out of fear and Danny flashes him a guilty look before running a hand over his head.
"What the fuck Jamie?" Danny finally asks in a strangled voice. "Since when…" he hesitates. "Since when have you been a fag?"
Jamie flinches back again, his eyes prickling with tears at his brother's words. "Don't use that word," he says quietly after a moment, not looking back up at his brother. "Get out Danny." He adds quietly.
Danny seems to realise he's upset his brother, because he sighs. "I'm sorry Jamie," he says. "I just, I don't understand. I didn't even think or realise you were that way," Danny growls, almost to himself, before he sinks onto the bed. "Fuck." Danny curses to himself.
"Is this going to be an issue for you Danny?" Jamie asks, standing rigidly beside the bed. "Because-"
"Sit down Jamie," Danny says, patting the bed beside him. Hesitantly, Jamie sits beside him and Danny reaches out and squeezes his shoulder. "I'm sorry Jamie," he says, guilt and sorrow in his face. He reaches out gently and grips Jamie's chin, turning Jamie's head so he can see Jamie's face. He hisses at the damage he did, before squeezing Jamie's shoulder again. "Shit, I'm sorry Jamie."
"It's okay," Jamie says quietly. "It doesn't even hurt. You punch like a girl." He adds, ignoring the throbbing in his nose.
"Bullshit," Danny says, laughing, but he stops and studies his brother's face. Jamie knows Danny is watching him because of how subdued he is. But this is a large part of his life and it's something he's had to hide from his family for a long time, and to have it exposed like this is quite painful. "I'm sorry." Danny says again, before standing and leaving the room.
A moment later Danny returned, holding ice out for Jamie. Jamie thanked him quietly, holding the ice to his nose. "You didn't have to hit Alex though."
Danny winces. "Well, I didn't have to hit either of you. I shouldn't have hit you," he says. "But seeing you two like that," Danny gags. "No one ever wants to see some big dude on top of their little brother with their tongue down his throat."
"Well next time knock on the door."
"Oh I definitely will," Danny grimaces, before he falls silent for a moment. "So who is he?"
Jamie sighs, looking down. "His name is Alex," Jamie says quietly. "He's a nice guy Danny."
"I'm sure he is. Don't mean I'm not going to beat the shit out of him if he hurts you."
"He won't hurt me Danny," Jamie says, but he's happy his brother is protective of him once again. "He's a good guy. And he cares about me and he understands my career. I- I really care about him Danny."
"How long have you been together?"
"Five months." Jamie replies quietly.
"Five months?" Danny asks incredulously. "You've been dating him for five months? I want to meet this guy. Properly I mean. Somewhere where I can't punch him."
"Tomorrow," Jamie says. "Today I have plans with Alex and you aren't going to ruin it any further than you already have."
Danny winces. "Sorry Jamie," he stands. "I'll leave you to get ready for your date. I'm sorry Jamie." He adds again, squeezing Jamie's shoulder. They wave goodbye to each other, before Danny disappears, leaving Jamie alone in his apartment.