Koi Otome
(Love of a Young Lady)
Chapter 1- Sesshoumaru's decision
A fresh breeze came to Rin's cheek and a sudden shiver ran through her. She replaced her kimono on her shoulder correctly to stop the cold air. She was sitting on the grass and she was staring at the stars near Sesshoumaru. Sesshoumaru felt her shiver and came closer to her. He put his fur around her and they stayed there quietly. Rin had grown up since she was with her lord. She had now twenty and she was a beautiful woman. Everywhere she travelled with her lord, the men looked at her with hungry looks.
Sesshoumaru knew that people were looking at her and he was jealous, after all she was his. He had never accepted one of the many propositions he had for marring his young companion. Furthermore, she had never talk about being married or wanted to go away from him. Maybe she felt the same way he did. Maybe she loves him. Maybe… He stopped to think and watched at all the stars. Rin was much more beautiful than all these stars and even more attractive than the moon, Sesshoumaru thought. He looked to her and watched every details of her lovely face. She had lost her round and young cheek and now she had a thin face with the prettiest hazelnut eyes. He had lost control of him some days ago only by looking at them a little too long.
Her pure black hair was now long, soft and when it was under the sun it was shinning. She had let her pony tail when she had become a woman some years ago. He had sensed her changes and he had accepted her new scent. She had now a flower and cinnamon scent that aroused him all the time. He fought day and night to not cross her room and mate with her. But, he will not be able to live without her either. Without knowing that she was around, that she brought him some delicate flowers and took care of him, he cannot imagine this, he didn't want too. He will prefer to die than live without her now.
He found interesting that only one person can make some changes on another person. Time brought some mysteries and some happiness. He had never thought that he, the lord of the Western lands will ever resent a love so strong for a simple human. He had accepted each and every detail now, each weakness that she had done to him and he will never want to erase any transformation she had done to him.
He looked to her lips that were looking so juicy, so delectable, and so adorable but she turned her face to watch him with a big and handsome smile. How can he be able to stay cold with such a delightful smile? He tried his best to calm his youkai that only claimed to mate with her. He did a superhuman effort and he looked into her hazel eyes. He couldn't say if she had the same feelings than him but he knew that he had embarrassed her by his intense looking. He turned his head once more to the sky. How will he react if she refuses his love, if he finally asks her? Will she runs away, will she abandons him? Sesshoumaru felt the fate so cruel.
"Sesshoumaru-sama, I will go to sleep now" She said with her charming voice.
"This Sesshoumaru will accompany you" He coldly responded.
She nodded and he took his fur back and followed his lovely lady. Loving a woman, a human. Yes, he was like his father and knew the consequences. He had heard so much about his father's fate but now he understood that when you love, you truly want a person, you will do anything for her. He looked at her gracious body and felt a pain at his heart. Another day that he will let his woman free, free from his bed.
Rin had stopped and he almost walked into her. She stared at him again with her fascinating smile. He had almost smiled to her but he stayed there saying nothing. How dare he could not say a word to her? The great lord Sesshoumaru, the more self-confident person in Japan, unable to speak with this lady. But this lady was Rin, his Rin who troubles him so much. She perturbed his thoughts.
"Good night my lord" She said opening her door.
"Good night Rin" He whispered when she closed the door.
He had again failed to ask her. He heard her silk kimono touching her soft sheets. He felt a huge desire and he walked to his personal and secret bath that was somewhere in the castle. Rin had never found it but she had tried many times already. He entered into the big and hot room. He removed his clothes and slid into the hot water.
His personal bathers arrived shortly and in tip toe. They were three nice ladies that were under his orders since he was the new leader of the Western lands. Any of them were as lovely as Rin for him. They all had white hair and were dog demons. They had all wanted to be his mate but he had always refused their advances. Except that tonight he really wanted to mate. His youkai was too much hungry to not be satisfied.
The bather had finished washing his perfect and muscular body and they were ready to leave him. For the first time, he looked at the three women.
"Seimei, stay" He coldly order.
The other women got out of the hot spring and Seimei stood naked in front of her lord. She felt anxious but she thought she knew the reason he kept her here. Sesshoumaru stood up in the water and approached her. If only it was Rin, it will be a great satisfaction for him. He put his arms around Seimei's waist and he grabbed savagely her lips. His youkai had taken control of him and he was really hungry. His eyes had become red in a single second.
He kissed her viciously, he teased her with his tongue everywhere and she enjoyed every moments. He took her to his chamber and brought her to his bed. He was using her like a toy but Seimei was in Heaven, he was a God for her. She tried her best to respond at all his caress and his sexual desire but Sesshoumaru didn't care. He nibble her nipples and she groaned of pleasure and satisfaction. Finally he penetrated her and he was in a strange fury and was not delicate at all. Seimei changed drastically, after being in Heaven she was now in Hell. He was hurting her. He scratched her with his claws many times.
When his youkai was pleased enough, he stood up and went to the window. Without any look to Seimei, he knew that he had seriously injured her. Will it be the same thing with Rin? Will she be hurt that way too? He sadly thought. He was angry, angry to himself to be so rude. He cannot control his own youkai. Blood filled up the room. He was only a murderer, how can he be a lover? It was impossible for him. Love cannot be for everyone. Rin do not deserve the same treatment than his bather. She needed a real man, a nice and lovely husband. In any way, that was not Sesshoumaru who can brought this to her.
"Go bath, clean yourself, you are not wanted anymore." He said frizzing Seimei.
Seimei was only a servant, she knew that but now she was a simple toy but she had to obey. She stood up in pain and went to the hot water to clean herself and removed Sesshoumaru's scent. She will be scare of him for all the rest of her life now. She knew that he only care for himself.
Later, he heard Seimei disappearing into his huge castle. He had failed to stay in control and his anger was apparent. He took his sheets and put them in the water and entered also. He washed himself and tried to think at what he had done, but he only remembered that he asked Seimei to stay. If it will have been Rin, he probably had killed her. He looked at his hands. If only he was human, he could have been with Rin.
How Sesshoumaru can think of such a thing? He will have nothing to offer to her. Did he have more things now? But, she cannot be a demon and Sesshoumaru got out of the water angry again. How can his thoughts always were on Rin? He cannot do anything without thinking of her. He put his clothes back but let his armour there with his swords and decided to walk around the castle to find peace.
The moon was again in the sky and he wondered if Rin was sleeping. He walked near her room and stopped there when he saw Rin in the garden in front of her room. He was frozen there and in shocked. Seimei was with Rin! What the hell was she doing there? He hid beside the nearest tree and heard what they were saying in whisper.
"Who did this to you Seimei, you are seriously injured. Lord Sesshoumaru will kill the man or demon that did this to you. I promise." Rin said to comfort her and put some ointment to curse the young servant.
Sesshoumaru will kill his own servant if she denounced him. She will suffer with much more pain if she said one word to Rin. He waited for Seimei's answer but he only smelled her tears and heard her crying again and again.
"Say something Seimei, you scare me" Rin added.
But Seimei stayed silent. She knew that Sesshoumaru was near them and she will never denounce her lord to Rin because she knew that she would die instantly. But Rin wanted an answer and she cannot refuse to respond to the lady that Sesshoumaru cared like his own mate. Everyone knew in the castle that he loved her even if he didn't admit it but now she really had the proof by this terrible assault he had done to her. Why her anyway? They were three there earlier with him. Maybe she was the youngest and the closer to Rin.
"I don't want to involve our lord in this event, lady Rin" Seimei timidly said.
"But Seimei this is horrible, you have to take your revenge…"
"No, Rin, do it for me, don't tell anyone, even Sesshoumaru. I don't want that people know this sadly event. Please promise me." Seimei implored.
Rin nodded and put her arms around Seimei to bring her some peace even if it didn't help her in any way. Sesshoumaru was there astounded. He had ruin Seimei life only to feed the emptiness of a mate in his life. He was selfish and Rin believed that he could do something for the poor Seimei.
He will not kill himself, even Rin will not want him to die. Is that true? He questioned himself. If she knew the real truth, will she be able to pardon him? Sesshoumaru walked away of these two women and wanted to sleep to free his mind of everything. But he couldn't, he was stuck in the hard reality with an action he regret only for Rin's love. He walked out of the castle. Maybe he had to die to forget everything.
If he could have been able, he would have cry to let the emotions go away, but he cannot. He had to disappear, to let Rin alone and be able to decide her real desire. He walked deeper in the forest. Suddenly he turned himself in direction of his castle and stopped.
"I will see if my place is really here, if I really deserve my title, these lands and Rin's love. Only time can tell it. I let you my swords Rin, take good care of them." He said in a silent voice that the wind throw away, far from there.
Sesshoumaru turned and disappeared in the wood. He had left everything. Maybe he will not come back. He needed time to think about everything and far away from his Rin will be perfect.