Far away...yet close- Prologue

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know,

you know, you know

Countless thoughts, yearnings and memories gorge my brain. What am I to do with my vampire self? Zero hates me purely to the heart, Kaname left me to pursue his hidden, clueless "plan" and Kaien, my father is freaking out over my unconsciousness. Perhaps I am into a deep lumber of bloodlust. It's profound that I can't quench my thirst with beloved Kaname-sama's sweet blood. Why? I am in desperate need for blood and I'm heaving, wheezing and exasperating from thirst. I desire blood. I need Zero's blood. I just need... to make him spare some blood. For me. It's such a pittance that he hates me. He would never allow such a pitiful beast like myself, bite fangs into him. My tears burn, my heart aches, my whole world's gone into an unearthly hell. If only, Zero reciprocates my feelings. Undying feelings and despair for him. I've kept it embedded in my heart, hoping Kaname wouldn't pry into it with his manipulating powers. Why did I love Kaname-sama anyways? He left me to do something overly dangerous and put me down for it, even if it was commenced for ME. So why?

I was the human Yuki who was audacious, bold and kick butt. But to wreck my previous self, Kaname-sama awakened my pureblood vampire self and I supposedly 'ate' human Yuki. Zero was aware of this. Zero, Zero, Zero! He always comes to my mind. His luscious silver hair, soft stares at me and his potential turns me on. Including his pale, soft neck. Dang, this bloodlust has gotten to me. Surely, Zero would never let me TOUCH him.

-Flashback-

"You!" Zero spat out with a piercing, hateful glare.

"I-I Um, Zero?" I stumbled at my words.

"What?" He flinched.

"I just want to let y-you know that, um, I-I want to apologize." My heart nearly skipped a beat from fear.

"Oh, to apologize that you're sorry for being the gruesome, disgusting beast I truly hate!" Zero's face turned fearful.

"No! It's not that!" My eyes started to fill up with tears. Pathetic me. All I can do is sulk and cry now since I'm a vampire.

"I-I'm sorry I ever met you!" "Wait, no...I never wanted to leave you. I never wanted to get my memories back. All I ever wanted, was to be with you." That's it, my eyes were sprinkling. I knew the next line Zero was to say, would be "Don't you feel my pain? I am a vampire, we BOTH are threats to each other! Can't you see? It's destiny for you and that Kaname jerk to be in "love" and fate for you and me to detest each other." Zero was in pain, regret and jealousy. He spat out Kaname's name like he's some sort of nobody. I knew fate decided it. Zero-kun was jealous of Kaname for stealing my heart. He hates me. He yearns for me.

"He's not a jerk. And... I'm not in love with him." I sniffled.

"Then who do YOU love?" Zero glared at me. I heaved for a last time and spat out the answer.

"You, Zero. You." I teared up one last time. Zero was wide eyed but looked smug at the same time.

"Yuki..." He leaned in closer, locked his eyes within mine and placed his delicate hand on my damp face. Even though he had shown a pained expression still filling with hatred, I was still mesmerized by this nostalgic scent of Zero's. I was lost, gazing at him. Before I realized it, his beautiful pale lips pressed sweetly to mine. I felt the pain and tears dry up. But I knew, Zero would still kill me. If he had a chance.

"I love you and nevertheless, hate you." "Next time we meet, it's destined that I kill you." Zero declared.

"If that's the way it's proposed, I will run away from you, Zero." I sighed at the name Zero. I bid my adieu to you, my love...

-End of flashback-

I cry and shudder. I miss him dearly. I miss Kaname-sama. I desire blood! Now I'm running away from Zero; waiting for Kaname. I don't hate Zero. I don't plan to, ever. I am the one who prevented Zero for ending his pain by suicide. Thank you for stopping. It feels like, you and me are so far away... yet close.

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore