This is not what I pictured would be my first Fanfic but I guess it is. This was the only story that I had ready and checked, as the others are in progression or need to be brushed up. I wanted to publish my first fanfic on my birthday (March 4th)so here it is. In this story Meredith and Derek broke up not long ago and Alex and Izzie are her roomates so I guess this is based in Season 4. Constructive critism is welcomed and suggestions are in encouraged. Please make me aware of Grammatical, Punctual or Spelling errors Please R&R, Thank You. Title has been changed, Orginally "I Only Have You,".

Disclaimer:

I am in no way asscotiated, affiliated nor do I own ABC Studios, Grey's Anatomy or any of it's characters. This is a fanfic purely for entertainment purposes

There she sat slumped over in her barstool. Her arm streched in front of her clasping a shot glass ,brimming with tequila. She gulped down the substance, creating an almost instantaneous burning sensation as it made its way down her throat. She placed the glass next to 6 other neatly rowed shot glasses before requesting another.

"Look Grey, I tried to reason with on your sixth shot but an eighth? I don't think thats a good idea," Joe said in another attempt to convince her to go home "I can get someone to take you home and-" He tried once more before being interrupted .

" I didn't ask what you thought Joe just give me another damn shot!" She snapped.

" Whatever Grey," He sighed in defeat as he poured her another shot.

Meredith Grey, one of the many people who'd came from a dark and twisty path, resulting in a dark and twisty self. It had only a few days since she'd been off from Seattle Grace after a nervous breakdown and it only took her a few days to reflect back to her past and realise exactly how messed up her life was. Now here she was wallowing in self pity at Joe's bar, drowning her sorrows with shots of tequila but no matter how much she drank she new she couldn't drink the past away.

The bell rang as door to the bar was pushed open.

"Hey Joe," He greeted as he made his way to a stool.

"Good to see you Kerev, how've you been?" Joe inquired politely.

"Been better," He simply mumbled in reply."Can I get a beer" He said as he made himself comofortable in his seat. As he waited for his beer, he looked around the bar before noticing his colleague and friend on the last bar stool at the far end with her head faced down against the wood and hand holding an empty shot glass."Grey?" He said unsure if it was her or not but after recieving no answer he approched the woman and shook her shoulder "Meredith?".

"What is it?" She said tiredly in a slurred tone as she lifted her head to face him.

"How much have you drank?" He asked observing her obvious druken stupor.

"Why do you care Alex?" She hissed.

He noticed the other seven shot glasses. "Right that's it, we're going home Mere," he concluded before going over to Joe.

"Here's your beer," Joe said, handing Alex the glass.

"You let her have eight shots?" He asked in a choleric prominece supported by a glare

"Hey, I tried to tell her not to have so many," Joe replied, trying to justify himself.

"I'm taking her home ok," He sighed reaching into his pocket and pulling some money out before continuing "For the beer and her tequilas, bye Joe"

He said before chugging down his beer and heading back over to her. "Come on Grey," He said as he lifted her up and carried her to his car outside.

The rain continued to pour however after coming to terms with the fact that in Seattle it was always raining, many people came prepared with an umbrella or a raincoat. Meredith stared out the window from the passengers seat as Alex focused on the road trying to see past the rain. Even if it rained often in Seattle, Merdith knew she'd miss the rain if it where to just stop one her, the sound of rain gave off a sense of serenity and relaxation and when the rain trickled down her face it felt like it was washing away the pain.

The car ride was silent and short as he pulled up to her mother's house. Even if she'd been living here quiet sometime with Izzie and Alex and George before he moved out, she wasn't prepared to call it her own because of it bieng a constant reminding of her far from perfect past.

She stumbled inside as the door clicked open with Alex following closely behind. The house was dark and reasonably quiet ,excluding the sounds from the working pipes, indicating that Izzie would be working late.

"Come on," He said, reaching over for the light switch.

"Hm?"

"I'm taking you to your bed," He said as he held her hand and began to lead her upstairs.

"I'm not tired," She protested pulling her hand away.

"Fine, I'm gonna get some beer and watch TV,"His response to her actions before doing aforementioned.

She plopped down on the couch beside him before moving her head on to his lap and streching her legs out on the couch.

"Why have that many drinks?" He inquired without tearing his eyes from the screen showing highlights of today Seattle Mariners game.

"My crappy life caught up to me," She answered in return.

Upon hearing that he looked down to her with a confused expression.

"My nervous breakdown," Still seeing his confused expression, she elaborated "I'm broken,dark and twisty. I wouldn't be suprised if there's been a bet on how long it would take before I had a breakdown,"

Alex didn't really know what to say, he was still angry that she'd had that many drinks, but after reminding himself that she did have a crappy life he understood. After all his life wasn't all that peachy.

"Your mad at me for drinking 8 shots,"

"I'd have thought you'd be more drunk after drinking eight shots"

"Not the point, why do you care that I had so much?"

A few minutes of silence arose before Alex had said something

"People die from drinking to much, Grey"

"So what! maybe I was tired of the crap life was giving me!. When ever life hands me lemons it ultimately gets squished, that tiny piece of happiness that give me false hope for the future is shattered moments after . I'm tired of that it's not like anyone needs me here ,Kerev. So, So what!" She yelled, standing up from her position on his lap and the couch.

"Shut up!"He barked ,as he too stood up, causing her to fall closedmouthed."You think that people wouldn't miss you, what about your friends huh? Yang?What about me? Your the only person who knows where I come from. You understand me!"He shouted

"A-Alex, I'm-" She started befor he interupted

"You know what just save it,"He began to leave but was stopped by the grip on his arm

"Wait!" She said, turning him to face her. With that the silence grew again as they gazed into each others eyes and before they knew it their lips crashed together.

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You can slap me...I deserve it for not uploading in...I don't know but that proves I've been gone for a while. I'm not going to give you some Lame excuse as to where I was all I'll say is I was really, very busy and I know that's a lame excuse but it's also true. I had most chapters ready but my laptop decide to delete them (not helping busy me)-_- and I wrote those Chapters last year so...I don't remember how this story goes but I have a vague recollection of it in my mind so I'll get to writing by Friday. I know that's also long but I don't think I have time to do it on the three days proir, (To Do list is full but I have time on Friday, I'll make time on Friday). Yes you can slap me again, I know you want to.