All That I've Got Chapter 1: All That I've Got, a degrassi fanfic

"All That I've Got"

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I…

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Un-harmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I sqouze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I…

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got!

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got

By: The Used

Craig Manning looked down at her house. She wasn't there of course. She was in England having the time of her life while he just sat there waiting. Waiting for her to come back but he already knew she wasn't coming back. She didn't miss him like he missed her so she's staying in England with her boyfriend while Craig, her supposed boyfriend sits there and wishes she would come back.

That was two years ago. Ashley never came back and Craig let her go. He didn't forget her though. She was his every thought. Craig walked into the subway notepad in hand trying to think of a song. He lived in England now. He was a musician and was working on his first album.

Craig scribbled a few things on his notebook and then crossed them out. He was having major writers block lately. He held on to the bar as the subway made one more stop. That's when he saw her. She looked good and gorgeous. Her brown hair was past her shoulders and she still had that look about her. That look that she didn't believe in herself even though she was a great person.

She looked over at Craig and he could tell she knew who he was. She smiled at him and he smiled back. "Ash." Repeated back in his head. He wanted to say it but he was afraid. He was always afraid after that day she left to England.

The subway stopped at Craig's stop so he got out. He took one last look at her and smiled. She ran really quickly out of the subway. Craig waited. "Is this your stop?" he asked. She shook her head and smiled. "Craig." She said quietly. "Ash." He replied back to her. "How are you?" she asked. "I'm good. I'm working on my first album." He said. "How about you?" he asked.

Ashley looked down at the ground. "I work at Music Mania." She said. "That's how I'm paying for collage." Craig looked at her. "How?" He asked. Ashley had always been one to have money. How come she didn't have any now?

"My mom cut me off when I said I wasn't coming back and I got in a fight with my dad a year back so we don't talk anymore." She answered.

"What? Any time I read those e-mails you sent Ellie you seemed like you were happily ever after with Alistair." Craig said trying to restrain his anger as he said this.

"I know. Ali and I broke up and he took all my money." She said looking back down at the ground.

"He what? That bastard! I'll kill him!" Craig said his anger showing clearly now. How could that guy do something like that?

"Don't Craig. He's gone now. I'm doing okay. I'm going to be okay." She said quietly trying to reassure herself as well.

"You're coming with me." Craig said grabbing her hand. He was going to take her to his place. She looked cold so he took of his leather jacket and put it around her arms. She held on to it tightly.

"Where are we going, Craig?" She asked looking around at all of the buildings. They were huge apartments and hotels.

"To my place. Now come on." Craig led her to the apartment building and before they could get in they saw a flash. A photographer took their picture. To give the person something good Craig swooped in and kissed Ashley gently on the mouth. He was going to pull away but she kept him their. They kissed harder and harder by the minute and Craig had pulled Ashley close and she had her arms around his neck. Craig gave her one more kiss and then took her hand and led her to his apartment.

Their picture was going to be in the next magazine he was sure. He didn't care though. Once Ashley stepped through the door Craig grabbed her in his embrace. They didn't even exchange many words but it just felt right.

Craig was kissing Ashley gently at first and then he started going harder. He pulled her close again and their bodies melted together. Craig sat down on the bed and pulled Ashley underneath them. Craig put his hand underneath her shirt and she let it roam freely. Craig unhooked her bra and pulled his hand out of her shirt.

He looked at her and she nodded to let him know it was okay. She wanted to do this. She felt right for the first time. This was where she wanted to be, in his arms. He kissed her again on the mouth and started unbuttoning her shirt. Once all the buttons were unbuttoned Craig kissed every free patch of skin he could find. Finally, he gently took her bra off. Craig kissed her gently on her lips again and whispered, "I love you." In her ear. Ashley looked up at Craig and whispered back, "I love you too."

Even though they had only just reunited she was sure she loved him. He was Craig. Her Craig.

Craig gently started unbuttoning her pants and pulling them down. She stopped him and pulled of his t-shirt first and she then pulled his pants off completely. Craig tugged on her pants once more and then they fell down.

Ashley pulled off the remaining clothing on Craig's body and he did the same for her. There they were. Completely naked and ready for anything that was going to be thrown at them after tonight. Craig let his hands explore ever inch of her skin. No part was left untouched. Ashley let her hands roam freely to, reuniting them selves often.

Then it was time. They both realized it and Craig pulled the condom out of his top drawer. He put one hand under the covers and then the next to help. Once everything was on and going smoothly Craig plunged himself gently inside her. There, they were connected again.

Ashley gently rested her head on Craig's chest. He smiled and started stroking her hair. "Craig, why did you take me here? Did you expect something?" Ashley asked. Craig shook his head quickly. "No, no. I was going to bring you here and offer you a place. I have an extra bedroom and a bathroom and you'd be better here then at some collage dorm where to many guys hit on you." Craig said and it was true to. He didn't want collage guys hitting on Ashley. He wanted her all to himself.

"Are you sure, Craig?" She asked looking up at him and seeing in his eyes. How she loved him so.

"Yes I'm sure. I want you here. With me." Craig wanted her to say yes so much. He didn't care what his record company had to say even though he had a feeling they wouldn't be happy.

"Okay, Craig. I'll move in but I'm going to have hell getting to work each day." Ashley said not wanting to image what would happen.

"No, you won't. You can use my car. I won't need it." Craig said meaning he will be in the studio so much.

"Craig, you can't give me everything." Ashley said.

"I'm not. You still have to pay for collage." Craig said wishing he could pay collage for her but he couldn't.

"Yea, that's true." Ashley said snapping back into reality. "Look Craig, I have to go home and pack and do some stuff. Change my address, my mail, everything. I'll see you later." Then she went and found her clothes. She got dressed before Craig could say anything.

When Ashley left Craig wondered what happened. Maybe it was what he said about collage? He asked himself. He shrugged it off and got dressed. He then headed to the studio. His manager didn't look happy.

"What the hell is this?" His manager asked flinging the magazine in Craig's face.

"A magazine." Craig answered sarcastically but soon regretting it because his manager was not a very happy lady when it came to sarcasm.

"I know it's a goddamn magazine. Look at the picture!" Craig looked at the picture and sure enough it was Craig and Ashley kissing.

"That's my girlfriend, Ashley." Craig said liking the sound of girlfriend and Ashley in the same sentence.

"Why didn't you tell me?" his manager asked putting the magazine back on the coffee table.

"We just got together today." Craig said smoothly.

"Oh. Okay. Sorry then. Didn't mean to blow my top." She said in her thick British accent. Sure you didn't. Craig thought to himself.

Craig walked into the recording booth and started recording one of his songs called "Sincerely Sorry." He recorded it smoothly not messing up on a word. It was quite good if he did say so himself. He liked how it was about messing up, bad and saying sorry but still not being forgiven. He had, had that happen in the tenth grade and it wasn't very fun.

At seven when Craig walked out of the studio Ashley was waiting for him. "Hey," he said and then he kissed her. "I missed you, a lot." He said kissing her one more time. "Craig, I have something to tell you." Ashley said afraid of what would happen to their relationship after she told him this. "What? What is it?" Craig asked anxiously.

A/N that's the first chapter. A bit of a cliffhanger. I hope you all like it. Please read and review. I will be posting several stories in the future, I hope. That's all for now. A new chapter will be up soon.