Title:SorryRating: PG

Pairings: Jack/Gwen implied

Spoilers: Leaving off from Meat

Summary: Tosh talks to Jack about what she saw in his eyes when Gwen left

Disclaimer: None of the character belong to me but to the BBC to bad .

Tosh watched Jack as she was sure the other team members did as well out of the corners of their eyes. He just sat in his office hunched over, elbows on the table downing shots of whiskey like it was running out. Owen seemed to ignore it even though his frown showed concern for their boss. Ianto going about his business was keeping busy she noted as he kept trying to calibrate readings off a CCTV camera that usually take a couple of seconds he was taking minutes to do.

She was surprised when Gwen returned quickly after leaving with Rhys not expecting her till the next day. The she started going on about not giving her man the Retcon to make him forget the days events as was the rules. She knew it was harsh thing to do, that Rhys was brave and came thru at the end for them. Yet the rules were there and she knew Jack never budged on them. Gwen insistent on him keeping his memories even if she had to quit and have her own memories erased to make a point. That caught Tosh off guard because she figured Gwen to be the last person to give up Torchwood she seemed to love it more so than any of them but the connection in her personal life was to strong to let go.

Then what she expected Jack came over all strong and superior showing anger in his his steps getting closer to her. Face to face Tosh could see the defiance in Gwen's eyes and posture daring him to make her decide. She could see this woman was not going to back down. When Jack asked if she would really forget about the job he knew she couldn't but by his surprise he didn't expect her answer. His comeback that he would know the difference without her there caught them both off guard. Then Gwens eyes changed from defiant to pleading with Jack to let her have this one thing. Jack gave in, she couldn't believe it. Unmoving, hard as a rock Jack caved into her wants.

When she turned to run back out to her fiance she didn't look back and didn't see his face as it fell into heartache. Yet Tosh saw it even when he looked up at her with tears just nearing to break lose she noticed the pain of letting her go out the door written all over his eyes. She noticed it was the same as when he left the other Jack from the past to his death. He quickly went back to his office turned on his CCTV to the camera just outside their place to watch the couple go off. Tosh knew in that moment that Jack loved Gwen, not his usual like and flirt act that he does to everyone. No this was deeper and something more meaningful to him.

So building up her courage she went to his office standing in the doorway waiting for him to say something first. He didn't say a word just took another shot of the brown liquid in his glass. So she broke the silence. "I'm sorry Jack." "Sorry for what Tosh?" he asked obviously playing ignorant. "Sorry that your hurting, sorry that you have to go thru this alone, sorry she didn't pick you, sorry for everything you've been thru in your entire life." Tosh said going further into his office to sit on his desk right by him. Shrugging he twisted the glass in his hands, "Well I got this place I don't need anything else." Shaking her head Tosh placed her hand over his tightening her grip on them.

He looked up at her with so much hurt it broke her heart just to see it. Wrapping her arms around his shoulders she hugged him to her rocking him. "Don't worry Jack she'll choose you in the end believe me." He embraced her back needing the comfort as asked, "How do you know that?" Smiling she pulled back and told him how, "I saw her just as well as I saw you and even though she was pleading for Rhys she was hurt between choosing him over you. I have seen her with you and you two are so right even more so then what she has now. Just give it time Jack like you said the 21st century is when it all changes and you've got to be ready for it." That put a smile on his face as he laughed with her giving him renewd hope.