She's still staring at the two suns when reality comes crashing down on her. She detangles herself from Bellamy in whose embrace she had somehow ended up in.
"We need a game plan." She breathes out. Resolutely not looking at Bellamy instead looking at Jordan.
Gods! Jordan! He's this child that's almost their age. But someone who is a kid of one of their closest friends, friends who have left him in hers and Bellamy's care. She wasn't stupid, she understood what the instructions implied, she had been named the godmother to this combination of two of the people she loved the most in the world.
"Okay kid. How long you've been up?" Clarke asks, her voice taking up the motherly tone that she had somehow learned over the years looking after Madi.
Jordan looks down abashed, "A day and a half." he continues hurriedly as if afraid that they'll be mad at him, "I know that dad said that I had to wake both of you up instantly, but I really needed some time to you know… process." He looses steam by the last word, looking at his shoes toeing the ground.
Clarke wants to let tears escape but she holds them back, this guy went to bed and woke up having lost his parents, this wasn't the time for her to cry.
So putting on her bravest face she approaches him with the same hesitance she held whenever approaching an frightened Madi, "Hey, no need to feel guilty. You were putting on your brave face, you get that from your mother she used to have this routine whenever we had to go for rounds - she'll stand still, the gun on the ground, her eyes closed take two deep breaths and then boom she'll be ready, she'll pick up the gun go to her post and face whatever challenges the day had for her."
Jordan looks up at her with wonder in his eyes, "She never told me about that story."
Clarke cracks a smile, "No, she wouldn't have, I'm guessing she never told you how much of a better shot she was than your father?"
Jordan finally lets out a laugh his face brightening up instantly, "No, she actually said that a lot. Used to tease dad about it non stop. And dad would always tease her back saying she still wasn't as good as you or Bellamy."
At the mention of his name Clarke finally risks a glance at Bellamy, he is watching the two of them with intense concentration. She wishes she could still read him as well as she used to before Praimfaya came and chipped their bond, but she can't, she can't recognize the emotions in his eyes as he stares at her consoling the kid of two of the people he considered family.
When he doesn't volunteer any words Clarke continues with the agenda. Looking at Jordan who seems rejuvenated, she asks, "Did the override codes for the cyrosleep pods change or are they the same?"
Jordan replies enthusiastically, "Oh! They are the same. Who all are you waking up first, I wanna meet everyone."
She gives him a tight lipped smile before turning to face Bellamy peering into his eyes she tries to convey her urgency, "So me and Bellamy need to talk, why don't you look around, see if you can find the decrypted Eligus III files."
Jordan tries imperceptibly flit his eyes between her and Bellamy, deciding on something he gives her a nod and turns and marches over to the control panel and starts typing away.
Turning to Bellamy she gestures with her head pointing in the direction of the cyro chamber, motioning him to follow her.
She turns and starts walking in that direction, hearing footsteps follow her. Once they are out of Jordan's hearing range she places a hand on Bellamy's arm stopping them both so they are standing in a corridor. "Who all do you think we should wake up first? "
Bellamy replies instantly probably having started thinking about it the moment Jordan mentioned it, "All the people from the Ring. They deserve to be the first to know about Monty and Harper."
Clarke nods, "Miller too. However things turned out he was friends with both Monty and Harper. Especially after everything they went through together in Mt. Weather he deserves a chance to say goodbye too."
Bellamy is silent for a moment his mouth in a hard frown but he nods his head anyway.
"We need to wake up Madi too. There are decisions to be made."
Anger shoots up Clarke's spine, sounds of clanking chains and pleas for help fill her ears, but she squashes it down. She sighs placing her hand over her closed eyes, "Yeah. I know. I'll do it. Also Indra and Diyoza."
At Bellamy's startled look she explains, "If decisions are to be made we need someone who represents every faction. And even though Madi has the Flame, Indra is the one who knows Wonkru."
'Except Octavia' remains unspoken, neither of them are ready to face her yet.
Bellamy nods and starts to walk towards the cyro chamber, Clarke stops him again by clutching his wrist. When he turns to look back at her question in his eyes, she mumbles out, "Can you handle waking up your friends. I'll handle Madi, Miller, Indra and Diyoza."
He seems like he wants to argue, say something like they're your friends too but he holds himself back, a solemn expression on his face he turns and walks towards the chamber.
Clarke holds back a sob, what did she expect? For him to console her? Tell her a lie? Tell her that she hadn't fucked up all her relationships?
'Raven Echo Murphy Emori they're my family.' Echoes in her mind. She hushes the voice whispering the words over and over again in her mind.
So she steels herself and follows. Catching up with him in a few strides.
She's the first one through the door. She goes straight for Madi's pod her fingers skate over the letters MADI GRIFFIN before she enters the override codes into the monitor.
The pod hisses and starts moving outwards.
She lays eyes on her sleeping face before Madi's eyes fly open, the first thing she sees is her mother smiling down at her. Madi breaks out her biggest smile, moving with difficulty at first and ease eventually she throws her arms around Clarke as she sits up.
Clarke lets out a laugh, her first genuine one in 125 years.
"Shap da strik natblida. Did you dream?"
Madi still smiling her huge smile shakes her head no.
"Well I did, and you were there, we were lying under the stars."
"Liar." Madi accuses.
"Caught me." Clarke laughs. But she sobers up quickly, "We need you on the bridge okay. There's a lot to discuss."
Madi nods solemnly the child gone the Commander in her place. Again anger courses through Clarke's veins but she gets a handle on it.
With a pat on her back she urges Madi to dismount as she turns to look for Miller's pod. She finds Bellamy and Raven staring at her she turns away before she starts analysing the expression on their faces.
Locating Miller's pod she goes to open it up, gives him a one line instruction to stay quiet and move towards the bridge.
Then she stares at Octavia's pod and her earlier reasoning for waking up Miller comes back to her. Sighing she goes up to Bellamy who is working on waking up Echo and whispers so the waiting Raven and Miller won't hear.
"We need to wake up Octavia too. Monty was close to her, once."
Bellamy looks like he's struggling with himself but finally with resignation he says, "I'll wake her up."
Clarke nods and goes over to Indra's pod. She tries not to listen in when Octavia wakes up but she always was a curious person.
"Big Brother." Octavia breathes out.
And then, "Why isn't everyone up?"
Bellamy's gruff voice replies, it is clear he is trying to hold his emotions at bay, "I'll explain later. Just get to the bridge."
Clarke refocuses on Indra who like her had an ear out for the Blake sibling reunion.
Nodding at her she moves on to Diyoza.
"Hello fellow mother. Didn't expect it to be your pretty face I would wake up to."
Her lips, the traitors, twitch into something of a smile, "You're being allowed at the big adult table don't blow your chance."
She gives a hand to help her up as one of her hands is busy clutching at her belly.
When she turns to face the people assembled in the narrow passage of the chamber, she notices Shaw standing there too, probably Raven had convinced Bellamy to wake him. She meets Bellamy's eyes as they both share a sad look and start herding people towards the bridge. Clarke moves up to walk beside Madi who puts her hand in hers.
Before they reach the bridge she shares another glance with Bellamy, who clears his throat before speaking, "There were some complications with our plan."
"What's new." Murphy mutters.
Bellamy continues as if there had been no interruption, "We've been asleep for a 125 years." He pauses to let that sink in but before anyone can make any exclamations he ploughs on, "and there is someone we'll like you to meet."
Jordan appears instantly as if he had been waiting for his cue, "Hi, I am Jordan. Monty and Harper's kid. It's so nice to finally meet you all."
There are a lot of reactions from the people of the Ring and a lot of confusion in others. But everyone seems to be coming to the same realizations Clarke and Bellamy had when Jordan introduced himself to them.
Before chaos can ensue Clarke makes her way to the bridge prompting people to follow her.
Leaning towards Jordan she mutters in his ear, "You're a fast learner kid."
Jordan gives her a happy smile. But it quickly changes to an apprehensive one.
When everyone is assembled Clarke plays the video log allowing Bellamy to stand with his family for support.
Everyone is silent as they watch the logs, finally breaking out in tears when they see the new planet.
After Monty's messages are done there's a ringing silence, as everyone stares at Jordan.
It's Madi who finally breaks the stalemate, moving up to Jordan she thrusts out her hand for him to shake. When he tentatively does so she states with an air of importance, "I'm your older sister, if anyone troubles you, you come to me. Clarke always did say that when Monty and Harper had their kid I would have to step up and be the older sister and look after my sibling."
That seems to break the ice, as everyone converges onto Jordan putting their grief aside to console this kid who was now their responsibility. Murphy is loudly chortling and teasing everyone by reminding them that he's the kid's favorite.
Only Octavia and Miller don't join in, standing uncomfortably besides Indra and Diyoza.
Bellamy catches her eye and they decide to let them have this moment, and then they tackle the next challenge.