Chapter 1

Sam:Hey Dean look at all the fags it must be queer night.

Little did Sam know that those few words hurt his big brother Dean. Dean began to think "If only Sam knew that me his big brother is the very thing he mocks, how would he feel would he accept me no of course he wouldn't, he'd freak out snap do something crazy after all I'm the only gay winchester".

As Dean was thinking so was Sam "I feel horrible about making gay jocks but it's the only way to keep him from learning the truth, that his little brother is a queer and to my knowledge the only winchester to ever be gay".

the silence had grown

Dean: Shut up dude cause your gayer then anyone here.
Sam: Please your the one who picked this place I'd rather be in a strip club watching some hot chick take off her clothes.
Dean: What do you know about chicks other than how to be one.
Sam: At least I don't go to gay bars to check out guys.
Dean: Hey it's not my fault that your a big flamer.
Sam: Fuck you! I'm leaving.

Sam very angry left the bar. Dean feeling guilt about the things he'd said bought a bottle of vodka and left.

Sam had caught a ride back to the motel from someone staying a few doors down form him and Dean. Sam raised his strong muscular arms to take off his shirt, Then he UN- buttoned his pants slid them down his tight firm ass to reveal skin taught black boxers. Sam then lay down on his bed and slowly drifted to sleep. Thinking of Dean and everything else in his life.

Dean drove back to the motel think how Sam would react if he knew the truth about him. By the time Dean got back to the motel Sam was all ready asleep. When Dean walked in he talk off his cloths and climbed in his bed. Dean lay there watching Sam sleep he couldn't help but think of what it would be like if he and Sam where to make love how amazing it would feel to touch Sam's hard stiff cock or is tight round firm ass.

Dean finished jerking him self off to his thoughts of Sam's Hugh dick. After that dean slowly drifted to sleep thinking of his longing to kiss Sam.

The next morning Sam woke up to find his brother had went and picked up some breakfast and coffee.

Dean: Hey Sammy your finely a wake' here's some coffee and chocolate chip pancakes with extra bacon' so get up and eat it before it gets cold.
Sam: Dean you can't get me to forgive you with pancakes and coffee.
Dean: listen we both said some stuff last night that we didn't mean so lets just forget it.

Dean tough to himself why did i just say that i could have told him.
Sam was thinking " maybe i should tell him why i got so upset why he made me so angry".

Sam: I guess your right we should just forget it.

Dean was thinking " why did Sam have to say that? why was he so forgiving"?

Sam: I'm gonna take a quick show and then we can go. Is that ok with you dean.
Dean ya that's fine' but what about you food?
Sam: Not hungry you can have it.

Sam got up and went into that bathroom. dean started to pack up his and Sam's stuff when he noticed Sam's laptop was on. dean flipped it up to discover sam had a new email dean couldn't help him self so he opened it and read it. dean was in shock because the email was about a new membership to a gay porn site that dean was a new member to. At that moment dean didn't know what to do he feared that his brother had discovered his secret.

just then the bathroom door opened and dean closed the laptop but Sam noticed that dean had been on it he quickly grow afraid that dean knew the truth about him.

Dean: you ready to get going?
Sam: ya. what about you?
Dean: ya every thing's packed. I'll go put it in the car while you get dressed.
Sam: ok.

Sam got dressed while dean started the car. By the time the car was ready so was Sam. Sam got in the car with dean and drove off.

Sam: we need to talk about something that's been on my mind for a while. Something that I've know about for a while.

Dean's panic grow so did Sam's when he saw the reaction on his brothers face now Sam wasn't sure what to say. Dean was to shocked and nervous to say anything.

Sam finally managed to say something after a few minutes of silence.

Sam: Dean I know that you know that I'm into guys.

Deans face was getting reder.

Dean: you know Sammy I can take you finding out that I'm a queer, I can take all that gay jokes but the one thing I can't take is you mocking me by pretending to be gay.

Sam's face looked shocked and pissed off.

Sam: your an ass whole here I am trying to be honest and tell you the truth and you pull some stupid stunt by saying your gay and acting all a fended by my coming out which you clam is the stunt! Dean I'm Gay and I'm not joking.

Dean: Why are you doing this Sam? why? it's hard enough for me being gay but to have you mock me like this, I I I just can't take it.

Sam looked so shocked because Dean was crying. It was at that moment that Sam knew Dean wasn't lying.

Sam: So your gay?
Dean: yes Sammy don't look so shocked That's why you started this whole conversation.
Sam: Dean I didn't know that you were gay and I wasn't kidding I'm gay and it's not a joke it's the truth.

Dean looked into his brothers eyes and knew that he was series.

Dean: so were both gay?
Sam: guess so.
Dean: at least now we have something better to talk about then big breast sluts.

Sam started laughing and hitting his brothers thigh before he knew it his hand was sliding up his brothers thigh.
Sam quickly realized that his hand wasn't sliding up his brothers thigh it was just his imagination.

Dean: so when did you know that you were gay?
Sam: I guess when I was 13. and you?
Dean: I knew when I was about 11. how did you realize that you were gay?
Sam: when I saw that really hot hunter that had those intense blue eye's and thought to my self I want him to fuck me.
Dean: I realized when I got jealousy that the school slut was dating that hot quarterback.
Sam: I remember him he was hot. who was your first?
Dean: that hunter that turned you on. We just slayed a whole nest of vampires and then we fucked. what about you?
Sam: some guy that I meet at college.
Dean: how many guys have you been with?
Sam: I think 8 or 9.
Dean: that's a small amount
Sam: Why how many have you?
Dean: I lost count. So why did you ever tell me that your gay?
Sam: I guess I was afraid that you would hate me.
Dean: what your my brother and I will always love you.
Sam: well why didn't you ever tell me.
Dean: I thought that I would disappoint you and then there's always those gay joke you make.
Sam: I always make gay jokes so that you don't know that I'm gay and your always calling me a queer, or a girl.
Dean: ya that was so you wouldn't find out that I'm gay.
Sam: so are we ok know?
Dean: ya i guess were cool.

Sam gave Dean that little laugh smile thing that he always dose. Dean knew at that moment that he had to make a move. That he need to show Sam how he really feels.

Dean thought " it's now or never I need to make a move, oh how I want to kiss those tender lips of his".

Sam was also deep in thought " I wish Dean would just kiss me passionately and sexually".

Dean slowly stopped that car and leaned over and slowly pressed his lips on Sam's kissing him with all the passion he'd been keeping to him self for years.