AUTHOR: Goddess Isa
EMAIL: goddessisa@aol.com
SUMMARY: You tell me g Someone is hiding from everything that will bring him comfort.
SPOILER: Graduation Day
DISTRIBUTION: Sure, just email me & lmk where it's going - I like seeing my name in print =)
FEEDBACK: Please, I'd hate to have to Slay for it. =P
RATING: TV-14
DISCLAIMER: I don't own these characters, Joss Whedon does. If he ever decides to give them to me, that would be nice. =)
I'm hiding out.
I know it and she knows it and I'd be willing to bet good money that Giles knows it. You get nothing past Giles. I think he likes it that way.
The hiding is helping me. It's like, I've got this shadow hanging over me.
Sunnydale.
I can't get away, no matter how hard I try. I was here the night the girls torched the mansion. That was interesting. So much happened in that building, and it's all ash now.
Buffy used to say she could feel me when I was near her. I was near the night the mansion went down, but I don't think she knew it. I was only yards away from her the night Xander almost died. I was watching from the upper level of the Bronze when Xander kissed her. That was also the night she gave him a black eye, so it wasn't all bad.
I can't help wondering if she knows I'm here, why doesn't she find me?
Is it because she's punishing me? Her trying to give me what I want?
Does she not love me anymore? I've never seen her with anyone else. She's always hanging out with Willow and Xander or Cordelia and Oz, never on a date of her own.
I miss her. Her kisses, her arms, her lips, her fingers, her lips, her laugh, her smile.
Everything.
If she doesn't sense me, why is that? Evolution trying to break us apart? Her way of letting me go? What? I want to know. I want to know now.
Instant gratification, that's what I want. That would be nice.
I approach the Bronze, almost going in. I almost shock the Hell out of her by going in and asking her for a dance.
We almost move to the music and I almost get her back.
I almost give in, but my heart keeps me hiding.