Disclaimer : I don't own Katekyo Hitman Reborn . If I did KHR would be full of angst !
Hey little Sky ,
I always wanted to fly.
To be so high,
With no little lie.
So I don't see everyone's faces,
Looking at me with big disappointments
Opening his eyes for the first time was something Tsuna didn't want, if opening his eyes meant pain and suffering for his whole life then it's better to be dead and never lived at all.
Tsunayoshi Sawada —is—was a happy child, he was intelligent and calculative at the age of five. But even at the age of five, something was bound to happen. At the sad age of five he became stupid for his big brothers, he can't help it. He wants his brothers to be happy because he loves them so damn much. Even if it meant that his parents will look at him with big disappointment in their eyes. But as long as it's for his brothers then so be it. At the age of five his parents were never his parents ever again. He wanted to cry, heck he wanted to scream until he passes out. He really loves them but he can't because it's his fault after all, his entire fault, so all he ever did was smile. He knows it won't solve anything. But he Smiled until it hurts.
His mother never feed him anymore. He smiled because it's his fault. ( He worked at a small ramen shop so that he can feed himself. theoldmanwaskindenoughtolethimwork )
His father won't call him tuna-fish anymore. He smiled because it's his fault. ( He took care of himself and learn all the things by himself just like a good father should do just like any good father would do.)
Gio-niisama and Natsu-niisama won't play with him. He smiled because it's his fault. ( He knows his brothers won't look at him, so instead of playing with them )
He will never receive any love from his parents anymore. He.fucking.smiled. ( He deserve it, He deserve everything, He deserve this punishment)
He smiled because he can't complain. We can't just accept the love we think we deserve
He knows that even if he shout no one will listen. So he became mute —notthatanyonewillnotice— and instead he planted a flower to convey his feelings.
He always loved flowers because it can tell what should be told.
NoonewillloveyouYouknowthatsowhybotherconveyyourfeelingswhennooneisboundtohearthemanyways
For his beloved family he planted an ANEMONE, his family won't know but this flower reminds him of himself, Forsaken, they turn away, he forgave them though. He always do.
He never gave up but they did sadly.
"Ha-happy birthday to me , happy birthday to m-me , happy birthday , happy birthday , ha-hap-happy bi-birth-birthday t-to m-me" Tsuna sang silently after the clock strikes twelve. He invisibly blows the imaginary candle .
He walked silently at the other door just in front of his room.
"Happy birthday Natsu-niisama" Tsuna greeted silently at his older twin brother. And place a basketball ball at his twin brother's door.
With one last look, he smiled as tears flood his retreat at his room and cried until Tsuna passed out.
"Tsu ? Are you there ?" Natsu, his twin brother asked as he knocks at his younger brother's room. Silence was the only noise heard at the other side of the room .
"Thank you for the gift. Happy birthday Tsu" Natsu greet and he too walked away.
That same night Tsunayoshi Sawada disappeared with nothing but a lone anemone flower on his bed. They only knew they lost something when they realized he disappeared and probably his love too.
" Looks like the sky is about to cry"
So little Sky ,
Can you take me?
To a wonderland where I can be me
To a place where I can no longer flee.
Author's Note: uhhh Hi, so uhm its 2019.. and I reread all the uhm stuff i posted on the internet and it look so dumb and stupid and its asdfghjkl; so I edited it out. I am sincerely sorry because you have to read smt like this. i will edit and probably rewrite everything because it has been a long time since i wrote. i am so sorry i love u' stay hydrated mwah