Disclaimer: I do not own Neon Genesis Evangelion or any of the songs included in this fic or anything else that has copyright laws on it so please don't sue me.
Authors Notes: If none of you have seen my page I will once again say I am sorry for not updating Hitokiri Keitaro, I will get around to it so be patient.
This idea just came to me, I am writing it just to keep myself in the right frame of mind and because I had some spare time, the songs involved are unedited and use all of the original lyrics.
When the song starts I suggest getting the song up on Youtube and play it in the background while you read, I find it helps you keep the pace of the lyrics and will make it easier to visualise, people may already be aware of this and already do it but if you are a first time reader this is just a tip for other song fics you may read.
It is about two years after third impact, except third impact didn't happen, the Japanese Government in conjunction with the UN had discovered what SEELE and NERV was up to and shut them down before Instrumentality could be put into motion.
Gendo, Ritsuko and all of the SEELE committee members were executed, Fuyutsuki and anyone else who had an idea of what NERV and SEELE were actually up to were sent to prison, how involved in Instrumentality reflecting on there time in prison. After extensive investigations Misato was finally cleared and allowed to hold her rank, but now in charge of fighter pilots, which caused her to barely be home.
Toji came out of hospital six months after NERV being shut down, he made a full recovery and has no real problems except that his legs would get stiff every now and then, but a new found hobby had kept him entertained, he eventually got the guts to ask HIkari out and they have been together since.
Rei, who had found out that the drugs she was being administered to keep her alive were actually containing mind controlling chemicals and other drugs that made her such an obedient servant to Gendo, many wanted to terminate her, saying that she wasn't even human, but the ruling was turned over by human rights groups and humanitarians all over Japan. Now that she was free and allowed to blossom, she smiled more and would hold lengthy conversations with the people closest to her and had become a very outgoing person, she laughed more and seemed to become more beautiful because of it, she was now receiving fan mail and declarations of love in her locker, her sudden blossoming seemed to mainly come about from a new hobby she had taken up.
Kensuke hasn't changed one bit, he is still a military geek and slight pervert, but because of a new hobby he had become more popular with girls, so his pervert side was happy.
Shinji had probably changed the most, after NERV he opened up a bit but he really changed when he also found a new Hobby and what would seem his true calling, his new found worth had shot his confidence through the roof, his personality and way of life completely different, he became daring and spontaneous, people no longer new him as 'Shinji the pilot of EVA 1 and son of the women who created them' he was known for something he did and he did alone and people loved him for it.
Asuka had woken from her coma only two months ago, she was no longer the firecracker she once was, she was quite and withdrawn, She had become like the old Shinji and she hated it, especially when she woke up to find everyone had changed, even Hikari because of her relationship with Toji.
Now that she was constantly self-doubting herself, she had came up with the conclusion that they were all so happy because she hadn't been around, she almost returned to her coma when Rei had walked up to her for the first time since she had awoken and said with a smile "Hi Asuka How you feeling", Asuka only just stuttered out a reply, which had caused Rei to giggle making Asuka's eyes go even wider than they were.
For the two months that she was back she barley left the apartment, only for school and other necessities, she became extremely aggressive towards Shinji, but now it actually seemed like she really hated him, not like when she would pick on him for fun and try to get a rise out of him, now he would just stand up to her automatically and didn't back down at all, which all most always led to Asuka running to her room frustrated and sometimes sobbing, when he had heard her crying once Shinji had thought he had gone to far and tried to talk to her, but she just threw something at him when he ever tried to enter.
It was a hot afternoon on a Monday in mid June, there was only a short wait until the end of the year and the end of school for all of the youngsters, there was going to be a big party at the end of the school year in the school main hall, dedicated to sending all of the students of to pursue there own lives, there was a general buzz around the class, now with all exams over and done with, now all of the older students could kick back and relax, some didn't even come, Asuka being one of them, she had taken the exam, but no one held there hopes out for her.
Five friends sat out side on their favourite bench under a tree talking and laughing.
"So how was your weekend Rei?" Toji asked, he still wore his jock cloths, though he wasn't so sports orientated now, his hair was a little longer but still kept his original look, he sat with his arm around Hikari who wore her uniform still, though now she no longer kept her hair in braids and let it flow free, she sat with her head on Toji's shoulder with a content smile on her face.
On the opposite side of the table sat Rei, her complexion still pale, with blue hair that had got shoulder length now, she left it to hang free. With it being the end of year uniforms were not pushed so she wore a white sleeveless blouse, showing off her long slender and pale arms, on her legs she wore a pair of tight denim jeans.
She smiled at Toji's question "I went out shopping and I met that Urashima guy from class 4-C" Kensuke looked up at that, he still wore the same clothes he always had, his hair seemed to only got slightly longer and he still had his trusty laptop in front of him.
"You mean that dork with glasses and is kinda pathetic?" he asked with a quizzical look at Rei.
"Look who's talking" Toji put in and then started laughing, Hikaris giggled and shook her head at her boyfriends actions, Rei laughed along with Toji and after a few seconds later Kensuke joined in.
"Yeah that's him" Rei finally replied wiping a small tear from her eye "to tell you the truth I think he is kinda cute he seems sweet and funny, he actually got the courage to ask for my number" she said with a smile, Hikari leaned forward out of Toji's embrace.
"Did you give him it?" she asked with sly grin, she had become close friends with Rei with Asuka's absence, it seemed strange that only two years ago the idea of having a girly chat with Rei was just unthinkable, but now it was a daily occurrence.
Rei blushed slightly and grinned back "well he was stuttering and it seemed so hard for him ask so my heart just melted".
"So you gave him your number" Hikari said with a wide smile.
"Yeah" came Rei's reply. Now if anyone who had not seen Rei for a long time came about at that moment in time they would have seen the most surreal thing on the planet, Rei Ayanami began giggling with Hikari like a pair of young schoolgirls.
Why all of this was going on Shinji laid only a few feet away in the sun, his clothes had changed dramatically, he was still pretty skinny but his muscles seemed more toned on his chest and arms than from a year ago so the black short sleeved shirt he wore stuck to his body well, his legs were crossed with faded jeans on them with wholes in the knees, he laid his head on a leather Jacket, folded as a cushion and on his face were a pair of sunglasses.
Under the Glasses he had his eyes closed, but he wasn't sleeping. This morning Asuka and him had had another fight. When she had come out her hair was unkempt and her eyes were red and blood shot, it had been the same for two months now, it killed him to see her that way, so he had tried to talk to her about it, she snapped at him and he shot something back, but instead of screaming at him, she just began crying in front of him and ran of to her room and wouldn't let him in.
It made him feel like the old Shinji when he saw her like this, he had continued to visit Asuka when she was in her coma when ever he ever got the chance, he would talk to her and tell her all the changes in the world and in the people around her.
He had realised that even though he had let go of everything else from his past that caused him pain, that he couldn't let go of his feeling for her, he had realised that he had always loved her six months after NERV was shut down, he used that love to flow into his new out look and made a promise that he would become the man that Asuka deserves, the man she constantly claimed she wanted, a man that could be strong and could protect her, it was why he never backed down from a fight now he wanted her to see that he was strong now.
But it seemed that she just didn't want to know him any more and now she had got herself into a rut and it made him laugh at how the situation had turned around, he was now constantly aggravated with her defeatist attitude, he wanted the old Asuka back, he wanted more than anything for her to call him by her pet name in that sweet tone of voice she had when she was happy with him but didn't want to show it.
"Idiot" he whispered softly to himself.
"What was that Shinji?" asked Rei as she had seen his lips move.
"Nothing" he replied, his thoughts went back to the red head, She still hasn't seen what my new hobby, he thought then it hit him, now that's an idea, he thought with a smile, he jumped up and holding his jacket in his left hand so it draped over his left shoulder, he had a big smile on his face as he walked up to the group.
The group stopped talking and looked over at Shinji, they all new what was coming, every time Shinji had a stroke of genius he had that same air about him, the confident step, cheeky grin and general buzz that came from him.
"You got another id…" Kensuke was cut of by Rei's hand going across his face she looked at him with her crimson eyes and said.
"You know we don't talk about that in public because if anyone hears they will follow us around all day wanting to find out" Kensuke nodded and apologised when she removed her hand.
"Ok I want you all at Rei's place tomorrow night normal time" Shinji said and walked of in a hurry.
"Were are you going" Hikari asked, though she already new the answer.
"Home, if the teacher is even bothered that im not there tell him I threw up or something k" Shinji said as he continued to walk away.
Hikari shook her head and went back to talking to Rei about what she should wear if she goes out.
Back at the Katsuragi, Soryu and Ikari residents.
Asuka lay in her bed, her face had gone slightly pale from lack of sunlight and her hair was sticking out everywhere, showing that it hadn't been washed for a while.
Why did I even have to wake up, she thought for what had to been the thousandth time, she felt so lost, when she had came back and found that EVA and NERV was gone she was actually devastated, what do I do now, she had thought to herself, EVA had been the most important thing in her life and now it was gone.
She cried a lot now, all of the bottled up emotions had just flowed from her and she had no way of stopping them, the EVA's were not the only things gone now, all her friends had changed and were different, they tried to speak to her, but with her missing two years she felt like a fifth wheel not being in on any of the jokes or memories they now had. She had no place in the world now, she wasn't needed and that hurt.
The one thing that hurt most of all that was now gone was something she had only just realised how dear it was to her, it had brought her out of her comma and had been the only thing she now realised she could rely on, it was Shinji.
During her time in the coma, she swore she could have heard Shinji talking to her, she couldn't hear what he was saying, but she could easily recognise his voice, it was soothing to her and eventually she came to realising that she harboured deep feeling for him. But when she woke up and saw him for the first time in years he wasn't the boy she remembered, he was no longer shy and innocent, he no longer kept to himself and accept everything people gave to him or set out for him, it hurt her.
She wanted the quiet and caring Shinji back not the new brash and playful Shinji, she liked that he had blossomed, but not to the point were he doesn't seem to care like he once did, were he would say sorry for sneezing while having a cold, now she had not recalled him saying sorry once in the entire time she had been back, she even tried shouting at him trying to see if it would bring any old Shinji qualities back, he had just argued back with her and he seemed more aggressive as well and had this unwavering will of not backing down to her, it was like a dagger in the chest, she had lost the boy she loved.
She wouldn't mind if he acted the way he did, but around her if he could just show her the old Shinji she would be happy, but no and now her heart ached her last hope of happiness was gone.
Outside Asuka's bedroom
Shinji entered the apartment and went straight to his room, locked the door and began to work.
Asuka listened as he entered and went to his room, she only wondered slightly at what he was doing but didn't pay much attention she slowly went back to sleep and to the only world were she seemed happy now, her dreams.
Author's notes: hope your enjoying it.