I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell...

I watched as she ran from me, tears streaming down her beautiful face. I felt insane that I was breaking my loves heart, but I was being forced to. Blackmail, the worst possible thing in this world. I couldn't stand her being hurt that way and I didn't want to risk her life for me being foolish.

My head hurt and in my heart I knew I just did the most horrible thing in the world, but my mind did the best to rationalize it and tell me it was better this way. Yet, it hurt so much.

I know, right now you can't tell...

After a day she stopped coming to the host club, and I didn't blame her. The rest of the host already knew of the hard break up and they resented me for it. Tamaki already bit off my head twice and was on the verge of a third time.

It was pointless to try and explain. My heart was in just as much pain as her's just I knew how to keep a mask. I wanted to see her and press my lips to her and apologize, but if I were to our lives would end.

But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see...

I'd see her stand outside the host club doors and fake a smile, until a customer would ask her what happened. Pain cover her face and I could feel my heart break that much more. I pushed my glasses up my nose to shield my eyes.

"You idiot! Why'd you break up with her? She loved you!" The twins yelled at me. I felt my lip quiver and I turned from them, trying to keep it hidden. "I loved her too." I thought.

A different side of me...

Every day I went home and hid in my room. Only then would I let the silent tears come out and consume some of me. I picture Haruhi's smiling face that had changed into a dead zombified mess. "Haruhi," I whispered into the dark.

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired...

I planned to go over everyday, to try and make it better, to explain without getting myself killed. As days passed, though, I couldn't find the courage to face her pained face. She didn't realize I had stopped going to the host club as well. I was starting to fail my classes and was no longer able to take over my father's company because of it.

I know, right now you don't care...

It'd been a month and Haruhi had holed herself into her room. I stood outside her door, knowing deep inside, this wasn't going to help, but I tried anyway. I slid the card under her door and walked away. "I really am sorry, Haruhi." I thought as the card I slid under the door made it too her hands with it's three words. "I'm sorry. -Kyouya."

But soon enough you're gonna think of me...

When she became hospitalized, I was temped to kill myself. "First do something for her." I told myself and went to the hospital. The doctor met me in the hall and showed me to her room. I told him I was paying for everything when I saw how frail she was. Her face was told cold when she looked at me and I knew that I made the biggest mistake in the world.

And how I used to be.

Months passed by and she was released home. Without thinking I went to see her. I pushed my way through the angry hosts and father and went into her room, where she lay on the bed. "Kyouya," Her voice cracked, and was no more than a soft whisper.

I knew she wanted to say more so I waited. My eyes saddened at the site of her. "I love you. Now die." No longer was I able to hold back. Tears poured freely down my face and she started to cough up blood. "H-Haruhi, I love you too." I whispered as she went limp.