Always Second Best
Summary: Morgan reflects on why he is the way he is.
Author's Note: There's a comment in here where a character is in disbelief about Morgan and Kiki giving Michael a drug similar to the date rape drug/roofies. This is mostly of my opinion. And me hoping someone will mention it on the show. Just the fact that Morgan took advantage of Michael's body by giving him that drug is disturbing on so many levels.
Here's the truth of the matter: No matter how much Michael or their father or mother protests, no matter how many times Kiki denies it, Morgan Corinthos is never thought of first. He's second best. And in some cases, he isn't even that. And part of him knows that this isn't Michael's fault. It isn't Mikey's fault that Carly and Sonny show more concern for him, even when he yells about how much he hates them. It isn't Mikey's fault that Kiki is still in love with him, or that Josslyn loves him-sometimes, Morgan thinks, more than she cares for him. Even when he's the one who's with her the most.
But it still stings, even though he'd tried to understand. He wants to be first for a change. He wants someone to love him unconditionally. He doesn't think that that will ever happen, however. Not after what he'd done. His cheek still stung from the slap his mother had delivered to it. In another room was Kiki, handcuffed much like he was. Michael had actually called the law on him and baby Avery had been delivered safetly back to him. Morgan still didn't understand how she'd ended up back in Silas' apartment. He hadn't thought much of it, truthfully. Not until his mother had come and confronted he and Kiki over what they'd done to Michael and wrongly assumed that they'd hidden Avery to get Michael in trouble.
He'd realized how horrible what he'd done was when his mother had choked on sobs after getting over her anger a bit(he'd never seen her stormy gaze and angry behavior directed at him before). He could still hear her words in his head.
"How could you give him those pills, Morgan? How could you drug your brother? How could you take advantage of his body that way? Especially after what happened in Pentonville?" She'd been in disbelief that Morgan had slipped Michael pills, similar to the date rape drug.
Morgan had felt shame fill him, then. Truthfully, he hadn't thought of Michael's feelings at all when he'd done this. Lost in his own anger and his need for his father's respect that had always been so lavished on Michael. He hadn't thought of the horrible things his older brother had went through. From the kidnappings, to seeing their parents fight, to getting shot in the head, to accidentally killing Claudia Zacchara, trying to protect their mother and baby sister. To what had occurred in Pentonville, or of Abby's death. Or AJ's. He hadn't thought of any of that because all he'd seen was the golden boy. The one with the great job who was opening the clinic. The one who was lavished with love and attention. The guy who wasn't a screw up. Not like him.
Morgan had wanted things to be different. Well, they were different already. He'd brought his dad and Michael closer together. He'd disappointed and hurt his family, he'd lost their trust. And now? Well, now he was facing the prospect of jail. And it was in these moments that he wished he'd never done this. That he'd never gotten to the point that he could feel so negatively about his brother that he'd do something so horrible to hurt him.
The End