A/N: So I've loved this song for years, and with my recent DuncanxCourtney obsession I just had to write this! It's written as Courtney talking to Duncan after he's died. And she's supposed to sound like she's a wreck, by the way. For those who want the song: watch?v=qqyA2YKR9lw

And I know that this isn't the best, but still. R&R please!

I've decided I'm done.

I don't even care to move on with my life without you…. I'm really not used to losing people. My family is all alive and healthy, heck even all of my grandparents are still alive. But now you're gone. Your careful silence can't replace your stupid smile. I miss my little punk. I miss your eyebrow piercing, your red converse, and your skull shirt. Heck I even miss your green mohawk. I miss all the time we had together. Our first kiss back on the island, the little skull you carved me when I was voted off…. Oh, and who could forget your face when I came back on TDA? Now it doesn't matter how many casseroles or handshakes I get, nothing can restore the twelve years we had together.

You stole me.

I took down the mirror today, the one we bought together. It was the first thing we got for our house and I can't even bare to look at it anymore. I also put away all the pictures of you. Even the ones from that costume party we went to, where you dressed up as Shrek the ogre and I dressed up as Princess Fiona. I put away the posters and books that all remind me of you. I put it all away.

You'll never believe what my mom said today. She gave me a pat on the back, saying "Honey it's time to move on. I'm sure we can find you a hobby now that he's gone." Like some stupid hobby is going to fill the large gaping hole in my life? They just don't understand. They give me flowers and cards, and I smile all they want, if it will just get them to shut up and leave me alone! I'll give them a real smile when they give me what I really want! I don't dare to try dating again. No one could replace you. It's like we were born holding hands. They say time will heal and mend. But I know it's a bunch of lies.

All I can think of these days is Halloween, the last time you left. If I knew that you were never coming back I would've said something other than "here's your keys". I wish the last thing I got to say to you would be "I love you," and just in case, "I'm only myself when I'm with you, baby."

But for now, just know,

I'll be with you someday.