Disclaimer - I do not own the characters of Jessica Sammler and Katherine Singer, they are the properties of Once and Again and ABC. I also do not own the lyrics to the song Bluer Than Blue, they are the properties of Michael Johnson.

Summary - This is an AU fan fiction of Jessie and Katie, however in this one she is called Kate. This one is set in Oregon where Katie is having a hard time letting go of a past lover and Jessie is trying to get Kate to love her.

Sorry but I couldn't come up with a better title for the story, if you can think of something people than please tell me.

Rating - R for mature.

Notes - Thisis dedicated to all those who kept the memory of Jessie and Katiealive.

Part 1:

It was a cool and crisp spring night in Springfield, Oregon, a small and rather quiet town that usually had nothing going on during the night. However the town was near the bigger city Eugene, where the University of Oregon resides, so there was always something going on there. None of this makes much of a difference for Katherine Singer (she prefers to go by Kate) who was at her home in a dimly-lit living room lying down on her couch with a glass of cherry brandy in her left hand and listening to her favorite station SM95, the easy-listening soft-rock station.

This was her usual routine after she comes home for work for the last two years. Everyday when she came home from work or from the gym she would cry her heart out from the songs they played on the station between 8pm and 10pm. That segment is called Night Whispers and they played nothing but old and/or sad love songs from today and in the past (mostly 70s and 80s but some 60s and 90s). Kate listened to the station because some of the songs reminded her of the wonderful times she had with Sarah Grasso, the love of her life that unexpectedly left her two years ago. At that point she hasn't gotten over Sarah, she kept all of her picture all over the house and often daydreams about the days that they were together. Another reason she likes the station was that a lot of the songs on the station sang about her current mood, such as the case for the next song that's about to be played.

The familiar station's jingle first plays "Soft rock like no one else, SM95!" then comes a calm and smooth DJ voice on the radio: "Hi this is Ron Thomas and you are listening to Night Whispers. Next I will play a song that many people can relate to when that special someone leaves you. It's a sad yet beautiful song that really touches the pain of being lonely and being deserted." With that he puts on Michael Johnson's classic Bluer Than Blue.

As the singer sings the following lyrics:

After you go
I can catch up on my reading
After you go
I'll have a lot more time for sleeping

And when you're gone it looks like things
Are gonna be a lot easier
Life will be a breeze, you know
I really should be glad

But I'm bluer than blue
Sadder than sad
You're the only light
This empty room has ever had
Life without you is gonna be
Bluer than blue

Kate started to break down and cry, relating very well to the lyrics of the song of what was once a livelier house, now empty and soulless with just herself and her two cats Petra and Camille. They too are feeling the effects of Sarah's absence since she was a wonderful cat caretaker and the cats really loved her since she would spend time with the cats.

After the song ended, she got up from the couch and went straight to her bedroom and lie on the bed, crying herself to sleep. This is basically an everyday thing for her, sometimes she wondered if Sarah's absence would have a permanent scar on her heart for the rest of her life. When she slept she usually dreamed about the good times she had with Sarah and how they would have their future together. She wished that she could sleep her whole life away.

I guess this is a good time to talk about Kate herself. She is 30 years old and is originally from Chicago but she decided to move to Eugene, Oregon after she was reading A Design Pattern while studying Architecture and Interior Design at the University Of Chicago. One of the writers was a professor at the University of Oregon and she really wanted to learn from him. When she arrived at Eugene, she was taken surprise at the liberal atmosphere surrounded her in Eugene. With the city being big on co-op shops, organic markets, and alternative healing she felt like she found herself a new home, something different from the somewhat-conservative setting she loathed in Chicago. But the biggest thing that draws her to this city was their acceptance of her sexuality, it was not considered to be an issue. It wasn't that much of an issue in Chicago either but she did get a few occasional heckles and harassments, in particular there are a few members in her family who are not talking to her because of it.

Kate looks like Mischa Barton with meat on her bones and muscles at the right places. She has biceps, thighs and a six-pack but she also had a 36-C cup size and a nice firm and rounded bottom, she has something you can grab on too ;) She needed to be strong because her main job is running a home and crafts store and she does home improvement side projects such as building fences, creating sheds and clubhouses, she's basically a hands-on architect.

Her personality is kind of like her body, she is both masculine and feminine. She has no problems being either butch or femme, she's more like a "hard femme" but don't tell her that, she hates labels. She can talk to you about the latest Portland Trailblazers basketball game and yet she can also talk to you about the latest episode of All My Children (and yes Bianca is her favorite character). In her home she has a few dolls but also a few motorcycle magazines.

With the body and the personality she has, she is very much wanted by both men and women, straight women even asked her out but she often tells them no, she refuse to be some "lesbian experiment" and bisexuals considers her the "ultimate woman" due to her having both "masculine" and "feminine" qualities, but she doesn't date bisexuals either based on her fear of she being nothing more to them but a "substitute" until an interested man comes along (plus she had horrible experiences with bisexual women).

She is soft and warm like a woman but isn't prissy, yet she is also assertive and confident like a man but she's doesn't carry the coldness and the insensitiveness of a man, well...that how she used to be. Now she is cold and she isn't as soft, warm or assertive like she used to be. That depression of hers is also affecting her business.