DEAR YOU
The first time we met you saved me.
Your smile made me feel welcome. I felt wanted.
But she was there and you did all you could to protect her.
I felt forgotten - left behind and blamed her.
Then you disappeared.
I blamed her.
The voice inside my head drove me into madness.
I was no longer myself.
There were two parts of me.
Myself and the monster.
After a while I couldn't tell the two apart.
I killed the girl - the one who burdened you
I did all of this just for you
To just see your smile once more
Then I realized what I had done
I had killed the one dear to you
I realized my mistake
I had been driven mad with love
I no longer existed
Only the monster was left I was but a shadow of myself
I had nothing left
I was alone in a deep abysm with no escape
All there was were those memories
Those dear memories of you
Still I wish for your smile
I still long to hear your voice
I still keep searching for you for
Deep inside what is left of me I know for sure
You are still out there
Waiting to be found
A lost little sheep
When I find you
I will hold your hand and never let go again
So that we will never be separated again
Even though I may not find you
I will still look and pray
That just maybe we can meet
Even in just the next life
Dear you
Please forgive my sin
Please come back to me
Do not leave me ever again
Because I love you
And always have since the day we met
And will always keep loving you until the day I die
As I close my eyes from the pain tearing me apart
I feel the pain lessen
Now I am in a tunnel
I know I have died and I wish I could cry
I want to let out the feelings I have been holding all this time
The tunnel is dark, but at the end I see a small light
That light is warm and grows stronger and larger
I hear a strangely nostalgic voice calling my name
I see a person engulfed in light
Reaching a hand out to me
I take it and smile
It was you
You had come to take me to the next world
Together we walked
Hand in hand
to be reborn again