Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto characters nor "numb" by Linkin Park

Ok in my fic Sasuke-dono has returned to Konoha.

I need to find good drug abuse Sasuke fics. This definitely isn't one of them but maybe this'll suck enough for other people to try and make one just to show people that you're better than me XD.

P.S. if you do do that leave me a link so I can read it!

EDIT: Full Sum: Sakura is falling in love all over again. But the shinobi are older now, things are different, deeper. As they get older things have to mature…even they're relationships. Sakura is being pulled into Sasuke's life, and though she's loving most of it, things are getting clearer. Old hurts rising anew and Sasuke's dark moods are becoming more focused to Sakura. But everything will be fine. Because they are in love and love conquers all things. If she just loves him enough, just protects him from the pain then it'll go away…right?

But as moods get darker and Sasuke's grip slips just a bit, things become so much clearer. Now Sakura has to help him before he falls away from her forever. Before he does something he'll regret.

Includes drug abuse (including but not limited to alcohol), citrus (just how much I don't know yet, depends on your tastes), angst, suicidal references, and other not K-rated stuff.

P.S. damn those plot bunnies wielding mallets

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Haruno Sakura's legs and hands instantly attached to the tree in front of her. She grinned as she leapt to another tree, both her feet and hands sticking to the tree. Her chakra control was one of the best in Konoha but this new technique was so much fun! She had chakra in her palms and feet so jumping from tree to tree like a cat was easy once she learned how. Sakura stopped to look around once more. She knew the way to Sasuke's new house by heart but now she was getting there a very different way and it was slightly jarring. She got her bearings and then was back to jumping around trying to get to his house. Sasuke was going to be so proud of her when he saw her technique!

The two-storied house rose out of the trees modestly. Sasuke had moved into the woods almost half a year before and now lived in a small two story (not including the basement and attic that none were allowed in) house. Sakura was now staring at the house from a tree right next to it. She cocked her head and her eye's ran over the house. She didn't see any movement in the house. Maybe he was training.

Sakura jumped off the tree to the ground below and glanced around. She sighed moodily, I am not going home without at least checking. She thought, starting towards the front door. Suddenly she froze. What was that? Music? She turned, walking slowly towards where she had heard the music. She stopped once more, looking at a small window about 5 inches from the ground. She knelt and looked into it to find that Sasuke was indeed in the house. She was staring into the basement, which had been turned into a home gym. The ground was covered in blue mats and 3 out of the 4 walls matched. There was a large wooden pillar in the middle of the room covered in a rather beat up blue mat. Across the room from Sakura was a desk which held a large boom box and standing in front of it was Uchiha Sasuke. His upper body was bare and he was wearing his white shorts. His feet were bare save the bandages and he was wrapping white bandages around his fist and wrist. She watched him finish his bandages and punch the 'next' button on his boom box. A song she quickly recognized made the walls shake in the room as Sasuke got into a fighting position in front of the wooden pillar.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes

She watched Sasuke's fists part the air as they were thrown into the mat. His face kept the emotionless mask she knew so well.

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Sasuke's foot collided with the side of the pillar. Sasuke's pail skin rippled over his perfectly lean muscle. His small frame belying the power beneath. It seemed always to be that way with Uchiha's.

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Sakura's eye's were drawn to the mark that still lie on Sasuke's neck and she saw his fingers touch it subconsciously between kicks. He stopped for just a moment and realized his fingers had gone to the mark. He dug his nails into the sensitive flesh and she watched him stand there for a moment. She didn't have to be an expert on Sasuke's emotions (though she was) to see he was seething. She winced remembering a man with a manic grin and hand-like wings sprouting from his back. That was the only time she had been afraid of Sasuke. Orochimaru.

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

Sasuke's mask had fallen. He was furious and it was clear on his contorted face. He was moving quickly now, his movements shaking the pillar. He was so angry and it made her wonder what made him listen to this song while training.

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take

What had made him put this CD in? Why had he bought it? Why did he put himself threw this? These memories that most would rather forget? Sasuke had never told her anything from before he came back except that Itachi was dead.

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Sakura watched Sasuke. His arms and legs were barely visible now and she knew he wasn't using chakra. He was gritting his teeth and she could see his chest heaving with anger and fatigue. He was dripping with sweat.

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

Sakura clapped her hands over her ears as she heard him let out a scream as his fist broke through the pillar and the mat. She felt tears spring to her eye's as she saw that behind the pillar was a mural. Half the wall was covered in a picture of the eldest Uchiha prodigy. Uchiha Itachi.

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Sasuke collapsed on the ground right where he stood. He shook for a minute, then dragged himself to his feet. The music was fading out as he headed towards the boom box and hit the 'stop' button. He sunk to the ground in front of the boom box. The young Uchiha put his elbows on his knees, his hands clasping the sides of his head. He sat like that for awhile.

When he finally moved it was quick and he was suddenly clawing at the desk. He opened his desk and she watched him pull a bottle. He threw his head back and brought the mouth of the bottle to his lips. He swallowed and the bottle didn't recede until it was empty. It was obvious now that the bottle contained some kind of alcohol. Sakura was surprised, she had never seen Sasuke drink. But he was sure drinking now. She watched him put the bottle down. He stared at the ground in front of him and swallowed the alcohol in his mouth. Sasuke coughed and ran the back of his hand across his mouth. He gasped for air and, gripping the desk, he hauled himself up. He leaned against it and put his head back, letting the bottle fall to the matted floor. Slowly his head came down and his eyes opened. It happened in an instant. Suddenly their eyes were locked, both mirroring each other's shock and fear at being caught.

Sasuke's thought processes started back up first. He pushed himself away from the desk and he was running towards her. Sakura barely had time to stand and turn before Sasuke's fingers circled her ankle. She fell forward and attempted to kick him away instinctively. She didn't have time to. Sasuke flipped her over and gave her leg a ferocious pull. Suddenly he was sitting on her hips, his bony hips unconsciously grinding her own. She tried to push him off but he grabbed her wrists and held them above her head. "What are you doing!" He screamed at her. There was no fear coming from him now, only anger. "I'm sorry-I'm sorry! I didn't mean-"

"Answer me!"

"I just wanted to show you my new technique." she said tremulously.

"Yeah, right." He sneered. "You probably just wanted to spy on me! What? Checking up on me! Making sure I'm on the straight and narrow? Making sure I'm not just like aniki!" He screamed so close to her she could smell him. His usual intoxicating musk scent doused in sweat and alcohol.

"No! I'm sorry-I just wanted to-I didn't mean to see-not to see--" I didn't mean to see… she couldn't finish. She was afraid of this man, this stranger. Sasuke would never do this. Not him. He was angry, drunk. But he wasn't Sasuke.

"How dare you! What I do is none of your business! Just stay away from me!"

"I didn't mean to see what you didn't want anyone to see!" she finally yelled through her tears. He stared down at her for a minute. Stared at her tears, her fear. His head drooped a bit. He sighed, "I'm…sorry." he sighed again and slowly his fingers crawled from her wrists into her hands, between her fingers. He ran his palms up and down her own, clasping and unclasping their fingers. He gripped them and stared at her. "I…didn't mean to. I…just don't tell anyone. Alright? I'm fine. I'm sorry. I won't hurt you. I'll be fine as long as you don't tell anyone. No one can know-about any of it. The song, the picture, the alcohol. None of it." He slowly lifted his hips from hers and his hands came away also. He crawled off to the side of her. She whispered his name and sat up, afraid to be at his mercy once again. "Just forget it. All of it. I won't hurt you. I would never…just forget it."

"Sasuke…"

"Go. Run away from here. From me. I saw it…in your eye's. That's what you want to do isn't it? So go."

Sakura steeled herself, "No."

"What?" he replied. One eyebrow raised and his Uchiha eyes stared into her own. Even when he was shocked (somewhat) sober his eye's were frightening in themselves.

"Sasuke…you're only 17...you can't drink. And you shouldn't be drinking like that anyway. It's not healthy Sasuke! And…it's scary. You're scary. I'm afraid. Even now. What you did…it's not like you. It's not like you to scare me, to try and hurt me-"

"I said I was sorry, didn't I?" he said in a monotone.

"But you've never done that! You've never been drunk in front of one of us!" she stopped there. Uchiha Sasuke's eye's had suddenly flown from her own to the ground next to him. She stared at him, knowing that this was a nervous habit Sasuke had always had-not meeting your eye's when he was guilty. A flood of memories hit her like a ton of bricks.

No, he's fine Sakura-chan! Sasuke-teme just caught a little stomach bug.

No let's go to your house billboard brow!

Don't you think Sasuke-sama should be alone, Sakura-chan? Naruto-kun and I are gonna go to the Hyuuga tea ceremony. Would you like to come?

"No. That's no true. Everyone else knew didn't they!" Sasuke's eyes rose from the ground and directly into hers, as if he hadn't done anything wrong. "Even Naruto?" she asked weakly. He nodded slowly. "He knew."

"So why didn't you tell me! I thought…I thought that maybe…I was your friend too."

"…Did I let you down? I seem to have that affect on people."

Sakura looked at him with sad eye's. Was that what he thought? Slowly, on their own accord, her fingers reached out to brush his cheek. "Is that what you think? Do you think you let me down? That I'm angry with you? Sasuke." Her hand cupped his face ignoring the look of surprise on his face. He resisted the urge to close his eyes at her soft touch and pulled away a bit. "How could I be angry with you? I…still love you."

"Don't say stupid stuff like that. You don't understand."

"I don't care! I don't care. You can't let me down." She was on her knees in front of him now, looking down at the sitting Uchiha. "Don't love me Sakura. No matter what I look like…or my strength…don't. I'll just make you cry." He whispered even as he allowed her to hold his face in her hands. Even as she pulled his face closer to her own. "You can't let me down…if I hold you up." Her lips connected with his own and after a moment her tongue ran across his lips, begging for entrance. He allowed his lips to part and the kiss deepened. He tasted like alcohol but beneath that was his own taste. He wrapped his arms around her waist and because she was on her knees and he was sitting on his heels her hips fell against his lower chest.

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Phew! That was long. Did you know Linkin park is very good for writing moods? Yup, sure is. Truthfully I shouldn't start this when I have other stuff to update but I couldn't help myself. I love sasusaku's! If you didn't read the summary (which sucked I accept flames and anonymous reviews. Ja ne!

BTW: I don't think constructive criticism is a flame. I whole-heartedly accept it!