Title: "What if I said"
Author: Romy
E-mail: sunshine8552@yahoo.com
Summary: Our two favorite lawyers in love at the engagement party of one of them.

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Looking at all the people who came here tonight to
celebrate my engagament leaves me wondering. Wondering
exactly how
things got so out of control - how they got so far.

Two years ago we were best friends. And now we're here
- at my
engagement party, here where I think two of the most
miserable people are
YOU - and me.

***
We've been friends for a long, long time
You tell me your secrets, and I tell you mine
She's left you all alone, and you feel like no one
cares
But I have never failed you, I've always been there
***

I think the others are having a great time. Just look
around.
The Admiral and Sydney are together again - probably
wishing that
the party was over and they would be alone. My
fiancee is chatting with your
girlfriend - funny, it seems like they don't miss us.
In the next corner I see Harriet. She's showing
Carolyn some
pictures from baby AJ's second birthday.

*Five years from now, we're gonna have a baby
together.*

Only now I remembered that it's already been two years
from
OUR baby promise. That time I really thought we're
gonna keep
it. But now it's impossible. Seems like you've finally
made a promise you
can't keep.

***
You tell me your story, it sounds a bit like mine
It's the same old situation, it happens every time
Can't we see, oh maybe you and me is what's meant to
be
Or do we disagree
***

I can't stand being in there a minute longer. I'm sure
if I
started screaming, no one would even notice it.

Silently I open the doors and step into the night air.
I feel the cold breeze against my skin and shiver.

A year and three months ago it wasn't this cold. A
year
and three months ago we were in Australia. And I still
don't know
why I took that damn ring from him.

First I think I felt rejected by you and the thought
of someone Down Under loving me was pleasant.
On the way home I caught YOU staring at me. Not once
not twice, but nine times. And that was only in the
first two hours.
So I decided that maybe I could make YOU jealous. But
I was wrong.

Four months later my almost-fiancee moved here. And
seeing that YOU weren't going to do something, seven
months later
we've become officially engaged.

The week before we set the date YOU were acting
strange because 'admiral's chair fell out from under
you.' YOU even
called me 'Sweet Thing.'
I would really like to know what did YOU dream about.

***
What if I told you, what if I said that I love you
How would you feel, what would you think, what would
we do
Do we dare and cross that line, between your heart and
mine
Or would I lose a friend, or find a love that would
never end
What if I said
***

My internal clock tell me it's been 37 minutes and 54
seconds since I left the party inside. Seems like no
one's missing
me, not even my fiancee.

I look inside, but I can't find YOU anywhere. So I
turn and bump into someone. I bump into YOU.

***
She doesn't love you, oh it's plain to see
He doesn't hold you the way a woman should be held
How long can I go on keeping these feelings to my self
***

"You don't wanna go back inside?"

"Not yet. There's just too many people."

"Would you mind if I stay and keep you company?"

"No. I'd be glad."

YOU start pulling your jacket off.

"What are you doing?"

"Well, you've just shivered for the tenth time in last
40 minutes. So because I'm a gentleman and because I
don't
wan't you to get sick, I'm giving you my jacket."

YOU help me put it on and our hands touch. I look into
YOUR eyes and I'm lost.

***
Oh, we've both had our share of loneliness
So who's to say that we can't have, a little happiness

And if I found that in you
It would make my dreams come true
Or would you walk away
Hear what I have to say
***

"You've been out here all this time?"

"Yes. Seeing you inside with all your friends
congratulating you
was too painful. So I came outside. And when you came
out here, I just
couldn't bring myself to approach you."

"But now you did."

"Yes. Because when I saw you out here, I realised that
you're a good
actress. When you're surrounded by all those people,
you seem like you're
happy. But I know you're not. "

"What do you mean ?"

"This" and YOU leaned forward and gave me the most
incredible
kiss I've ever gotten, a kiss that left me completely
breathless.

***
So what if I told you, what if I said that I love you
How would you feel, what would you think, what would
we do.
Oh, do we dare cross that line, between your heart and
mine
Oh, I've always wondered, from the day that we met
What if I said, what if I said ooo what if we said

***

"You know, Sarah, I've always wondered, what if I said
that I love you ?"

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