Disclaimer: If I actually owned anything belonging to BTVS or Angel, it would not be cancelled right now! So basically I don't own anything!

AN: Well if you can't tell this is my first fic and I'd appreciate any feedback positive of negative. Also there are many fics out there in this category, many more that I have not read or accessed. If this fic resembles another fic too closely, please tell me politely. I'm not trying to rip other people off and if it looks like plagiarism, it just means there's another genius out there (lol) who I haven't heard of yet.

Well if you can't tell this is my first fic and I'd appreciate any feedback positive of negative. Also there are many fics out there in this category, many more that I . If this fic resembles another fic too closely, please tell me I'm not trying to rip other people off and if it looks like plagiarism, it just means there's another genius out there (lol) who I haven't heard of yet.

AN2: Also I'd like to point out this fic is AU (alternative universe).

Well that's about it!

A Side kick Lust.

Cordelia lay all dishevelled on her bed, her head buried in her pillow and her blanket on top covering all of her, with a steady stream of tears flowing down her face leaving wet marks and mascara stains where she'd dig her head further in to hide.

Meanwhile, Dennis her ghost roommate kept bringing his distressed friend different things he thought would cheer her up without success. The entire room was covered in magazines, bowls of ice cream and other assorted junk food, favourite pictures and newly bought clothes that never failed to bring a smile to the original 'Queen C's' face brought in by Dennis. Except this time, everything did fail. The sobbing of his best friend was driving Dennis to frustration. Frustrated he couldn't properly soothe her with touch, or talk to her, or beat up the cause of her sadness. Instead he could watch invisibly hoping to bring something that would finally cheer his princess up.

'It's all my stupid fault this happened to me!' Cordelia thought to herself angrily. "They're soul-mates. Bloody stinking heroic soul mates. And what am I? I'm the Bitch who never did anything but complain.' She felt like screaming and all she could do was cry and the more she cried the angrier she got and the more she wanted to scream. 'Stop it Cordelia! You have no need to cry! You should be happy.' she mentally berated herself. 'After all he's going to be happy, and that's what you want.'

It had been two days since they got word of Buffy "the Vampire slayer's" return to the living. One and a half since Angel had gone back to Sunnydale to see his beloved slayer.

'Too comfort her!' Cordelia's thoughts surfaced, 'Yet who's here to comfort me?' she immediately felt guilty both for not being happy Buffy was back and remembering all Dennis had been trying to do for her in vain.

'See I don't even deserve people being good to me, because I just forget them! Like Xander, even he couldn't stand dating me for long.' Cordelia couldn't help making herself feel worse and worse. It was like she couldn't stop digging a bigger hole for herself to lie in, and now she had come to the stage of self-hatred and guilt.

"But she just had to come back that night!" Cordelia screamed, shooting up and throwing off the blankets, surprising both herself and Dennis. This had been the first time she had spoken in what seemed a long time. She had unplugged the phone and hadn't been to the office in one and a half days

'Since angel left'

to avoid speaking and now for it to just come out in a scream of fury, well neither were ready for that. However once Cordelia Chase gets going, it's hard to get her to stop. "You know, she had her chance right? She gave him up. She wanted the NORMAL LIFE! She already bought her dish with a whole side order of bitching and whining. I mean DAMMIT SHE RUBBED WHAT'S HIS FACE IN ANGEL'S FACE! And me. I go through mind breaking headache and torture for him, I risk my but for him without the aid of supernatural strength and obligation. I listen patiently while he talks about all his problems and stories of the past without judgement... HECK I WARM HIM FREAKING BLOOD AND SHE...WELL SHE CAN'T STAND OR ACCEPT THAT HE'S A BLOODY VAMP!"

Cordelia's mind couldn't resist adding a 'No pun attended to her rant' she ignored it and continued,

BUT DOES THAT MATTER? NO!" She trailed off for a second and then added more softly, "No it doesn't, Cause they're soul mates and I'm just an idiot."

>BACK AT THE HYPERIONHOTEL

Fred had been pacing around her room in nerves. She had still yet to get accustomed to her new life. Everything was just so strange to her. Mind you that tended to happen when one had just come back from hiding all alone in a cave, in a hell dimension she'd been "living at for five years where humans were cattle with chokers around their necks that could cause their heads' to explode.

Yet for once, in the short while she'd been at the hotel, the new lifestyle was not what had her shook up. This time it was the welfare of her one and only girl friend, Cordelia Chase. She had been nice to Fred since day one, always seeking her out and encouraging her to come out and talk to everyone. Always engaging the young physicist in conversation and not being deterred by Fred's strangeness.

"Heck she even tried to brush my hair for me once!" Fred laughed at the memory and then cringed when she thought about how desperately she had needed that brush.

In return Fred became concerned and loyal to Cordy, it had been a couple of days now since Cordy had come to the office, she wasn't answering the phone either. Fred knew this cause she would sneak down and hear Charles and Wesley whisper their concerns about their one and only "vision girl."

"Hmm, this can't be good for her." Fred talked to the small plant she had got as a gift from Angel. She looked at the plant as if listening and then nodded her head in agreement. "Your right, we should go get her, but she needs time. It's pretty obvious what's wrong even if Cordy jokes and pretends to be disgusted when I bring it up. Her and Angel belong together, they're champions, even if Angel doesn't see it yet. I mean of course I've never met Buffy his so-called star crossed lover, but she doesn't seem overly great from what I do hear. Mind you that all comes from Cordy...Poor Cordelia." Fred sympathised in her Texas accent. "Well I'll make sure she knows she has a friend. I'll go downstairs right now and get someone to take me to her apartment." Fred took a step to the threshold of her room and then suddenly turned back. "If only I could leave my room!" She plonked down on her bed with a sigh but not yet defeat.

'I'm still coming Cordelia!' she thought with determination, 'It just may take awhile.'

>BACK AT CORDELIA'S APARTMENT

Cordelia had reached the point where she had enough of crying and misery. She was ready to stop her mopping and get out and face the world head on. After all she was Cordelia Chase! And no "Cry-Buffy" was going to get her down. Who needed a vampire with a soul anyways?

"I mean really, the whole broody thing! Pfft...so back with James Dean. Plus look at all the hotties in LA just waiting for me! Angel would totally have cramped my style! So ready or not here I come!" she then got a glance at herself in a mirror.

"Ick, after a shower! I mean bags have never and so will not be IN!"

Dennis smiled to himself as much as he could glumly. Yes it seemed like Cordelia was getting better, but her knew that as soon as the water hit her, her tears would come back. It may be easy to forget for awhile, but it was never easy to mend a broken heart. He brought his friend a towel and placed it by her robe. As if on cue, he heard the crying start anew. One way or another he would never let anyone make Cordelia this miserable ever again. In pained silence he listened to Cordy's heart crumble more and more.

Ending note: Well that's the prologue Part 1 all done. Next up our favourite bleach blond vamp Spike and Sunnydale! Hope you liked it. Please R&R. Seriously! I NEED IT! Look forward to more angst, this just wasn't enough for me! ;)

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