I sat on the roof, the cold wind blowing through my long hair. I was just wishing for me to wake up from this horrible nightmare, whishing that the terrible loathing in my chest would just go away.

Do you ever get that feeling when you want something so bad, but you know you can't?

God, I hate that feeling.

So now this feeling has left me here to think about all the reasons why I should live.

Well, people would need me to cheer them up! No, everybody thinks I'm annoying as Bootie. People would need a good ninja to fight! No more enemies.

A tear falls down my cheek, and I wish he was here to talk to. He was always there. Always.

And now he's gone. Today's his birthday, he would turn 29 today, right? October 13… curse him!

Another tear falls down my cheek. I miss everyone so much. Sure I see Aeris and Cid everyday and I heard that Cloud is around but…

I just wish that everything was how it was before. Tifa getting jealous over Aeris, Aeris kissing up on Cloud, Barret being all tough, Vincent being silent as always… and me being the super annoying one, crushing on him!

I miss my daily life.

I hate everybody.

Everybody thinks as me as the strong one, but if they really knew me…

Another tear falls down and I hear someone coming. Like I care? At least I have a witness to my suicide.

"Hey, Yuffie." Oh, it's only the flower girl. My bad.

"…"

"What are you doing here?"

"…"

"Yuffs, what's wrong?"

Oh no, I'm going to break down!

I see her sit beside me out of the corner of my eye.

She's wrapping an arm around me… this is eerie…

"Yuffie… please tell me…" She's starting to cry too. Why is she? She's perfectly happy, knowing Cloud is here! God, she doesn't know shit!

I shake my head, my throat is too tight to speak. So's hers I guess cause she shut her mouth finally.

A few minutes later I got up and left Aeris sitting as I was before. I leave her alone, maybe she might die and I'll have another reason to die as well.

Now in my room, I searched for anything to keep me amused. Maybe a game or something? I looked through my pack. Boomerang… orgamis… a knife… a knife! Yes…

I took out the knife, sat on my bed and stared at it. My cold pale reflection stared back at me and I brought the knife down to my arm. I looked at my pale wrist for the last time, unscarred, and then I brought the knife down to the skin.

I dug it as deep as I could without causing too much pain, and moved it sideways. The blood began to come to the surface, and I made another one, the same, across the first.

Tears once again fell down my cheeks as I cut more.

Finally I was done, I put the knife away, and my arm began to sting.

I found a cloth, wrapped it around my arm, and finally went to sleep.

A month later (November 20)

Everything was normal for me, same day as always. Nobody knows it's my birthday except Cloud and Aeris, but ever since the thirteenth, Aeris hasn't talked to me. Not that I want her to or anything.

Leon's acting suspicious. Very, very eerie.

Anyways, since it was my birthday, I think Aeris or Cid found a good excuse to let me sleep in, cu I got to sleep until three o'clock. Very nice.

The scars are getting deeper though. They go up both arms now and I wear some weird black opera gloves to cover them. Nobody asks about those either.

I woke up and put on all my clothes. I'm not really hungry, so I just go on the roof for some alone time.

Ten minutes later the peace was interrupted by Leon.

"Hey," He greeted. Not his usual way, but who really gives a damn?

"Hey…" I said back.

"Can we talk?"

"About what?"

"Look, for the past month you've been acting really..."

"Really…?"

"Really depressed. Look, It's none of my business, but what's behind those gloves?"

I looked at him and shot him a look. "No, it's none of your business? Why the hell do you care anyways, eh? EH?" I ran off and went to my room.

Four hours later it was dark out and I sat in bedroom all alone.

Now I'm really bored.

I glance at my window and smile. I jump out of my bed and go to it. I open it, jump on my desk, and climbed out…

I sat at the bar, drinking beers quickly. I don't know how many, I lost count.

I bet you're thinking something along the lines of, 'Don't you have to be 21?' Here, no. Only eighteen. Go me.

Now I was just plain drunk, everything was fuzzy.

I know I ran to the only bathroom and puked a good number of times, and finally I felt someone move the hair out of my face.

After a while of puking, I was finally done,. And the man flushed the toilet. I think I passed out there, I can't remember their face at all…

What do you think? I never played ff7, it was too scratched up to play, but I did a bunch of research. I know Yuffie's pretty OC in this first part, but she'll get better. I promise! REVIEWS! Sora, Riku, and Kairi are coming as well, don't worry!

Next Chappie:
"You don't think I'm creepy?"
"Not compared to me."
"Oh really?"
"Yeah," I said, pulling down my gloves. "Do you think I am?"