This is my first Smallville fanfic so be nice. Sorry its quite short and the grammar isnt perfect but later chapters will be longer and more improved. Anything in Italics are Clark's personal thoughts.
CLARK'S POV
Chapter 1
Clark sat in the comfort of his barn, all alone, tears seeping down his red face. He may have been an alien from another planet, but the horrible feeling of heartbreak affected him like any human he knew.
I wish I were a human, no powers,just normal Clark Kent. I cant keep lying to the people I care about,especially Lana. She doesnt deserve this,and if I carry on she will surely stop trusting me completly-that is if she hasnt already. All this, all this pain is the thanks I get for protecting her. If she knew my secret she will be in so much trouble. I mean look at Chloe, she was so much safer before she knew about me. I CANT endager Lana to. Letting her go is the only option, she hates me if Ilie to her which is what I am forced to do daily to protect her, and if she knew I dont know what would happen to her. I refuse to lose the love of my life, there is no one else I could ever love. NO ONE!
"Hey,Smallville. Whats up?" Clark turned drasticly wiping his tears on his face, to see Lois Lane standing on top of the wooden steps of the barn. She was smiling at him with a mischevious grin.
"What do you want, Lois?" Clark said venemously. She always had to be around when he didnt want her to be, and ever since Lois started living at the Kent Farm, Clark would always say he would do anything to get rid of her. Smothering her with a pillow- anything!.
"I just talked to Lana, she said you broke up-Again!" she looked annoyed.
"Its only temporary, Im sure we will work things out eventually. We always do" He gave Lois a quick smile and looked down at floor.
Who I am kidding, I dont want to work things out with her. The only way to do that is to tell her the truth,and I can't do that. What if she doesn't like what she see's? I dont want the love of my life to look at me like an alien from another planet for the rest of our lives, I want her to know me as Clark Kent, the shy Kansas farmboy who has been in love with her since 4th grade.
"Clark, when are you going to accept that you and Lana are never going to work. Stop dwelling on her and just move on. You keep breaking up, and breaking eachothers hearts. Trust me, heartbreak is worse than any other pain- I should know" Lois shouted. She looked sad and a tear rolled down her cheek.
Lois Lane is crying infront of me,this isn't right ...She is the most strong,independant women I have ever known,I have never seen one tear on her face. Wow, maybe she does have a heart.
"Are you okay, Lois?" Clark looked at her with a worried expression. Lois quickly wiped the tear of her face and stared at Clark.
"Yeah, dont get your hopes up Smallville. I know how much you would love to see me sad, but this girl is fine and doesnt let love effect her. Unlike some people" She nodded at Clark who's face was still bright red after crying over Lana for hours. This annoyed Clark to no end,she will never understand how strong his feelings for Lana were- NEVER. Any love that she has felt could never compete.
"Just leave me alone, Lois. You know, for a minute I thought maybe you had a heart but you will obviously never know this feeling. I dont want someone like you going on at me about my love life. I can usually put up with you making fun of me, but not today. Just do me favour and... kill yourself!" Clark immediately regretted what he had just said, and looked at Lois with sad sorry eyes.
What is wrong with me? This just shows what a bad effect Lana has one me. Maybe Lois was right after all. Maybe I should just move on if she makes me feel like this.
Tears started to well up inside Lois's eyes. She looked like she had just been punched, but what Clark didnt realize was she felt like she had been punched in the heart. She turned and began walking slowly down the wooden steps of the barn, the steps creaking at she walked.
"Lois, wait!" Clark yelled. Lois just continued walking out the barn and outside into the warm sun. Clark had never felt so guilty in his entire life, after all Lois had only been trying to help. Clark looked out the barn window, and saw Lois leaving in her bright red car. He could hear her whimpering with his super hearing even after she had driven a good mile or so. He couldnt bear to listen to the two people he cared about crying because of him.
Nice going, Smallville. How many more people are you willing to hurt today?.