Nick threw another jar of whiskey at the wall across from him. He would probably wake up Clem, but he couldn't give less of a fuck. Things have gone to complete shit and he was tired. And drunk, but that was besides the point. His last remaining family was dead. His Uncle Pete, who could be an asshole but was a good man, was gone forever. There was nothing left for him here. He needed to end it.

The thought didn't sadden him. It seemed like the most sane conclusion. Live in this hellhole or die and see his family? He'd probably go to hell anyway. He felt so nauseous right now. Maybe it was booze? Or the memory of seeing his Uncle get slaughtered by lurkers? He chugged another jar, ignoring the feeling. He heard tiny footsteps walk his way...a walker?

...No, it was Clem. Her arms were crossed "You're scaring me." Nick threw another jar "We need to find a way out of here." She said worried "What's the point? We'll go, find a new place, then we'll be the next to get killed." Nick sighed.

"Fine, just go. The cabin's not far. You'll see it. Find Luke and the others...they'll keep you safe, better than I could, anyway." He stared at the ground "I'm not leaving you here to die." Clem said "We can get back there together." she held out her hand.

Nick stared at her for a second before standing up "Okay. Just be careful". "You're the drunk one." She smiled.

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The two moved past the walkers quickly, stumbling over sticks and rocks on the dirt path. As soon as they were 'safe' Nick put his hand on a nearby tree, feeling the pressure in his throat. He threw up bile, since the group hadn't eaten in a few days. Clem looked at him worried "Are you okay?" Nick nodded, wiping a few stray tears away "Yeah, just drank too much..."

The two hurry as fast as their legs could go back to the cabin. They seen Alvin and Luke, looking like they're about to head out, no doubt looking for them.

"There ya guys are!" Luke says "We were gonna look for you guys...where's Pete?" Alvin says confused. A pained look crosses Nick's face. Luke immediately knows what happened and moves to put his arms around his friend "I'm so sorry."

Nick doesn't move, he just kinda slumps his head on his friends shoulder. Luke may be sorry, but he'll never know how this feels. He pushes everything back. He doesn't bring the past up unless it's going to help himself. Nick is always in the past...forced to remember everything he's lost and everything he will lose.

Luke helps him back inside. Nick can feel his gut hurt. "We need to leave tomorrow. Carlos said we're still too close to Carver's camp. Maybe we can get to the next state?" Luke said, searching the map "But fer now we should just rest up.".

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Nick lays in the bed he shares with Luke. They don't always...sleep in here. It had been going on for about three months. Nick offered...of course he did, because he's a fucking lovesick puppy around Luke. At first the other was hesitant, eventually agreeing a few days later. It had hurt...not so much during the act, but after. He felt dirty and wrong. He knew that nothing more would come out of this 'relationship'...but he needed this. And using his friend felt wrong.

Nick closes his eyes, trying to forget, but can't. He lays a hand on his stomach absentmindedly.

...There was a slight movement, it made Nick jump.

No...it was probably just is stomach growling...but he didn't hear anything. He started ti feel the need to puke again. He sprinted to the bathroom, not closing the door, emptying his gut again. Carlos walked by the door, shocked "Are you feeling alright, Nick?" Nick wiped his face and shook his head. Carlos sighed and motioned him to follow to his room.

Carlos had him lay on the bed, he lifted his shirt up and pressed his hands around Nick's stomach "You seemed to gain weight, yet we hardly eat." He stated. One hand pressed too hard, and something moved again. Carlos pulled back, shocked "What the hell was that?!" Nick could only stare horrified at his stomach.

Carlos composes himself after a few minutes and grabs his stethoscope, putting it on Nick's stomach. A few seconds later he stands up and turns to Nick.

"Congrats, you're pregnant."