"We are The Crystal Gems!"

"Rose Quartz cared about all life."

"This is all your fault. You and your weird mom."

"What do you know about my mom? I never got to know my mom!"

"The Crystal Gems, they don't care about gems. Just the earth!"

"They want to be with me!"

"You know I was in there… and you didn't do anything!"

"I said I don't wanna fight!"

"I never wanted you to see this horrible place."

"You came out of... this hole?"

"What do you know!? You never even met her!"

"This is my home, and you're all my family!"

"Aliens Steven! Aliens who invaded earth!"

"I watched the leaders of the Crystal Gems, Rose Quartz, shatter Pink Diamond."

"I thought you guys were gonna tell me everything from now on…"

"There are things that are impossible for me to explain… But I want to."

"I'm not Rose, I'm Steven."

"I've been fight every since I was set free from the Earth's crust!"

"I'm gonna tell them, I'm gonna tell them everything…"

"You really are better than her…"

"I didn't want to hurt anyone!"

"Thank You Rose Quartz, you doomed the planet."

"Why didn't no one told me about Pink Diamond?"

"Rose never wanted you to see that place."

"It's lucky something has some information that I don't have to get out of them!"

"She always did what was best for the Earth."

"Rose Wanted!? What about what I want!?"

"Rose told us that everything was worth protecting."

"I'm sick of you guys lying to me!"

"She wanted to fight for gems!"

"Rose is MY Mom, out of ANYONE, don't I deserve to know the TRUTH!?"

"A Rose Quartz shattered Pink, the inter cot of gems deserve the same faith!"

"I know what you are; you're a liar!"

"How can a weak being like a human live, but an all powerful diamond perish…?"

"You said you didn't want to hurt anyone, but you hurt everyone!"

"A Rose Quartz was nowhere near Pink Diamond."

"Pearl… did you really shatter her?"

"Someone with extreme authority… Someone… Like one of you!"

"Mom was Pink Diamond…"

"What about you!? She's your mom!"

"I guess what's important right now is how hard Garnet took it…"

"We weren't there for her stupid war!"

"She lied to us!"

"I'm not surprised… I knew she was a lair…"

"The past is the past. All that matters now is what you are now."

And... who was he now?

With all of these thoughts, all of those heart wrecking moments, if someone was to ask, what could he call himself now? These memories were still painful to think back on. They feel like such a long time ago, but really everything that has happened only filled two years. The young hybrid stands facing the sunset, everything began and ended on this exact beach. He became a gem here, he freed a gem here, he learned the truth here, and time and time again the truth of his mother's past was revealed here. Everything just felt too different. Even though this was his home, even though the town was at peace right now, the young teen's heart and mind was still trapped. Trapped forever in this maze of memories all wrapped into that one question.

Who was he now?

Before this, he was just Steven Quartz Universe. He wore this name with pride and grinned whenever he said it. It was the name his mother had given him, and it felt special to him. Back then, life was peaceful, even though he knew he was a very annoying and whiny kid back then. He would wake up every morning in the temple, go to the Donut Shop and hang out in town. He wasn't really a Crystal Gem back then, just learning the ropes and all, but back then he wanted nothing else but to be one. Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl were all like mothers to him. He wanted to be just like his mom and some day be a leader. That's all he ever thought about back then, all he could ever really dream of. Back then, life was simple. It seems like so long ago, as if that past was a different timeline. He frowned at this; back then, he was living in a fog.

A fog that broke when Lapis Lazuli came didn't think much of it back then, but he knew that much was kept secret from him. When he showed them the mirror that kept his friend, Steven can truthfully say that it was the most terrifying day of his life that year. How the gems just wanted to bubble her, destroy her, not even thinking twice about doing something like that to their own kind. It was the first of many things that broke the young teen's fog of life. He learned much that day from both Lapis and the gems. The monsters they fought, the creatures he hurt, were really one of his own. It made the boy sick to his stomach every time he thought of them. All those gems were trapped not just in the bubbles, but in their very own gems. Lost forever in their very own minds. It sicken him how he couldn't help them, and the gems haven't tried to.

Who are you now Steven?

Later on, steven thought of himself as his mother's shadow. He answered with 'her copy'. That's all he was, that's all he ever felt back then. By the time Jasper came to Earth, everything felt so hollow but still beating and on fire as well. It tore at the hybrid to no end. The gems wanted her back, his father wanted her back, even Jasper wanted her back and it was just to end her life. Everyone, and everything on Earth was screaming at him to bring her back. It was awful, and so heart pulling painful. His gem didn't feel like his own, it wasn't his own. At times, his body felt like it was being controlled, like a puppet on strings. Was it him at the controls, or was it his mother? At first he didn't know.

At first it was Peridot. At first she was an enemy, pure and simple, and like any enemy the gems only taught him one thing. He was meant to capture her, put her in a bubble, before she contacts Homeworld. Steven obeyed them without question, but often at times he questioned as to why. He and the others knew she couldn't contact Yellow Diamond or Homeworld, they all could have talked it out, but instead he worked on autopilot. He let Garnet and Pearl order him around to stop Peridot, and he did it without question. Tears always threatened to well up in his eyes thinking back on how stupid he was. He was being himself! He would have never went along with poofing Peridot. If he had a choice sooner, he would have talked to her, not be a puppet for the gems to use as a shield. It was a good thing he got his way in the end, but it didn't stop there.

Next was Bismuth, and even though they made up in the end, that night still haunts him to this day. The night of heat and magma, the shouts and the screams, and then finally the sword through her gut. Steven could never get that out of his head. It was very burn into his skull, no matter how much the gems told him it wasn't his fault. They tried helping, Connie tried helping, but nothing they said or did helped. Just like his mother, he stabbed Bismuth, bubbled her, and left her in a prison. It was the first times he fully realized that he was becoming like his mother, and he feared at first that he couldn't stop it. He felt horrible. Like a sick taste of metal and horrid slime filled his mouth and lungs. At times he couldn't sleep, couldn't eat without thinking of that night, and it only had got worse.

It hurt. Everything had hurt those past few months. Day after day, night after night, terrible moment after another, and all Steven could do was smile. He could only smile and pretend to be happy, even thought he was screaming to himself in his mother's room. He wanted it out. The gem. He wanted to rip it out at times, hating himself for even loving such a virus on his stomach. That's all it was. A virus, a disease that was coated in his mother's wrong doings. He hated himself, he hated the gems, and he hated his mother. If it wasn't for her, Jasper wouldn't have been corrupted. She wouldn't have been hurt and in pain for what Rose did. Same goes for Eyeball, she was lost in space cause of what Rose had done. It was her fault, and it was his fault. All his fault! How can the truth be hidden from him for so long. His mother was a lair, she was a murderer, and the Crystal Gems hid it from him. she shattered a Diamond. Pink Diamond! His mother was a monster, and he was slowly becoming her. No matter how much he cried the hybrid knew the truth, and it only made him cry harder those nights.

Who was he now?

After learning that shocking truth, Steven became nothing. He didn't bother to care for his name. At that moment it didn't really matter. He was a hollow shell, holding a gem that didn't belong to him, a gem he didn't even want anymore.

Nobody knew of this. How could they? He hid it from everyone. His sadness, his pain, his torture and hell that lived within him. Steven hid it all from his family and friends. They thought he was fine, but they never knew how hollow his smiles were. Even while fused as Stevonnie, Connie thought none of the wiser. He hid it all from the whole world, and he still continues to hide it from this day. The boy remembers these days the best, it was a point in his life that he would always remembered, always tempered to go back to those days. Even though they hurt, at nights he was pleasant. Steven couldn't help but smile a bit brokenly at those memories. How the cold air hit his arms and legs as he stood on top of the hill. How the height was so wonderful to look at, it almost felt like he could fly if he just took one step out. He felt so empty, but still smiled so wide up at the stars and moon. It made the black ink like ocean gleam under its light, but it never gleamed as bright as the red river that dripped down his pale arms. It was odd at first doing it. He felt like he was breathing for the first time, but also his last. If it wasn't for his healing spit, the gems would have known sooner finding him forever in sleeping bliss in the morning.

Good thing though he never took it that far, but the opportunity did show itself many times. Times when he was angry. Times he had just had enough of all of their lies, all of their secrets. The gems never told him anything, and even though he tried over and over again they still kept their secrets. He exploded. His happy mask would crumple and the the hate and rage would show through. He yelled at Garnet, at Pearl, and even at Connie. It felt good to yell at them, to make them see how much he was tried of the pain they kept giving him, but after he was done the boy only felt guilt. It would be this guilt that would eat up at him too. Seeing their looks of fear and shock, it was enough at times to believe that they didn't love him. Rose never scream, she never fought like this with them. He was just a freak, a monster. It would be these thoughts that almost done him in. Steven had lose count how many times he raised that gleaming blade to his neck, so tempted to just go back to sleep.

It was only when he was sent after to Homeworld did he feel like he was free. That moment he looked deeply into Aquamarine's eyes, those cold and gleeful eyes. She didn't realize it, but she was offering him her hand. It was that offering of something to get to end his suffering, to finally bring his torture to an end. He wanted it to end so badly, to just be put down and out of their misery. Steven blamed himself. It was his fault all of this happened anyhow, and no one could say otherwise. Why would they care about? It's why he didn't fuse with Connie, it's why he broke down. He gave his friends up to Homeworld, he almost sent them to a prison never to return home. He screwed up, and it was that pain realization that made he give himself up to the small blue tyrant. A freak like him shouldn't live, he was monster that should be punished. He was a criminal, and he knew that the Diamond would put an end to him. It was what he deserved, it was all that he felt at that moment when he took her hand. She was death, and he wanted nothing more than the peaceful sleep he knew she could give. He was scared, but in a way he felt he was being set free.

But then, his world came crashing down again. Not only was Lars with him, but the cold hard truth was set in stone. Steven would never forget that Zircon and how she stood up for him in front of the Diamonds. the trail was nerve wracking, but Steven fought with all of his might. He watched with wide eyes, seeing how the truth was laid out before him and the other Diamonds. A cold stating fact that was deep inside the boy's gut, but never believed it until the facts were laid out.

Rose didn't shatter Pink Diamond.

She couldn't have done it. The plan made no sense, and the action was impossible to pull off. Steven felt like he was dropped into a bucket of ice water when he heard this. Only a Diamond could have shattered Pink Diamond. Rose was innocent the whole time. He wanted to cheer, to cry and shout how he was right, but he couldn't. Just as the bright light of happiness came raining down on him, the dark shadows from below swallowed him whole. Rose was still an awful person, and if she didn't shatter Pink then who did. The other Diamonds came to mind, but he threw that aside, thinking it was possible but also unlikely option. Then the gems came to mind, and everything came to another halt. It wasn't Peridot, nor Amethyst, not even Bismuth could have done it no matter how much she wanted to with the breaking point.

Pearl came to mind, and another sense of fury, disbelief, and betrayal wracked through Steven's body. At this point, he couldn't really care if they were trying to protect him. The determination to know the truth, after mouths even a year of pain, the hybrid wanted nothing more than the lies to stop. He needed to truth! No more secrets, no more hiding and no more of this stabbing pain in his chest and the urge to punch the gems in the face. He came to Pearl, and she finally gave him the answer that he wanted. Even though he never saw it coming. It was like falling, so free yet so terrifying.

Who was he now?

The new was Pink, for he really was the son of Pink Diamond.

The answer shocked, confused, and even hurt the poor boy. Steven felt worn out, but reawaken all at once when he came back from Pearl's gem. Of course, he didn't have any real time to think on the new information cause of Garnet becoming undone. The hybrid had seen it many times before, but this was shocking to see Sapphire so upset. Ruby really was the one to get hot headed, but for a long moment it really looked like she didn't care about it. In a way, Steven could understand it. Rose was gone, in a way, so her being Pink didn't matter. It shouldn't have mattered that much, but it did, in more ways than one. For everyone, it was like new wound was being made to add up on the war that already ended. The wound was just bigger on Sapphire than anyone had every realized.

In a way, Steven was kind of happy that Sapphire blew up the way she did. Even though amethyst wanted him mad and upset, the hybrid just didn't want those emotions to surface. For a whole year, he was sad and hiding his pain from them all. He was angry, hurt, and crying so much that for once he just wanted to feel numb. He wanted his mind busy for once before letting his emotions to take over. His mother was a lair, a very terrible person that to be honest he never wanted to meet again, and Steven was okay with that. The others may love her, but if he was being completely honest, Rose stopped being a mom to him long ago. He grown out of loving her. Was there even love to begin with, he wasn't really sure anymore.

He helped bring Garnet back, she had a wedding for herself, and things were looking good for everyone for once. It's only been a week since everything, and for once it felt like peace was finally settling in Beach City. Steven looked down from the hilltop, watching the gems and the town continue their lives as if nothing was really different, but in the same way everything was different. He smiled a bit at Garnet and Pearl's happy faces as both Peridot and Bismuth explained their new invention to the others. The two have gotten pretty close since the wedding, almost never leaving the forge. The boy turned a bit to the left to see Amethyst hanging out with Velida and her kids. He even saw Sadie and the cool kids hanging out near the Big Donut, even though Mr. Dewey was embarrassing his son as well. Everyone was so happy and cheerful, without a care in the world. In a way, that all Steven really wanted. To be happy.

So why didn't he feel that now? Was it the question? The still lingering thoughts that things just wasn't over yet? Why did he still feel this way?

Who… was he now?

Looking up at the bright clear sky, Steven felt that sense of longing. He honestly had never really felt it this strong before. It only came to him a few times, but he always ignored it or pushed it aside. Now though, he had all the time in the world, so he thought on them future, never letting his eyes fall away from the stars he knew where there.

He wasn't a quartz as he first had thought to believe. Now the hybrid knew he was really a diamond. Pink Diamond left her home, betrayed the other Diamonds, all in the name to save earth. She believed that just talking to them couldn't save the Earth, so she went to war. Lying to both sides just to get the gems and the planet to be free. It was brave and reckless, even noble, but very stupid in Steven's opinion. Pearl had told him how she was trying to protect the earth, but his dreams told a different story. He still got them when he fell asleep, and they were almost always the same. Pink lying to the Diamonds, and Blue and Yellow telling her stop and continue working on the colony. Lie after lie. Pink never told them the truth as to why she wanted to defend the earth, just silly reasons as to why she couldn't make a colony on the planet. Like the buildings be too hard, the humans are to wild.

Just thinking about made him disgusted with her childish ways. Steven couldn't help but agree with Blue and even Yellow at times. His mother was very childish and lying just was pitiful. The hybrid always hated to lie, even though he did it a few times himself. He hated it cause it always ends up getting someone hurt. War didn't have to be the answer. It wasn't the only answer.

He felt bad for the other Diamonds. Blue and Yellow should have never had been lied to the way that they did. The gems, even Connie, called them tyrants and evil rulers but Steven never saw that. In fact, ever time they did call them such names, Steven couldn't help but feel a tint of rage, more so now that he knew the truth. They weren't tyrants. Sure they were ruthless rulers at times and just downright terrifying, but deep down the boy knew there was more to why they were like that. They weren't like that before, that much Steven knew. Blue was so much kinder than Garnet had lead him to believe, she was a shatterer yes, but in a way she acted like a mother grieving for her dead child. Yellow was no different, she hid her emotions and moved forward, but the hybrid knew she was upset just as much as Blue was. They were just sad, depressed even that they had lost Pink. They lost their family to Rose Quartz, and losing family was never easy.

Why couldn't the gems had seen that? Maybe cause Rose made them believe that the Diamonds were evil people. She disrespected her own family so much that the Crystal Gems started to believe her lying mouth, and in a way they still do. It made Steven feel sick. The Diamonds didn't deserve this. They didn't deserve to be in pain while the gems were happy and carefree. Just thinking of this made the hybrid's blood boil in such a new level of fury. His hands at his sides had turned into to tight skin breaking fist as he started to glare down at the gems chatting nonsense down in the beach below, getting angry the more he saw their laughing smiles.

How dare did they laugh while the Diamonds suffered? How dare do they call them tyrants when in reality they were just grieving for Pink, someone who betrayed them, to be revenged? his breathing picked up slightly, and he shook his head, grabbing onto his gem as he looked up at the sky once more. He was upset, furious, but most importantly he was sad. He didn't feel like he even belonged on Earth anymore, knowing the he had another home out there, a home he wasn't sure he should call his, upset him. The Diamonds were his family, but gem if anything. It tore up at the hybrid, wishing he could find a way to tell them, but scared to as well.

What would the Crystal Gems thing? What would he do now? Would he stay here on Earth if they do come, or go with them?

Who was he now?

Steven looked down at his gem, pulling up his shirt as he saw it gleam in the light. A small weak smile pulled up on the boy's lips, chuckling bitterly as he touched his gem with such care. Almost as if the gem would shatter under his touch. "I know who I am now," He mumbled, the words barely audible through the soft howling of the wind. "I'm Steven, and I'm a Diamond."

His diamond shape gem only gleamed in response.

Hello everyone on Fanfiction! My name is Noah, Noah Starlight, and I'm here to bring my stories for your enjoyment. This one, My Homeworld, is originallyfrom Wattpad. I forgot I even had a fanfiction account. Any, I know some of you don't have Wattpad, and since so many like this story on there I want to bring here for you guys to enjoy.

Just so everyone knows before I continue, I'm a Stevidot and Stevmthyst shipper. I hate Connie and Pink Diamond, but also dislike Pearl. I'm saying this cause my stories here will have Connie hating moments as well as Pearl and Pink. If you likes these characters, then good for you, just don't come threatening me or trying to shove your ideals of them down my throat. I hate them, so move on if you dislike my stories course of that fact.

Also this story will take place after Garnet's weddings, but the Diamonds don't show up. Steven might act very OCC in my story, but hey I'm just trying to make him more believableas a 14 year old teen growing up to fast.

Wlep, that's everything!

Hope you guys enjoy the new story! Get set to get Deck!

Bye! ;)