When Someone's Wishes Come True
- a Confidential Confessions songfic
by: hika to pika
Based on the 3rd story (3rd Tokyopop manga), "Memai" (Dizziness). After Kyoko gets out of rehab, what happens to her?
"Dareka no Negai ga Kanau Koro" (When Someone's Wishes Come True) is copyright Utada Hikaru and Toshiba EMI. Translation from utada-onlinedotnet.
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Being such a small detail, I lost the important thing
The cold ring shines at me, showing me
I said, "As long as I have it right now," but that wasn't the case
The door that continues to you, making no sound, disappears
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Smiling was such a fun and easy thing for Kyoko Maeda to do. What happened?
Drugs happened. They had ruined everything for Kyoko.
It wasn't that her parents ignored her call for help. They brought her into rehab and she seemed to be making progress.
But there was still something missing in Kyoko's life.
Friends.
Her parents, in fear that the other students in school would terrorize her, sent her off to a new school. Where no one knew her. Where it seemed too late to make friends.
Switching schools is always tough. But it's even harder when you've gone through so much in one year. Drugs, addiction, tutoring, sexual harassment, getting in too deep....It was all too much for Kyoko. And being in a place that seemed as cold as the south pole didn't help her. She needed to be around people who understood her, people she knew, people that wouldn't ignore her loud outcry for help.
But her parents didn't understand that.
So she had to cope with her new surroundings. She still wished for someone to understand her and her feelings.
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The more I wish for your happiness
The more my selfishness increases
Still I want to stop you, at any time
Around the time someone's wish comes true
A child is crying
The sound of the door continues to be silent
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She had always been a good friend, wasn't she? Her friends always stood by her, even after her drug addiction. They had come over to help her study and to give her moral support. But that all seemed to fade away a few weeks ago.
Now she was stuck alone, struggling with her studies.
So she could please her father.
That's what started her drug addiction, wasn't it? Pleasing her father.
Kyoko wasn't the smartest or the dumbest, somewhere in between. But her father, a professor, wanted her to get the best grades. Pressure from a parent.
She still had remnance of her father's yelling. "Why can't you get good grades?" "I raised a stupid daughter!" It was all too much for her.
Keizo now distanced himself from his daughter. He was still in shock at what his pressure had turned into. A life-death experience. For him and his daughter.
Actually, Kyoko's parents spilt up. They just didn't understand what cause Kyoko's sudden outcry. So they spilt up because of many arguments on that issue. Obviously, this didn't help Kyoko at all.
Moral support. That was what Kyoko needed. Not the entire world falling apart because of her.
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You've become the one that everyone needs,
And wanting to be the one person to heal you,
I held back a little too much
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It's not like Kyoko was in absolute pain though. Sure, graduating your senior year with a bunch of strangers is a big thing, but all in all it wasn't the worst thing that could've happened.
It wasn't the best choice either.
There's always a popular person in a school, isn't there? The one that bosses everyone around, the 'trendy' one. Well, the popular person in Kyoko's new school was an absolute devil to her.
She was the only one who knew the reason that Kyoko had to transfer, and made that into the main staple of her teasing. It was absolute hell being around her.
Home wasn't any better either. Her old friends never seemed to visit anymore and she didn't have any new friends. It felt empty. She lived with her mother in their old house. Her father had moved to Hokkaido. He always sent them letters though.
"Do well on your next test!" "Don't give up!"
Kyoko couldn't tell if he was teasing her or motivating her.
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Wishing for my own happiness
Isn't selfish, is it?
If that's the case then I want to embrace you, as hard as I possibly can
Around the time my tears dry,
A child is crying
The ground beneath our feet will never dry
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Kyoko still had a few bags of speed left under her bed. She had a few bags left somewhere that her parents didn't look, so she kept them under her bed.
That's what kept her going.
That fact that she could resist the temptation of drugs in her reach.
It was the only thing that could keep her alive. The fact that she was strong and didn't need other people telling her what to do.
Wishing for her own happiness.
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The more I wish for your happiness
The more my selfishness increases
You never stop me, ever
Around the time someone's wish comes true
A child is crying
There's no way that everyone's wishes can come true at once
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Pressure had been Kyoko's downfall. She always felt that she needed to please someone. Never herself. Pleasing herself would be selfish, wouldn't it?
She offten cryed herself to sleep. It was never out of depression. It was always out of frustration.
'How can I please others? Everyone else? I can't be selfish. I have to please my mom. I have to please my teachers. I have to please everyone.'
Kyoko only felt loved by her mother, who became more distant from Kyoko by every day that passed. Kyoko became a loner who was just out there to finish school and get a job. To be lonely forever.
It was amazing how one small thing can keep a broken puzzle of lies together. And it's even more puzzling how that very same thing tore everything apart.
Drugs.
Back at the beginning again. How it all started. Why it all started. Pressure.
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With every rotation of this small world,
The more I become accustomed to your kindness
I want to embrace you once again, as softly as I possibly can